Sunday, October 04, 2009
i really have no idea what the hell is going on.
i'm supposedly leading a very nice and happy and blissful life.
i have my friends, i have my family.
i have gotten my 'desired' job and will start work soon.
i have been having some wonderful times,
but i just feel super lethargic.
i cant seem to get enough rest everyday,
and i totally dread going to work.
i so feel like quitting already,
but never ever got the courage to bring up this topic.
i guess i really hate working there.
i've been giving everyone so much problems there,
i'm more like a hindrance to them rather than helping out.
everytime i change shift or close the shop,
i can never ever get the accounts right.
its a damn sucky feeling, esp when my maths sucks.
i think the problem lies in me cos apparently no one else is having the same problem as me.
and i'm really really really very happy that i got into mdc.
its something which i want to try, something new.
but i know how things work in this line.
once i start work,
i'm gonna be so busy that i wun have any time for anyone.
i know i will be stuck in such a dilemma trying to make a decision,
trying to do some good time management.
considering how i know myself,
i'm soooo gonna turn into a workaholic.
i will work and work and slog myself out,
without giving myself any breather at all.
oh man,
shuang ying is such a sucky person man.
and i've been feeling so empty and insecure cos of all the nonsense i repeatedly tell myself almost everyday.
i dunno if i did the right thing,
i dunno if i made the right choice.
i dunno if this is real or not,
i dunno if i should continue being like this.
things that used to feel so right,
doesnt feel the same anymore.
i'm afraid to commit the same mistake i've made over and over again.
perhaps being single is the best thing ever.
i'm supposedly leading a very nice and happy and blissful life.
i have my friends, i have my family.
i have gotten my 'desired' job and will start work soon.
i have been having some wonderful times,
but i just feel super lethargic.
i cant seem to get enough rest everyday,
and i totally dread going to work.
i so feel like quitting already,
but never ever got the courage to bring up this topic.
i guess i really hate working there.
i've been giving everyone so much problems there,
i'm more like a hindrance to them rather than helping out.
everytime i change shift or close the shop,
i can never ever get the accounts right.
its a damn sucky feeling, esp when my maths sucks.
i think the problem lies in me cos apparently no one else is having the same problem as me.
and i'm really really really very happy that i got into mdc.
its something which i want to try, something new.
but i know how things work in this line.
once i start work,
i'm gonna be so busy that i wun have any time for anyone.
i know i will be stuck in such a dilemma trying to make a decision,
trying to do some good time management.
considering how i know myself,
i'm soooo gonna turn into a workaholic.
i will work and work and slog myself out,
without giving myself any breather at all.
oh man,
shuang ying is such a sucky person man.
and i've been feeling so empty and insecure cos of all the nonsense i repeatedly tell myself almost everyday.
i dunno if i did the right thing,
i dunno if i made the right choice.
i dunno if this is real or not,
i dunno if i should continue being like this.
things that used to feel so right,
doesnt feel the same anymore.
i'm afraid to commit the same mistake i've made over and over again.
perhaps being single is the best thing ever.
what we could have been, 2:48 AM.
