我的人生, 是個錯誤.
不, 因該說,
我的存在, 是一個錯誤.
我一直以為, 我會很開心.
顯然的, 我錯了.
從一開始,
從來沒有人發現, 我有多不愉快.
從來沒有人發現, 我有多少壓力.
從來沒有人發現, 我有多痛苦.
從來沒有人發現, 我有多努力.
從來沒有人發現, 我有多失望.
從來, 就沒有人在乎.
原來, 一直以來, 我都是自己一個孤軍作戰.
這就是大家熟悉的世界.
一個充滿現實主義的世界.
com'on.
人不為己, 天誅地滅.
與其在這裡大吐苦水, 倒不如接受這事實.
然後再想辦法, 要怎麼將自己變自私.
要怎麼再這個現實的世界裡生存.
原來, 我的演技那麼好.
原來, 我的撒謊功夫那麼棒.
原來, 我是那麼的虛偽.
原來, 我一直帶著面具.
也許, 當個聾子也不錯.
至少, 她聽不到這個世界有多吵雜.
也許, 當個瞎子也不錯.
至少, 她看不到這個世界是多麼的爾虞我詐.
也許, 當個亞吧也不錯.
至少, 她不會說錯東西搞得每個人都對她不滿.
面具, 我這一輩子都拿不下來.
我就是一個那麼虛偽, 奸詐, 狡滑, 自私, 現實的人.
不要太驚訝.
my swollen eye is better.
BUT,
its still swollen.
hope it will recover soon.
i'm jus getting a little too emo these few days.
there are jus simply too much things onmy mind.
school, frenz, family, affairs of the heart, stress.
everything is jus simply bothering miie.
but i believe this is jus a tough period.
everything will be over soon.
if u see miie emo in school, jus let miie be.
if u see that i refuse to talk, jus let miie be.
if u see that i wanna be alone, jus let miie be.
sometimes, i jus need to be myself.
its tiring to wear a mask to face everyone everyday.
its swollen.
and i hate it.
BLEAH.
stoopid swollen eye.
GO AWAY.
i HATE you.
if my eye doesnt stop swelling, i am not going to school on monday.
yes monday.
first day of school.
how irritating.
and i've already gotten an MC for monday.
i cant afford to miss con lan & interpretation lecture.
when i have a con lan test coming up on 2nd july.
and lots of mock test for interpretation.
and i need to work on my interpretation.
dowan to fail it.
PLUS GLOBAL ISSUES.
wtf.
THANKS.
stress; that's the last thing i need.
You are The Sun
Happiness, Content, Joy.
The meanings for the Sun are fairly simple and consistent.
Young, healthy, new, fresh. The brain is working, things that were muddled come clear, everything falls into place, and everything seems to go your way.
The Sun is ruled by the Sun, of course. This is the light that comes after the long dark night, Apollo to the Moon's Diana. A positive card, it promises you your day in the sun. Glory, gain, triumph, pleasure, truth, success. As the moon symbolized inspiration from the unconscious, from dreams, this card symbolizes discoveries made fully consciousness and wide awake. You have an understanding and enjoyment of science and math, beautifully constructed music, carefully reasoned philosophy. It is a card of intellect, clarity of mind, and feelings of youthful energy.
What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.
erm...
in this case who can explain the C6 for my A maths??
and why did i drop to combined sci from pure sci???
OMG >.<
我, 真是笨到無藥可救.
我的心, 真的很痛.
我想, 我還沒做好心理準備再次與你見面.
我只是覺得,內心忽然多了一種莫名的距離感.
我的面具,始終沒有摘下來.
長期帶著面具會使人身心疲憊.
是有點久了.
我應該復原了才對.
再給我一點時間吧.
hahaha...
i'm not as stoopid as u think i am...
lalala~
these are the photos for Ngee Ann primary School Chinese Cultural Camp.
i miss those kids and the NAS helpers.
yesterday, we had NASCO Dizi BBQ.
but sad to say, the attendance was BAD lah.
but it was still fun...
we celebrated yu jing birthday as well...
and i reli wonder did she get a suprise anot...
cos it seems like as if there isnt any surprise lah!
LOL!
after the BBQ, yu jing, phy, wei chang and ka ho came over to my house.
it was super fun can!!!
when we reach my void deck...
we were trying to distract yu jing away...
so that we could have a FLOUR PARTY.
HEHEHE!!!!
we threw flour onto the birthday gurl!!!
it was fun, and noisy.
dad called miie and complained.
he said he could even hear us from the 9th storey.
that was like...................................................................................
WOAH.
den yu jing became the white hair demon,
aka bai fa mou nu.
finally, we came to my house.
we craps lots...
from CO to JC to army to ghost stories...
it was a reli enjoyable night.
yong xian came over very much later in the night.
and we were still crapping non stop.
of course, got photos lah.
i will upload it next time.
so tired from uploading all the photos above.
BLEAH.
very tired...
but overall, it was fun.
i miss the adorable kids.
i reli miss them.
its more than the cuteness.
its the feelings attached.
right from the start, many were quiet.
they dun like to talk to u.
they dowan u to get near them.
till the last day, they were extremely noisy.
they owaes wan to see u.
they keep askin other pple were are u.
and when they see u,
they'll scream loudly : "LAOSHI!!!!"
haiz...
its only a day since we parted.
and i miss them like mad.
the joys, the screams, the laughters and the nonsense.
家亿，俊扬，敬杰，裕贵，泊融，忠豪，简宇，政德，
家訢，靖琪，淑玲，瑗恩，陈琳，芝仪，洁琳。
老师好想你们哦！
i will upload the photos real soon.
and done with video.
for now.
still got editing before i finish the project.
and still got reportage to do.
and today was the first day of camp.
of ngee ann primary chinese cultural camp.
and ngee ann sec students are horrendous.
they nvr offend miie lah...
but from wad i heard is they are terrible.
even though i was from ngee ann sec as well,
i think they are terrible too.
oh wells~
different generation anyways.
heck.
a few things to anticipate:-
1. 15th june Kbox session with The Clique & frenz
2. 17th june NASCO dizi BBQ + stayover at my house
3. 20th june Kbox session with ming fong & gang.
hope no one will pangseh miie...
((((((((((((:
and i wan to work.
))))))))))))):
and i wan my driving license.
))))))))))))))))))))))))))))):
our lecturer for con lan n interpretation...
but i am not.
how i wish.
when the clock strucks 12am 2nd june 2007,
messages kept flowing in.
thank you.
but when i slept at 3am,
i didnt receive your message.
thanks for all your wishes.
so i told myself that u were too tired,
and there's always the day itself.
(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((:
but when the clock strucks 12am 3rd june 2007,
i still didnt receive your message.
thanks thanks.
i should have known.
its time i give up already.
happy birthday to me~~
happy birthday to meeee~~~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEEE~~~~~~~~!!!!!!
finally 18.
((:
PERFECT 18.
hope that today is a nice day.
