or doing my assignments at least.
but there is something buried deep down inside me that's even giving me difficulties to breathe.
so deep in that i cant dig it out.
and thus, i dunno wad is this cause.
or perhaps, i know it.
its just that i dowan to say?
all i'm certain is, there are more than one issues resulting to this.
and basically, i noe wad are these issues, seperately.
i've nvr look forward to exams so much before in my life.
cos after exams it means one more week to home.
and this one weeks means total relaxation time and great shopping.
after that its home sweet home back in singapore.
but....
all of a sudden i start worrying abt my future.
what am i gonna do when i graduate from poly, which is like not really that far away from now.
i always thought i had it planned out.
i decided to: apply at the MOE website for relief teaching, and i'm gonna try out for NAS (my dear Ngee Ann Secondary School) and earn money, perhaps take up tuition at the same time to earn more money and wait for SMA (Singapore Media Academy) to set up. And i can go in and study wadeva i wan with a peace of mind.
there you goes.
a total perfect plan.
(((:
but wad IF....
i dun get into NAS??
i reli wanna go there cos i miss there so much... and i noe if i'm not going to be posted to NAS, i will lose the heart to teach properly, even though i will still teach.
or let's not think that far yet.
wad if MOE refuses to give me that relief teaching spot? den wad the hell am i gonna do next?? stuck out in the society with extremely BAD results and loitering around???
and let's say all goes well for the teaching part in my plan.
wad if SMA takes like forever to reli get started out or wad if SMA does not provide the course that i wanna take?? and with such atrocious results of mine, no university will take me in. and there is absolutely NO WAY i'm gonna get into SIM or any other universities that u can get in easily with money.
and pooof!
there goes my perfect plan.
and now i see a total bleak future ahead of me.
i have totally no idea what else izzit that i want.
yee siew says tongking says its perfectly normal for us to feel lost right now.
i agree with that, but that is not something that i think should last for long.
if this goes on nothing else that i do now will go the right way.
and i jus simply hate life like this.
its jus 21 more days to home.
i should have just bear with it, goes back to SG and do my IBP and hopefully i can graduate successfully.
but its affecting me so much that i am totally not the mood for anything at all.
not in the mood for studying, not in the mood for doing assignments.
i just wanna cry.
happy birthday to you~~!!!!!!!!!!
happy birthday to..........
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PRISCILLA~~!!!!aka pris, prissy, wong PX, huang peixin, xiao huang, miaolin's best fiend, lok gor, 211 追求民主主义的挂牌寝室长, meimei blablabla....
happy birthday to you!!!!
u jus turn one yr older so keep being so sick ok~~
and stop loving me and miao.
u wun get anything in return.
AND STOP TOUCHING US!!!!!
=P
happy birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i've celebrated my 19th birthday yesterday!!!
in china!!!
first time celebrating my bdae without my parents around...
but wad to do leii...
its a bo bian thingy...
anyway, on 1st jun, we went to shaoxing.
it was a very long and tiring day...
and i drop dead asleep almost immediately when i get back to hostel...
i slept all the way until 11 plus and i only went to shower at 1130PM...
before i went to shower, i switched on my laptop...
and i remember havin my laptop in the upright position...
when i came out of the bathroom, my screen was pressed down.
and the most funny thing was, there was a thumbdrive inserted into my laptop.
so i went: miao why u put ur thumbdrive into my laptop? (apparently the thumbdrive looks like wad miao has)
miao (act blur): hmmm? i never... my thumbdrive is in my pencil case.
me: oh pris den it must be yours lah...
pris (look at me innocently with a oh shit look): huh.. *#$%^&($@! (couldnt hear her)
den i pushed my laptop screen up and i saw this.
and den the whole of 211 jus burst out laughing...and pris was like: ohh my!!! this is sooo malu~!!!!
so to give her face, i went back to the toilet and re-enact the whole thing again, without being very sincere abt it cos i was laughing non-stop.
imagine lah!!!
i laugh until stomach pain leii~
after much laughing, its time to get back to normal work...
den i wanted to hang my towel up to dry...
and i tot i left my hanger hanging before i went in to shower...
i look ard den there was NO hanger!!!
i tot my memory failed on me so i was like...
ok... nvm... maybe i remembered wrongly or wad...
so i open my closet to take a hanger and den....
oh my god lah!!!!!!
i was reli reli reli shocked this time round...
and the rest were laughing like mad...
they say they created lots of noise when i was showering but den i nvr hear lah!!!
awww~~
211 is soooooo sweeeet....
after another round of laughing they started to countdown to 2nd June 2008 12am.
and pris was like going: 41, 42, 43, 44...
she's doing a countup instead...
when it was left with 10 more seconds, pris was still like: 51, 52, 53, 54, 55.....
and den miao cut her and went like: 9, 8, 7, 6....
and there goes another round of laughing....
den 211 attempted to sing bdae song but den i was reli laughing like mad...
and pris, being a very insistent person, sang the whole song...
with like occasional mumbles from miao...
and jasleen say: pris u are very brave to finish the whole song....
and another round of laughing erupted.
after much laughing, pris and miao put on a fighting show for us on my bdae!!!
and it jus lead to more and more laughing.
ok story cut short for the actual day itself.
went to the street outside my school for dinner...
and the girls brought me to this place we all had never been there before...
they wanted to blindfold me lah!
and i refused!!!
its sooooooo malu can!!!
so ended up we jus walked there...
when i got there i saw.... its a theme restaurant.
wanna noe wad theme???
in case u haven get it, its a toilet bowl theme restaurant!!!
and the brown-brown-shit-look-alike thingy is actually chocolate ice cream.
cos what goes around may just comes around...
see lah!! everytime ask pple to go 'jia sai jia sai' loh!!den now reli have to jia sai liao loh!!!!
pris with her daily routine de end product....she sat on her toilet bowl seat and say she feel like doing her routine...
-.-
miaolin and her shit...she asked me whether does this reminds me of someone...
cos i everytime claim that he's KNS...
huiyuan and zhihui should noe who i mean...
=D
me and my toilet bowl...
the eeeeeewwwww!!!!
it reli reli reli looks like SHIT can!!!!
the finished 
211 and the future-211-sleep-on-the-floor woman...
my darlings girls and our shit...
pris tot that she's the present so she took a ribbon and tied herself...i was jus kidding...
i rather not have any present than take her as the present...
=D
miaolin putting on her sweeeeeetest smile jus for me!!!
and den she tries to act lian...
but failed.
one day i shall teach her the proper way of acting lian...
do u guys wanna noe what's the hottest thing going on around in china??
that is...................................
cross-stitching!!!
see lah!!!
celebrate my bdae still doing cross stitch in front of me...
wad the hell siaaa...
and note the yellow yellow toilet bowl in front of karmen!!!
it contains her curry chicken!
and she's the only who uses that toilet bowl...
NO FAIR~~~~~
but den again, if i was the one to use it, i guess....
i wun be able to finish my food while staring at the toilet bowl.
tan jinli is still cross-stitching...
cross stitch everywhere one leii she!!
even in class oso liddat...
that day afternoon in class....
lecturer was askin us to highlight some points...
den jinli cannot find a lot of things teacher say...
so i point out to her...
den jinli was like: ehh how come u can find i cannot find one arh?
me: cos i was listening in class and you're not.
jinli: -slap me across my arm-
ON MY BDAE SOMEMORE HOH!!!!
hrumpf!!!!
my toilet bowl seat...
its actually very unstable...
sooooo unstable that it nearly caused the bdae girl to fall off her seat...
=P
SY: heeelllloooooo toilet bowl!!! will a cake pop out of it???
woooo!!!
nicey toilet bowl!!!
its been a loooong time since i last sat on a good toilet bowl and shit!
heeees~!
this is MY toilet seat...
we almost wanted to bring it back and install in our own toilet...
the atmostphere in the restaurant...
they had basin underneath the tables!!!
to give it more toilet feeel~
the very nice and comfy environment...
soooooooothing~
ok guys this is NOT for u to peeeee ok~
all the toilet bowls seats are soooo nice!!!
the boss said they had a hard time lookin for it...
and the boss was in singapore for 4 years!!!
all the things he said was soooo familiar to all of us...
and we were like the 4th batch of customers they had...
cos it was only the 2nd day of their operation...
miaolin is a very obedient girl...
the boss told us to give them comments regarding the food and stuff...
we all did...
but see!!!
she is soooo serious...
while i was reading her comments on that little notebook and adding a few of mine...
pris and miao sneaked away~
and they returned with a cake with no candle!!!!
den miao says she will be the candle and pris will be the fire...
ended up the whole table was my cake...
jinli is the cake, jasleen is the cream, miao is the candle on jinli and pris is the fire on miaolin...
so of course cannot leave karmen out and she's my knife!!!
all because of the clothes jinli and jasleen bought, they earned themselves the title of being the cake and the cream...
LOL!!!!
i'm a greeedy girl...
i wish that ALL of my wishes will come true!!!
=D
pris: thanks for all the non-stop entertainment u provide for 211.
and please stop loving me.
i wun accept u de... =P
jinli: thanks for being the one who's always there for whatever reasons.
miaolin: thanks for being so understanding around 211.
hahahaa....
my asian cine partner~!!!
=D
jasleen and karmen: thanks for helping me 'settle' the two noisy children we have in 211.
=D
and i love myself!!!
=D
beware people...
this is the cursed group.
whenever the four of us goes out together, we will definitely have problems hailing for cab while returning.
there was once we waited for cab for a FREAKING 4 HOURS and only got back to hostel at 1AM, waking like dunno how many pple out jus to open door for us.
the fake twins of the day...
their dressing is soooo alike lah!!!
and while walkin to the zhoushan, they were very insistent on being mingzhu jie-mei or the two dancers beside gao ling feng.
211!!!
((((:
and i'm sorry for throwin temper at u guys ytd...
))))):
after presentation of the cake, they gave me this!!!
a very nice a very nice bag.
((:
i open up and saw... black black...
oh... got white colour one...
its a dress!!!they say its soooo my style.
so ok loh~
note the pair of legs behind me...
when everyone was crowding around me and playin a fool...
JINLI WAS STILL SITTING DOWN THERE DOING HER CROSS-STITCH!!!!
i'm gonna be a good housewife and all this starts from FOLDING...
mini-made-out-of-chocolate-de-lan-ting-fan(shanzi)...
ok insider's joke.
and kiss my birthday goodbye!!!!
ok lah...
first time celebrating in other places oso not that bad...
and thanks adeline, sarah, minxing for sending the tidbits over to me!!!
and baofa, sishan and mingfong for the soft toys!!!
though i have to send back again...
thanks huiyuan, zhihui, wee wee, adeline, minxing, sarah, miss chu, annabel for sms-ing me...
and also those who msn-ed me and gave me friendster comments and tagged on my blog...
and those pple who gave me belated birthday wishes...
AND THANKS ARH HUIYUAN FOR THAT BLOGPOST!!!!
and thanks MINGFONG FOR CALLING ME AND DEN CALL THE REST ONE BY ONE TO MAKE THEM SAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!
and thanks miaolin, pris, jinli, karmen, jasleen and jessica for the bdae present...
AND JESSICA U OWE ME ONE LAH~
and thanks sok kiang and ruiyi and loowin for that necklace!!!
I WAS REALLY SHOCKED LAH OK!!!!
and thanks for that 2nd piece of birthday i had...
and thanks to myself!!!
weeeee~
before i end...
some funny retarded msn convos i had ytd...
GORDON VS SHUANG YING PART 1
gor =/: lol
gor =/: finally u are 19
gor =/: hmm
- Y ii N g - : lol
- Y ii N g - : there is nothin special abt hitting 19 ok~
- Y ii N g - : lol
gor: haha
gor =/: it is
gor =/: cause
gor =/: U ARE AS OLD AS ME!
- Y ii N g - : -.-
- Y ii N g - : wth....
GORDON VS SHUANGYING PART 2
gor =/: okla
gor =/: wait u come back den celebrate again
gor =/: lol
- Y ii N g - : ok!
- Y ii N g - : u say de arh
- Y ii N g - : i tell adeline
gor =/: wah!
gor =/: T.T
- Y ii N g - : expenses gordon pay!
gor =/: nooooooo
gor =/: im broke
- Y ii N g - : ehh i got keep msn history de hoh
- Y ii N g - : dun try to deny
gor =/: ee
gor =/: NO
- Y ii N g - : got proof ok
gor =/: NO
-after much argument-
gor =/: haha
gor =/: anything~
gor =/: lemme save some money first ok
OH YES!!!!!!!!!!
=D
GORDON VS SHUANG YING PART 3
- Y ii N g - : so u payin for my bdae celebration!
- Y ii N g - : =DD
gor =/: -o-
- Y ii N g - : ((:
gor =/: no!
- Y ii N g - : i got prooooof!
- Y ii N g - : sobs
gor =/: wah dun cry lei
[gor =/: ur bdae u cry
- Y ii N g - : sobs
- Y ii N g - : bdae why cannot cryy
gor =/: lol suppose to be happy
gor =/: its the day
gor =/: u born
gor =/: and ppl celebrate for u
gor =/: -o-
- Y ii N g - : when i was born i oso cried wad!
gor =/: LOL
gor =/: CUI!
gor =/: >.>
gor =/: nvm
- Y ii N g - : LOL
- Y ii N g - : reli wad
- Y ii N g - : got which newborn dun cry!
gor =/: dun have ba
- Y ii N g - : precisely!
gor =/: nvm ~~~
- Y ii N g - : =D
- Y ii N g - : wahhh... i can REALLY get away with everything on my bdae
ONG YONG SHENG VS SHUANG YING
- Y ii N g - : go back still got lots of celebrations
- Y ii N g - : =D
Astraeus: yea when you come back. =]
- Y ii N g - : gordon say he's payin for my expenses!!!
- Y ii N g - : let's go make him broke!
Astraeus: lol
Astraeus: YEA!
Astraeus: I still got one month to think
- Y ii N g - : LOL
- Y ii N g - : but he payin for me only leii
- Y ii N g - : so u guys better start savin upp
- Y ii N g - :woooo
Astraeus: omg
Astraeus: You go up the Singapore Flyers. Eat Dinner. Watch movie. Go club or pub.
Astraeus: GG liao
Astraeus: I need to have at least a 100
- Y ii N g - : steady!
- Y ii N g - : that's a great idea
- Y ii N g - : ((:
- Y ii N g - : let's do that
Astraeus: lol. Don't tell Gordon I say one.
- Y ii N g - : wait wait
- Y ii N g - : i copy ur convo for him
- Y ii N g - : =X
GORDON VS SHUANG YING PART 4
- Y ii N g - : Astraeus{frenZ forevA}[常想一二][Sweet 19] says: You go up the Singapore Flyers. Eat Dinner. Watch movie. Go club or pub.
- Y ii N g - : his say we shall do this for my bdae celebration
gor =/: o0
- Y ii N g - : expenses u pay
gor =/: WTH
- Y ii N g - : =D
gor =/: -o-
gor =/: ex lo
- Y ii N g - : u pay wadd
gor =/: ok i pay
gor =/: tts if im going
- Y ii N g - : U HAVE TO GO!!!
]gor =/: no!
- Y ii N g - : YES!
gor =/: noo~~
gor =/: -o-
- Y ii N g - : yes yes yes !
- Y ii N g - : this is an order!
]gor =/: nonono
- Y ii N g - : LOL
gor =/: RAWR!
gor =/: lol
- Y ii N g - : =D
gor =/: x.X
FINAL CONCLUSION: I WON THE WAR!!!! =D
so adeline and mx.. please take note arh... =P
KELVIN VS SHUANG YING
ZmC : eh bday girl
- Y ii N g - : yea??
ZmC : choose 2 numbers between 20 - 45
- Y ii N g - : why
ZmC : jus choose la
- Y ii N g - : for waddd
ZmC : nth.. jus choose
- Y ii N g - : 2 number arhh
- Y ii N g - : wait arh
- Y ii N g - : i think first
ZmC : lol
ZmC : no ned think one
- Y ii N g - : from wad to wad
ZmC : 20 - 45
- Y ii N g - : ok
- Y ii N g - : 21 and 36
ZmC : lol
ZmC :ok
- Y ii N g - : wad for?
ZmC : if tio u come back i treat u eat big big meal
- Y ii N g - : HAHAHAHAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!
- Y ii N g - : u wan go buy toto izzit!!!!
ZmC : LOL
ZmC : 3million draw ley
after a while....
ZmC : eh
ZmC : i tell u wad, u bday girl jus gimme 6 numbers
ZmC : 1-45
ZmC : fast fast
- Y ii N g : cannot!!!
- Y ii N g : mind cannot think!
ZmC : tio i giv u half
ZmC : anyhow wack la
- Y ii N g - : somemore me everytime oso not zhun one
ZmC : this kinda thing work best when u cannot think
ZmC : jus random numbers frm u
- Y ii N g - : ok
ZmC : today different
ZmC : ur first bday in china
- Y ii N g - : 2, 17, 21, 28, 36, 42,
- Y ii N g - : HAAHAHAHAHAHAHAAA
ZmC : nice
ZmC : okok
ZmC : if tio i give u half
- Y ii N g - : hahahaa
ZmC : win $20 u still get $10
- Y ii N g - : u say one arhhh
happy birthday to you~~!!!!!!!!
happy birthday to......
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MYSELF aka SHUANG YING aka SY aka DOUBLE SHADOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
=D
happy 19th birthday to meeee~~~~
(((((:
and oso happy birthday to vivian ying xian!!!!!
(((:
