那不是一場感傷的離別場面.
他們真的比我們堅強多了.
或許是我而已吧, 天生的愛哭鬼.
眼淚像水龍頭似的永遠都流不完.
每次有人飛離新加坡一定哭個天昏地暗.
無論是我飛,或不是都好.
哭慘了我.
可是昨天我只掉幾滴眼淚!
情況已經改善很多了ok!
希望他們在杭州一切都安好.
相信一切一定會安好.
我都平安度過那段時期了,
他們一定不是問題.
他們走了,
少了一群人聽我埋怨.
近期心情煩躁,東西極多,
所有的事情排山倒海而來.
幾乎每天都在流淚.
或許是離開前所有的事情都半天吊,
回來是東西仍然半天吊,
但又不象之前那樣的狀況,
所以毫無頭緒該從何接起.
之前的事情只處理一半,
但又有更多東西往身上砸下.
自開工以來,天天睡眠不足,
所剩無幾的私人時間一一都得騰出來犧牲.
一句: 你是 temp staff
所有東西就有你的份.
這麼辛苦這麼累這麼委屈這麼不滿
究竟是為了甚麼?
就連之前所喜歡的東西現在已經成為一種包袱,
我現在真的找不到再繼續撐下去的理由.
唯一阻止我離開的原因: 人情.
不想把事情做得太絕,
所以暫且猶豫.
狠下心的話, 我隨時能拋下一切一走了之.
不願意這麼做,
因為我還有良心, 我還有人情味.
了解到之前 blog entry 讓很多人為我擔心.
當時決定將字體縮小是因為只是想找個地方發發牢騷,
不想把甚麼事情吹大.
所以才放那麼小.
無論如何我問心無愧.
若某人要自己對號入座我也無能為力.
why izzit that i have to bear down all responsibilities,
whenever something goes wrong?
if this cant be done, its your fault.
if that cant be done, its your fault.
but if things are done, oh well i'm sorry,
the credits are never yours.
not even a word of thanks can be heard from anywhere.
OH HOW NICE.
-put a smiley front and stab u from the back-
and i agree that i didnt reli contribute much to this whole damn thing,
but that doesn’t mean that i didnt do anything ok.
i still did things, my parts, and some parts which are not part of my job,
cos i noe how little things i have done,
and thus i took down some of the extra things,
cos its so insignificant and I feel that none of these inisignificant shit are supposed to bother anyone of you out there.
but i think i’m jus plain stupid lah.
everyone in this world knows how to protect themselves,
jus becos they wan this, they wan that,
they think of ways to cover up nicely,
and make it look like: i really wanna do it but i cant.
den stupidly this little idiot here will jus take everything in herself.
even the bloody newcomers oso noe how to siam thru all these nonsensical shit,
how come you so stupid wan to be the wall and block everything down?
when others took leave on their own accord,
got event, you have to take it.
den what happens when u get MC?
u dowan to do so izzit, i'm sorry.
CANNOT.
by hook or by crook,
you are gonna do it.
some people in this world jus doesnt noe how to care about others.
all they think of is themselves.
they put up such a nice front, and starts on the evil plan at the back of their hands.
she studied psychology real well i can tell,
cos reverse psychology is what she uses real well.
right at the start, they tell you what is allowed and what is not.
but as time goes by, they start committing all the 'do-not's.
cant you jus spare a tot for others?
you are not thing only living thing on earth.
you are not the biggest thing on earth.
YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO COMMAND ANYONE AROUND LIKE THAT.
stop being a stuck-up bitch u snob.
i know everyone misses me muahahaaa~
busy lah dun liddat lah~
chinese new year ma...
ok first of all,
i wan to start off by ranting how much less ang bao i've gotten this year.
my parents, although dowan to say out obviously they wanna siam the process of giving ang bao, i however, being the smart girl as usual, was able to tell ok!
i've got like at least 13 lesser ang bao than last yr and any of the year ok!
cos my father side the relatives is those that only visit one stop,
that is my ah ma house.
den if u miss that stop at the particular day at the particular time,
den means no need to meet the relatives for the rest of the year liao.
den my parents cleverly siam the crowd by going to my ah ma house,
at a FREAKING 5.30PM on the first day of new year.
i used to get all these ang bao cos i used to live there,
now that i dun,
i kiss all my ang baos bye bye.
and after some calculations,
the no. of ang baos i missed out on turned out to be 13.
let's say each ang bao contains 4 bucks,
i've gotten 52 bucks lesser.
and best of all,
my mama played banlak with my uncle, aunt and cousin.
4 pple play only.
she one person lose 46 bucks.
=.=
she could have jus save the money up and give me more angbao money u noe~
ok enough ranting.
nxt thing i wanna say is,
i'm very sad.
cos i got no wu gui to hug tonight when i sleep.
i send it back to the
and wash it clean.
my poor wu gui is being hung right now.
like this.
i took this shot outside my window.
poor wu gui.
)):
dear wu gui has been hanging for a day.
)):
the smile is so saddist.
anyway, some updates on my chinese new year!
cousins reunite.
and it was the same day my mama lost 46 bucks to 3 person.
and sarah!
the cousin in red is ur future tuition student!
say hi!
=D
ok had to went to my aunt house after huang jing lun event yesterday.
the kids were playing with sparklers (as usual)
and i played with my camera den...
D for daryl!
cos she drew it herself.
and yes, daryl is a girl, not guy.
she insist that daryl is a unisex name.
her broken heart shape.
probably for this fella called chester.
=X
my cute nephew.
and no he's not 5 years old.
i have no idea why when pple twist he shows the whole palm.
he is a very naughty boy.
he snatches toys from his brother and anyhow whack people.
but he's still cute.
((:
lohh hey!!
that's probably the 3rd time i'm doing that this new yr...
chopsticks fight!
kids picking out the kerepok...
a very messy table...
tsk tsk...
my family consists of nothing but messy eaters.
=X
refer to man ning's blog on details before reaching chu house...
there are more photos there as well...
the birthday present we got for chu!she put it out on display leii~
so honoured...
man ning and me~
monkey house~
yong sheng and sarah!and oh daryl!
this is ur future tuition teacher sarah!!!
say hi to her!!!
=D
me and yongsheng.
a group photo taken by chu's husband
stupid yongsheng doing the same trick on us again.
shuangying: i'm soooo gonna kill u for this ong yongsheng!!!!yongsheng: *gasps* ha...lp.... me..... saaa....veeee meeeee......
shuangying: HEEES!
miss chu enjoying all the fooling as well...
the girls finally gets a proper shot after like 10 mins of fooling ard.the boys were doing the fooling, not us.
kian hwee keep on sms-ing the bible girl.
kelvin self shot of his chest.he's proud of his HOT PINK shirt.
kian hwee: come on kelvin! the room's ours tonight!kelvin: go away dun make me ram you over...
ok this picture has a long story behind and i dowan to say so yah.this shot is still damn funny.
the boys...note that kian hwee is puckering his lips..
he wanna kiss kelvin so badly...
kelvin has to run away frm him...
den bo bian...kian hwee emo liao cos kelvin dowan him...
we girls...kelvin complained that man ning was not lookin at the camera...
den purposely make man ning paiseh...
the army man chok kee...
the army gay kian hwee...
stupid kian hwee take pillow cover my face...
this is a perfect rendition of the emoticon '=D'and kian hwee keeps staring at tv for red cliff.
this is the perfect rendition for ' xD'
finally a proper shot with the stupid gay.
see i alr say red cliff got more charm than me.another one who keeps watching the show.
finally i steal like 10 sec to get a shot with our dearest chauffeur.after red cliff 1 yongsheng proceeded to watch the super bad quality pirated red cliff 2 dvd provided by my lecturer while the rest of us decided to wait for our pirate man get the high quality one for us to watch.
chu den proceeded to play this game called loot with the guys.me not havin any interest went into the room.
poor sarah and kelvin has to start crackin on their work...awww...
me hugged chu's piglet pillow and took kelvin's new phone...and went online with his new phone and played with it till i sian.
his phone no good cos i cannot surf my OVB website.
this mess of wires is kelvin's earpiece.i have no idea why he wanna complicate things up.
chu's collection of piglets.
sarah and kelvin not concentrating on their work.kelvin stares at the massage pig soft toy and he sees only bak gua.
USB connected doraemon fan for mx.tsk, never come still got present take.
yong sheng emo-ing with pirated bad quality red cliff 2.
mr lai has real short attention span.no matter what he refuses to do his work...
and then he go to sleep.
=.=
kelvin: where is the volume button~i wan to emo with 'i dont want to miss a thing'...
sarah ignoring everyone around in progress...HRUMPF!
i box kelvin with chu pillow.ehh this pic is nice can!
cos i take one!
Caution: below is a series of very bo liao photos.
butter fly away~
my chui to the max phone.
somebody hao lian his new phone.
got keypad so wad!so small hard to type loh!
eeeeeeee series~
chu's folders and files...
mr gothic...
sarah is soooo focused...got ghost beside her she still can continue with her work...
i was very tired lah!
den someone refused to let me sleep...
cheat me wan eat ice cream...
ben and jerry cake batter and chocolate fudge brownie!den end up the ice cream was melting den i cannot eat.
)):
and i cannot sleep still!
sarah finished her work den forced me to play taboo!
we had some fun playing that...
the mr someone-who-refused-to-let-me-sleep.
taboo-ing still.
ms chu damn power lah...
she outside we in the room talking all sorts of nonsense tryin to guess taboo,
den she can guess correctly where the pple in the room cant!
muz be bcos of the lack of sleep we're having...
kelvin den let us listen to muttons to midnight on youtube...
and it was bloody funny lah...
there was this analysize on song lyrics,
and the way they did it to james blunt's you're beautiful is funny like shit.
My life is brilliant.
I'm very smart.
My love is pure.
I never do that one before.
I saw an angel.
My house is haunted.
Of that I'm sure.
I'm very sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
There's someone stalking me on the mrt.
She was with another man.
She's also a chee ko pek.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,'Cause I've got a plan.
My mattress very comfortable.
You're beautiful.
You're very pretty.
You're beautiful.
You're very pretty.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I not bluffing.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
You're also quite fat cos so many pple i still can see you.
And I don't know what to do,
Because i have no food.
'Cause I'll never be with you.
I scared you'll eat me.
and they said very zek ark things like...
you're so fat that when you go to the beach, people thought that you were an offshore island.
you're so fat that when you bring your clothes to the dry cleaners, they say: sorry we don't wash curtains arh...
you're so fat that when i took your photo last yr, its still printing now.
you're so fat that you have to iron your clothes on terminal 3 runway.
ok all these are jus jokes, and they are not by me.
no offence...
it was directed at the DJ justin...
but still, it was bloody funny.
=X
here are some of the links...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Sir6znS_myc&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Kw0iNAX00zA&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uoOSgM7__6Q&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BpxNEHEv7T0&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BbWVKMW6BMo&feature=PlayList&p=24009D5D0C12B7FC&index=2
fell asleep while listening to more muttons.
(:
