Wednesday, February 28, 2007
its been a month since that impactful thing...
i've already felt much more better...
but i'm trying to pull myself together...
i'm not sure whether izzit bcos i cant let go of it...
or izzit bcos i dowan to let go of it...
my life has been so messed up...
i can tell myself "i wan a cup of drink"...
and i walked into the kitchen and look ard blankly...
den i will ask myself "wad am i doing here?"
den i walked out again...
jus as i sit down on the sofa den i remember...
i wan a cup of drink.
or i could jus sit down there and stare in the air.
at nothing.
it often happen while i'm taking long distance buses.
i can remain in the same poisition for hours.
and i hate to listen to songs.
i hate to watch tv shows.
i hate to read stories.
everything seem so sad to miie.
this was life for miie ever since 28th january 2007.
kai yeong, ming fong, yuan jian and si shan.
reli. thanks a lot.
i'm reli glad to have u guys as frenz.
the care and concern plus love u guys showered miie with is reli...
very touching.
if it wasnt u guys i dunno how would i be now.
my heart has stop bleeding now...
and its taking time to heel the wound.
time is all i have now.
its the only thing that can help miie.
i dunno whether izzit fate or planned that we were nvr near each other at the chalet.
i do admit i was avoiding you.
bcos i wasnt prepared to see you yet.
i tot i would break down but i was glad i didnt.
it has prove to miie one thing.
i'm stronger than i tot i was.
even so, i'm still not prepared to see you.
not to mention to talk to you.
i dunno abt you, but that's for sure for miie.
i'll only start talking to you when i'm prepared for this.
definitely not now though.
guess this messed life up for miie.
and for you too.
i've already felt much more better...
but i'm trying to pull myself together...
i'm not sure whether izzit bcos i cant let go of it...
or izzit bcos i dowan to let go of it...
my life has been so messed up...
i can tell myself "i wan a cup of drink"...
and i walked into the kitchen and look ard blankly...
den i will ask myself "wad am i doing here?"
den i walked out again...
jus as i sit down on the sofa den i remember...
i wan a cup of drink.
or i could jus sit down there and stare in the air.
at nothing.
it often happen while i'm taking long distance buses.
i can remain in the same poisition for hours.
and i hate to listen to songs.
i hate to watch tv shows.
i hate to read stories.
everything seem so sad to miie.
this was life for miie ever since 28th january 2007.
kai yeong, ming fong, yuan jian and si shan.
reli. thanks a lot.
i'm reli glad to have u guys as frenz.
the care and concern plus love u guys showered miie with is reli...
very touching.
if it wasnt u guys i dunno how would i be now.
my heart has stop bleeding now...
and its taking time to heel the wound.
time is all i have now.
its the only thing that can help miie.
i dunno whether izzit fate or planned that we were nvr near each other at the chalet.
i do admit i was avoiding you.
bcos i wasnt prepared to see you yet.
i tot i would break down but i was glad i didnt.
it has prove to miie one thing.
i'm stronger than i tot i was.
even so, i'm still not prepared to see you.
not to mention to talk to you.
i dunno abt you, but that's for sure for miie.
i'll only start talking to you when i'm prepared for this.
definitely not now though.
guess this messed life up for miie.
and for you too.
what we could have been, 3:33 AM.
Tuesday, February 27, 2007
whee~
this is my 100th post...
like FINALLY can?!?!?!?!?!!!
LOL....
i a bit lazy to blog...
so nothing much to say...
ohh ohh ohh~
one of my cute guys came to play pool ytd!!!
right after the day i say my cute guys nvr come...
LOL!
i hope got more cute guys come...
hehehe....
see liao oso shuang~
woohoo~~
oh yea yea~~
this is my 100th post...
like FINALLY can?!?!?!?!?!!!
LOL....
i a bit lazy to blog...
so nothing much to say...
ohh ohh ohh~
one of my cute guys came to play pool ytd!!!
right after the day i say my cute guys nvr come...
LOL!
i hope got more cute guys come...
hehehe....
see liao oso shuang~
woohoo~~
oh yea yea~~
what we could have been, 4:45 PM.
Monday, February 26, 2007
waaahhh~~!!!!
my cute guys didnt came to play pool today sia....
)):
LOL!
so so so sad man...
)):
hope they will come soon...
so sleepy now...
go sleep liao man...
my cute guys didnt came to play pool today sia....
)):
LOL!
so so so sad man...
)):
hope they will come soon...
so sleepy now...
go sleep liao man...
what we could have been, 4:01 AM.
Thursday, February 22, 2007
saw this from somewhere...
and i decided to try it myself...
LOL!
Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.
(omg lah... this is so so true... esp the first sentence... no wonder i'm so well-loved... LOL!)
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
(yea... i guess i would...)
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
(well... dunno reli noe abt this though.... but maybe it's right...)
The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
(i think this one is quite true ba...)
Your views on education:
Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.
(woah! its so true... can i quit sch in this case?? =X)
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
(but i wanna be a DJ... ish DJ a secure job with steady income?? or maybe i should transfer to the teaching track... that's secure for sure...)
How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
(erm... a little bit not like miie... but heck...)
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
(yea... i dowan to rely on anyone too much... i've learnt my lesson this time...)
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
(wahahaha!!!! *beam proudly*)
omg lah...
this is so so so so true...
pple...
if u wanna try this, can click on this link: http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
and i decided to try it myself...
LOL!
Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.
(omg lah... this is so so true... esp the first sentence... no wonder i'm so well-loved... LOL!)
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
(yea... i guess i would...)
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
(well... dunno reli noe abt this though.... but maybe it's right...)
The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
(i think this one is quite true ba...)
Your views on education:
Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.
(woah! its so true... can i quit sch in this case?? =X)
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
(but i wanna be a DJ... ish DJ a secure job with steady income?? or maybe i should transfer to the teaching track... that's secure for sure...)
How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
(erm... a little bit not like miie... but heck...)
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
(yea... i dowan to rely on anyone too much... i've learnt my lesson this time...)
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
(wahahaha!!!! *beam proudly*)
omg lah...
this is so so so so true...
pple...
if u wanna try this, can click on this link: http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
what we could have been, 5:56 PM.
Saturday, February 17, 2007
its been a long time since i last update...
wanted to update everything at a go last nite...
but realise its futile...
cos i keep missing out on the details...
liddat might as well forget it...
i think i will start from thurs ba...
thurs went to work...
12pm to 9pm...
den after that went all the way to hougang...
to meet jess, mx, bel, yao, yu fung, hui jun n peter...
we went to sing kbox to celebrate yu fung bdae...
his 17th bdae...
which was like on 26th dec 2006??
lol...
sing kbox all the way till 2am...
kbox damn jian loh...
when the time is up they jus shut off the main system...
if u wanna sing den scream at them...
walked all the way from hougang back to sengkang...
went to ton at mx house...
oso dunno we walk for how long...
den we crapped and sing and make fun all the way...
very funny...
den hoh...
we walk past this bus stop where we saw a car...
den got couple *ahem* inside lah!!!
wah lao eh!!!
talked throughout the whole night...
damn crappy lah...
talked abt setting up a new course for school of HMS...
diploma in *ahem ahem*
*winks*
details not meant to be revealed...
LOL!
bel was the first one to KO...
but cant blame her cos she worked in the day...
den they went eat prata at jalan kayu...
reminds miie of miss chu and the LPS gang...
bel and i went home instead...
slept the first thing i reached home...
sleep all the way till like 130pm...
and i was supposed to meet the LPS peeps at 130pm...
kelvin was the first to call miie...
i picked up the phone and greeted him with a "oh shit!"
LOL!
den min xing called next...
she was greeted with a long "arghhhhh!!!!"
=D
rushed thru as fast as i could and got down to TM...
was shocked to see yong sheng lah!
cos he went to rebond his hair!
like OMG LAH~
met kelvin and sherine(his dearie)...
gordon came later...
he suggested watching movie...
i say i no money den in the end...
muahaha~
got pple treat miie...
yeah!!!
went shopping with min xing and played missing game...
no lah....
we jus disappear ourselves...
we shop ours and the boys shop theirs...
it was a nice time shopping with min xing...
let's go shopping one day again MX!!!!
when i got money den say...
=X
min xing went home and i went to find the boys...
it was den i saw SIM SI HAN!!!
wahh...
got the shock of my life...
si han arh si han...
its time to go on a diet liao arh...
that can be ur chinese new year resolution...
=P
went to watch ghost rider...
reli wonder y did i agree to watching it...
keep getting scared easily...
den that stoopid gordon and yong sheng keep teasing miie lah...
*!@#$%^&*!@#$%^
den that ys oso very the funny....
he go shopping buy his stuff liao he throw everything to gordon...
ask gordon to keep the stuff in his bag...
den in the end throughout the whole movie he took my stuff...
LOL!
gordon qi si liao...
so farnie...
after movie went to work...
haiz...
dowan to talk abt work...
nth much...
jus that the guy i find cute came...
he came only when i was supposed to leave...
-.-
today oso nothing...
so dun need to blog...
chinese new year is here...
but i'm ok with it leii...
like not much difference liddat...
hope can get more ang bao ba...
lol...
randomness: i am very scared...
scared to see u...
i have no confidence in myself...
i am afraid that i will break down when i see u...
i noe i will...
oh....
i cant wait for malaysia trip lah!!!!
oh yea~!
wanted to update everything at a go last nite...
but realise its futile...
cos i keep missing out on the details...
liddat might as well forget it...
i think i will start from thurs ba...
thurs went to work...
12pm to 9pm...
den after that went all the way to hougang...
to meet jess, mx, bel, yao, yu fung, hui jun n peter...
we went to sing kbox to celebrate yu fung bdae...
his 17th bdae...
which was like on 26th dec 2006??
lol...
sing kbox all the way till 2am...
kbox damn jian loh...
when the time is up they jus shut off the main system...
if u wanna sing den scream at them...
walked all the way from hougang back to sengkang...
went to ton at mx house...
oso dunno we walk for how long...
den we crapped and sing and make fun all the way...
very funny...
den hoh...
we walk past this bus stop where we saw a car...
den got couple *ahem* inside lah!!!
wah lao eh!!!
talked throughout the whole night...
damn crappy lah...
talked abt setting up a new course for school of HMS...
diploma in *ahem ahem*
*winks*
details not meant to be revealed...
LOL!
bel was the first one to KO...
but cant blame her cos she worked in the day...
den they went eat prata at jalan kayu...
reminds miie of miss chu and the LPS gang...
bel and i went home instead...
slept the first thing i reached home...
sleep all the way till like 130pm...
and i was supposed to meet the LPS peeps at 130pm...
kelvin was the first to call miie...
i picked up the phone and greeted him with a "oh shit!"
LOL!
den min xing called next...
she was greeted with a long "arghhhhh!!!!"
=D
rushed thru as fast as i could and got down to TM...
was shocked to see yong sheng lah!
cos he went to rebond his hair!
like OMG LAH~
met kelvin and sherine(his dearie)...
gordon came later...
he suggested watching movie...
i say i no money den in the end...
muahaha~
got pple treat miie...
yeah!!!
went shopping with min xing and played missing game...
no lah....
we jus disappear ourselves...
we shop ours and the boys shop theirs...
it was a nice time shopping with min xing...
let's go shopping one day again MX!!!!
when i got money den say...
=X
min xing went home and i went to find the boys...
it was den i saw SIM SI HAN!!!
wahh...
got the shock of my life...
si han arh si han...
its time to go on a diet liao arh...
that can be ur chinese new year resolution...
=P
went to watch ghost rider...
reli wonder y did i agree to watching it...
keep getting scared easily...
den that stoopid gordon and yong sheng keep teasing miie lah...
*!@#$%^&*!@#$%^
den that ys oso very the funny....
he go shopping buy his stuff liao he throw everything to gordon...
ask gordon to keep the stuff in his bag...
den in the end throughout the whole movie he took my stuff...
LOL!
gordon qi si liao...
so farnie...
after movie went to work...
haiz...
dowan to talk abt work...
nth much...
jus that the guy i find cute came...
he came only when i was supposed to leave...
-.-
today oso nothing...
so dun need to blog...
chinese new year is here...
but i'm ok with it leii...
like not much difference liddat...
hope can get more ang bao ba...
lol...
randomness: i am very scared...
scared to see u...
i have no confidence in myself...
i am afraid that i will break down when i see u...
i noe i will...
oh....
i cant wait for malaysia trip lah!!!!
oh yea~!
what we could have been, 9:28 PM.
Thursday, February 08, 2007
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what we could have been, 12:27 PM.
Wednesday, February 07, 2007
haiz...
how great...
here am i...
struggling with the stoopid cult hist assignment...
and my fever returning to miie...
G-R-E-A-T.
and the best part is...
i've run out of fever medicine.
W-O-N-D-E-R-F-U-L.
wondering how am i gonna get past tonight.
damn it.
jus some random thoughts...
i've jus done some random blog surfing...
and i came across one of my fren blog.
it appears to me that many are being haunted by their blogs.
its like...
whenever the blogger post something on his/her blog,
there will surely be comments or tags being left,
which are unfriendly to the blogger.
and these pple usually are cowards...
cos they dun dare to leave their names or wadeva....
jus leaving it as ANONYMOUS.
i reli wonder...
is leaving anonymous tags so fun??
if the blogger wasnt talking abt u...
den wad for are u leaving anonymous tags?
since its anonymous, the blogger wun noe who are u.
well, he/she might.
if u are notorious enuf.
and i see no point in trying to hurt the blogger thru tags lah.
wad do u expect the blogger to react?
run to his/her room and cry loudly or goes to his/her mummy and complain?
see...
its absolutely pointless lah.
when a person blogs, he/she is jus trying to him/herself feel better.
so wad for come spoil it?
so i rather...
to pple who are reading this...
if u are like...
gonna tag as anonymous and like try to make miie cry in my room or smth,
den u can forget it lah.
i dun need such pple de tags.
i cant believe that the world has pple with such small minds.
and i hate SPAMMING.
how great...
here am i...
struggling with the stoopid cult hist assignment...
and my fever returning to miie...
G-R-E-A-T.
and the best part is...
i've run out of fever medicine.
W-O-N-D-E-R-F-U-L.
wondering how am i gonna get past tonight.
damn it.
jus some random thoughts...
i've jus done some random blog surfing...
and i came across one of my fren blog.
it appears to me that many are being haunted by their blogs.
its like...
whenever the blogger post something on his/her blog,
there will surely be comments or tags being left,
which are unfriendly to the blogger.
and these pple usually are cowards...
cos they dun dare to leave their names or wadeva....
jus leaving it as ANONYMOUS.
i reli wonder...
is leaving anonymous tags so fun??
if the blogger wasnt talking abt u...
den wad for are u leaving anonymous tags?
since its anonymous, the blogger wun noe who are u.
well, he/she might.
if u are notorious enuf.
and i see no point in trying to hurt the blogger thru tags lah.
wad do u expect the blogger to react?
run to his/her room and cry loudly or goes to his/her mummy and complain?
see...
its absolutely pointless lah.
when a person blogs, he/she is jus trying to him/herself feel better.
so wad for come spoil it?
so i rather...
to pple who are reading this...
if u are like...
gonna tag as anonymous and like try to make miie cry in my room or smth,
den u can forget it lah.
i dun need such pple de tags.
i cant believe that the world has pple with such small minds.
and i hate SPAMMING.
what we could have been, 11:40 PM.
fuck.
fuck fuck fuck.
tml have to submit the damn cultural history assignment.
reli makes me wonder.
wad has BUILIDINGS got to do with cultural HISTORY?!?!?!
was supposed to go look for buildings on mon de...
but den fever attacks...
and that's it.
even till now, i still dunno wad building i'm gonna do.
darn.
totally clueless.
makes me wonder how the fuck am i gonna hand in assignment tml.
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.
fuck the god damn it fever.
AARRGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FUCK IT LAH.
i am so pissed off now.
FUCK.
fuck fuck fuck.
tml have to submit the damn cultural history assignment.
reli makes me wonder.
wad has BUILIDINGS got to do with cultural HISTORY?!?!?!
was supposed to go look for buildings on mon de...
but den fever attacks...
and that's it.
even till now, i still dunno wad building i'm gonna do.
darn.
totally clueless.
makes me wonder how the fuck am i gonna hand in assignment tml.
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.
fuck the god damn it fever.
AARRGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FUCK IT LAH.
i am so pissed off now.
FUCK.
what we could have been, 7:21 PM.
Tuesday, February 06, 2007
为什么，
我明知用头去撞墙头会痛，
但是，我还是拿头去撞墙呢？
为什么，
我明知滚烫的水会伤到手，
但是，我还是拿手去摸烧水呢？
为什么，
我明知道我们之间不会有结果，
但是，我还是坚持喜欢着你呢？
因为，我不知死活。
因为，我不知好歹。
因为，我不自量力。
喜欢你，并非一时冲动。
但，
忘了你，并非一朝一夕。
我会试着慢慢复原，我相信我会痊愈。
我明知用头去撞墙头会痛，
但是，我还是拿头去撞墙呢？
为什么，
我明知滚烫的水会伤到手，
但是，我还是拿手去摸烧水呢？
为什么，
我明知道我们之间不会有结果，
但是，我还是坚持喜欢着你呢？
因为，我不知死活。
因为，我不知好歹。
因为，我不自量力。
喜欢你，并非一时冲动。
但，
忘了你，并非一朝一夕。
我会试着慢慢复原，我相信我会痊愈。
what we could have been, 10:43 PM.
Monday, February 05, 2007
i am officially declared sick.
fever with 39.6 degrees.
wooo~
sick sick sick~~
wad a drag.
fever with 39.6 degrees.
wooo~
sick sick sick~~
wad a drag.
what we could have been, 6:13 PM.
Sunday, February 04, 2007
i had never felt better ever since my fever was gone...
esp when so many things are happening...
coughing non stop also...
its been only 7 days since i made my mind up...
but it appears to miie that it has alr been 7 months...
and i have taken up 2 jobs...
one is the handbag one...
which i think mostly would noe..
and the other is cashier at pool centre...
come find miie when u free...
the pool centre at marine parade...
above the mac opp parkway parade...
but den i have decided to quit the handbag job...
cos of something...
ytd i quarrel with my parents bcos of working...
i was supposed to work at the h/b there ytd...
but when i woke up in the morning, i had a very bad headache...
so i sms-ed my cousin-in-law saying i'm not well...
she flared up..
and i can understand y.
cos it was a last min notification...
and it would be hard for her to get a replacement...
thus i wanted to tell her i'll go work...
but she slam the phone down on miie and tell miie to stay at home.
so i did lah...
cos the headache was reli bad...
when dad came home in the evening...
the first thing he did was to scold miie when he step into the house.
he: y u nvr go and work?
me: i sick leii! headache very pain leii!
he: u noe wad troubles u bring to ur cuz-in-law ma?
me: *silence*
he: ur aunt call and nag at miie... say y u nvr go work...
me: *silence*
he: u noe her(cuz-in-law) 2 kids sick until nearly go hospital ma??
me: den other pple kids sick until nearly go hospital very big deal lah...
if i go work den faint need to go hospital den nvm lah?!?!
he: *silence* den if u dowan work u should have told other pple wad!
me: i did OK!!! i was feelin ok the night before...
how was i to noe i will have headache today??
he: u give miie some face can anot? liddat chinese new year how???
how to face the others???
like wad the fuck can??
ur face my problem arh??
chinese new year dunno how to face pple right??
i give u one solution.
STAY AT HOME LAH!!!
AND DUN GO ANYWHERE LOH!!!
u oso no money to give ang bao...
liddat good wad...
dun need to give ang bao...
i sacrifice lah...
i dun take ang bao loh....
liddat happy lah?
everyone oso happy...
FUCK LAH.
everytime got things go wrong surely my fault...
doesnt seem to miie that when got good things happen is bcos of miie.
fuck lah.
since i not happy working at commoditee there might as well quit.
so stress somemore.
wad for torture myself??
but i die oso wun quit the pool job.
wait long long.
i will only quit when i feel like quitting.
this time i'm not giving in.
u wan cold war i anything.
i dun care.
its not my fault this time round.
u were the one being unreasonable.
i wun suffer from the cold war anyway.
FUCK.
feelin so damn pissed off now.
fuck.
cant wait for the m'sia trip to come.
can go crazy.
still wondering should i go for the concert anot.
like very hard to get his kind of chance liddat...
but den like nobody going...
except for yao.
so i am still wondering see how...
i'm having fever again...
think i will stop here for a while.
when i more free den i continue.
esp when so many things are happening...
coughing non stop also...
its been only 7 days since i made my mind up...
but it appears to miie that it has alr been 7 months...
and i have taken up 2 jobs...
one is the handbag one...
which i think mostly would noe..
and the other is cashier at pool centre...
come find miie when u free...
the pool centre at marine parade...
above the mac opp parkway parade...
but den i have decided to quit the handbag job...
cos of something...
ytd i quarrel with my parents bcos of working...
i was supposed to work at the h/b there ytd...
but when i woke up in the morning, i had a very bad headache...
so i sms-ed my cousin-in-law saying i'm not well...
she flared up..
and i can understand y.
cos it was a last min notification...
and it would be hard for her to get a replacement...
thus i wanted to tell her i'll go work...
but she slam the phone down on miie and tell miie to stay at home.
so i did lah...
cos the headache was reli bad...
when dad came home in the evening...
the first thing he did was to scold miie when he step into the house.
he: y u nvr go and work?
me: i sick leii! headache very pain leii!
he: u noe wad troubles u bring to ur cuz-in-law ma?
me: *silence*
he: ur aunt call and nag at miie... say y u nvr go work...
me: *silence*
he: u noe her(cuz-in-law) 2 kids sick until nearly go hospital ma??
me: den other pple kids sick until nearly go hospital very big deal lah...
if i go work den faint need to go hospital den nvm lah?!?!
he: *silence* den if u dowan work u should have told other pple wad!
me: i did OK!!! i was feelin ok the night before...
how was i to noe i will have headache today??
he: u give miie some face can anot? liddat chinese new year how???
how to face the others???
like wad the fuck can??
ur face my problem arh??
chinese new year dunno how to face pple right??
i give u one solution.
STAY AT HOME LAH!!!
AND DUN GO ANYWHERE LOH!!!
u oso no money to give ang bao...
liddat good wad...
dun need to give ang bao...
i sacrifice lah...
i dun take ang bao loh....
liddat happy lah?
everyone oso happy...
FUCK LAH.
everytime got things go wrong surely my fault...
doesnt seem to miie that when got good things happen is bcos of miie.
fuck lah.
since i not happy working at commoditee there might as well quit.
so stress somemore.
wad for torture myself??
but i die oso wun quit the pool job.
wait long long.
i will only quit when i feel like quitting.
this time i'm not giving in.
u wan cold war i anything.
i dun care.
its not my fault this time round.
u were the one being unreasonable.
i wun suffer from the cold war anyway.
FUCK.
feelin so damn pissed off now.
fuck.
cant wait for the m'sia trip to come.
can go crazy.
still wondering should i go for the concert anot.
like very hard to get his kind of chance liddat...
but den like nobody going...
except for yao.
so i am still wondering see how...
i'm having fever again...
think i will stop here for a while.
when i more free den i continue.
what we could have been, 2:47 PM.
