Tuesday, January 30, 2007
u know who u are...
and i jus wanna tell u...
pleas dun blame yourself.
i was upset...
i was hurt...
but it didnt hurt as much as i tot it would...
partly bcos i was alr planning to give up...
but somehow, i couldnt...
cos something was holding miie back...
and i didnt noe wad was that...
until i know how u feel...
ur words may be hurtful...
but they are true...
your words woke miie up...
i was waken up...
totally...
ever since i knew i like you,
i didnt have much expectations...
i knew we were impossible...
so i expected nothing.
as time goes by and we grew closer,
the feeling gets fonder.
i knew i couldnt withdraw myself this time...
but i still expect nothing.
bcos i knew u only treat miie as a fren...
bcos i knew u nvr picture us together...
bcos i REMEMBER wad u say abt falling for close frenz.
but i still cant control my feelings.
affairs of the heart is uncontrollable u should noe.
but its all over already.
and i am determined to give up on you.
since there is no ending to this, its time to put an end to it.
i can brave thru this.
but i reli hope that we are still frenz.
no matter wad u had been a great fren to miie...
and i dowan to lose u as a fren...
and believe miie...
nobody will ignore u bcos of this incident...
everyone will still be frenz with u, like the past...
dun worry too much...
everything will be ok.
and i jus wanna tell u...
pleas dun blame yourself.
i was upset...
i was hurt...
but it didnt hurt as much as i tot it would...
partly bcos i was alr planning to give up...
but somehow, i couldnt...
cos something was holding miie back...
and i didnt noe wad was that...
until i know how u feel...
ur words may be hurtful...
but they are true...
your words woke miie up...
i was waken up...
totally...
ever since i knew i like you,
i didnt have much expectations...
i knew we were impossible...
so i expected nothing.
as time goes by and we grew closer,
the feeling gets fonder.
i knew i couldnt withdraw myself this time...
but i still expect nothing.
bcos i knew u only treat miie as a fren...
bcos i knew u nvr picture us together...
bcos i REMEMBER wad u say abt falling for close frenz.
but i still cant control my feelings.
affairs of the heart is uncontrollable u should noe.
but its all over already.
and i am determined to give up on you.
since there is no ending to this, its time to put an end to it.
i can brave thru this.
but i reli hope that we are still frenz.
no matter wad u had been a great fren to miie...
and i dowan to lose u as a fren...
and believe miie...
nobody will ignore u bcos of this incident...
everyone will still be frenz with u, like the past...
dun worry too much...
everything will be ok.
what we could have been, 1:23 AM.
Sunday, January 28, 2007
dun worry...
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but i hope we can still be frenz...
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no matter wad i dowan to lose u as a fren...
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i've decided to give up...
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but i hope we can still be frenz...
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no matter wad i dowan to lose u as a fren...
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what we could have been, 11:08 PM.
i seriously pity myself...
wad am i doing in SCHOOL on a SUNDAY???
haiz...
projects projects projects...
these are the only stuff that fill my life now...
i reli cant wait for 8th feb to come...
where my year 1 life would end officially...
wahahaha~
but get real.
i'm still in school on a SUNDAY.
bleah.
oh yah...
i wanna say...
i'm going to MALAYSIA~!
woohoo~
its damn cheap ok...
3 days 2 nights + accomodation + breakfast + travelling + WANG LEE HOM 2nd best seat concert tix u pple guess how much???
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SGD $150!!!!!!
OMG lah!
cheap cheap cheap...
going with moi poly frenz somemore...
cos its organise by da school...
wahahha~
we're gonna have FUN FUN FUN!!!!
cant wait for 2nd march to come...
den can go KL and enjoyy liaos...
wahahaha....
but right now...
i have get back to work...
get real...
school on a sunday?
that's PATHETIC.
wad am i doing in SCHOOL on a SUNDAY???
haiz...
projects projects projects...
these are the only stuff that fill my life now...
i reli cant wait for 8th feb to come...
where my year 1 life would end officially...
wahahaha~
but get real.
i'm still in school on a SUNDAY.
bleah.
oh yah...
i wanna say...
i'm going to MALAYSIA~!
woohoo~
its damn cheap ok...
3 days 2 nights + accomodation + breakfast + travelling + WANG LEE HOM 2nd best seat concert tix u pple guess how much???
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SGD $150!!!!!!
OMG lah!
cheap cheap cheap...
going with moi poly frenz somemore...
cos its organise by da school...
wahahha~
we're gonna have FUN FUN FUN!!!!
cant wait for 2nd march to come...
den can go KL and enjoyy liaos...
wahahaha....
but right now...
i have get back to work...
get real...
school on a sunday?
that's PATHETIC.
what we could have been, 3:03 PM.
Saturday, January 27, 2007
been some time since i last post...
but ah well...
nobody cares anyway...
rushing thru all my projects ever since i recover almost 100%...
cos i am still coughing...
very very VERY badly...
but ah well...
nobody cares anyway...
today was like CHAOS for me...
but i created this chaos myself...
so... =P
went to TP early in the morning....
supposed to meet si shan at 8am at TP bus stop...
but i was late...
i reached at only 815am...
but guess wad??
si shan was EVEN later...
she came at only 836am...
den that yuanjian...
oso another joker...
he only replied my sms at 830am...
saying he jus woke up at that time....
but who knows...
before i knew it, he arrived at the same time as si shan...
-.-
went for breakfast at their engineering block...
where there is nothing good to eat...
we reach there and i ask the 2 of them: got wad nice food?
they stare at each other for a while and look at me
blankly lik as if i jus spoke in alien language...
reason??
very simple.
there got NOTHING nice to eat lah.
anyways...
had those economic fried bee hoon under the stall named: Thai Cuisine.
-.-
a bit the no link arh but...
who cares...
ming fong came even though she say she not meeting me...
aha!
i knew it!
she jus simply misses miie too much!
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and that lih yee was supposed to come lah...
she was supposed to accompany miie till like 10am...
cos shan they got lesson at 9am den cant pei miie...
but end up...
that lih yee PANGSEH again.
ah well...
jus be used to it can liaos...
gave her like...
the most number of miss calls i ever gave anyone but...
it was useless...
so...
i ended up CRASHING shan's lecture.
my first time crashing was in a school that i dun study in.
like hello??
*brain cock up*
anyways...
i think i ended up being the one more shocked rather than her classmates...
cos when i arrive there like 15 mins late...
there were only NINE pple including miie (exclude lecturer)
that is like...
so PATHETIC can?!?!?!?
more pple came...
but i bet the total wasnt more than 15 pple...
most likely ard 11 or 12 liddat...
left after that lecture...
and met wei siong...
to return him his hp...
den i went to NP straight...
was supposed to meet jinli at 1230pm...
but i came early at 1130 instead...
cos i haven finish my part for translation...
did most of it on the bus...
but still fell asleep in the end...
cos eyes too tired...
struggle with translation the whole afternoon...
and managed to finish the important parts...
gotta complete the rest soon...
after which i left for tampines mall...
to meet my 'mama' wan yee...
was supposed to meet at 7pm...
but i left NP only at 530pm...
on top of that the traffic was S-L-O-W...
den only managed to reach at 730pm...
had dinner...
den went to buy movie tix...
for ONE LAST DANCE.
heard loads of comments abt that movie...
but will move on to that later...
while queueing for the tix...
i saw the superstar blogger angie...
OHMYGOD...
she is damn skinny can...
like as if i blow hard enuf den she will fly away liddat...
got an even bigger surprise when i got to the counter...
the person who served miie was my pri sch fren...
amalina...
she is still as sweet as ever...
but i wasnt reli very close to her so...
ah well...
nvm...
anyways...
back to the movie...
the story was indeed complicated...
but i think its jus bcos of the way they film it...
they didnt exactly film it in the normal timeline way...
so yea...
will confuse pple easily...
and i tot that i understand the movie...
until wan yee like explain to miie her interpretation...
den i realise i didnt reli get it...
but wan yee had to watch it the 2nd time to understand it...
and i realise...
i actually DID understand like half of it...
so i am smart afterall...
=P
didnt catch the part abt killing the faggots who rape ah mae...
(if u guys noe wad i mean)
its kinda hard to explain lah if u dunno wad's going on...
but yea...
i think i understand the movie now...
oh...
suddenly realise i took lotsa bus trips today...
a total of abt 8 trips...
LOL!
journey of the day:
took bus 69 to TP in the morning.
den took bus 69 back to my hse here.
den change to bus 28 to get to eunos.
from there i took bus 154 to get to NP.
when leaving i took bus 154 again back to eunos.
den i took bus 21 back to tampines.
when finally returning home i took bus 28.
but halfway i decided to changee to bus 17 to get home.
well...
that's abt it lah...
and the tot of going to do more projects tml jus makes miie SIAN.
like there is only projects for miie to do liddat...
damn it....
cant wait for 8th feb...
when my holidays will start OFFICIALLY.
so sad to those who still gotta study for exams...
awww.....
=P
from then on, i will pia with my work....
earn more money...
earn lotsa lotsa money...
whee~
money money MONEY~!!!!
oh...
suddenly felt so blessed...
to have frenz like kai yeong and guo wei...
and yuan jian and ming fong and si shan and lih yee...
u guys should noe wad i mean...
*wink*
-u know u know u know...-
and i feel that my pri school frenz all love miie loads...
=D
i know all my frenz love miie loads....
muahaha~
its like OMG lah!!!
u know wad's going on loh!!!
and i know that u know!!!
so please dun act like as if u dunno anything liddat can??
u know i know that u know liao lah...
but anyways...
jus be normal...
that's the way i wan things to be...
=)
but ah well...
nobody cares anyway...
rushing thru all my projects ever since i recover almost 100%...
cos i am still coughing...
very very VERY badly...
but ah well...
nobody cares anyway...
today was like CHAOS for me...
but i created this chaos myself...
so... =P
went to TP early in the morning....
supposed to meet si shan at 8am at TP bus stop...
but i was late...
i reached at only 815am...
but guess wad??
si shan was EVEN later...
she came at only 836am...
den that yuanjian...
oso another joker...
he only replied my sms at 830am...
saying he jus woke up at that time....
but who knows...
before i knew it, he arrived at the same time as si shan...
-.-
went for breakfast at their engineering block...
where there is nothing good to eat...
we reach there and i ask the 2 of them: got wad nice food?
they stare at each other for a while and look at me
blankly lik as if i jus spoke in alien language...
reason??
very simple.
there got NOTHING nice to eat lah.
anyways...
had those economic fried bee hoon under the stall named: Thai Cuisine.
-.-
a bit the no link arh but...
who cares...
ming fong came even though she say she not meeting me...
aha!
i knew it!
she jus simply misses miie too much!
><
and that lih yee was supposed to come lah...
she was supposed to accompany miie till like 10am...
cos shan they got lesson at 9am den cant pei miie...
but end up...
that lih yee PANGSEH again.
ah well...
jus be used to it can liaos...
gave her like...
the most number of miss calls i ever gave anyone but...
it was useless...
so...
i ended up CRASHING shan's lecture.
my first time crashing was in a school that i dun study in.
like hello??
*brain cock up*
anyways...
i think i ended up being the one more shocked rather than her classmates...
cos when i arrive there like 15 mins late...
there were only NINE pple including miie (exclude lecturer)
that is like...
so PATHETIC can?!?!?!?
more pple came...
but i bet the total wasnt more than 15 pple...
most likely ard 11 or 12 liddat...
left after that lecture...
and met wei siong...
to return him his hp...
den i went to NP straight...
was supposed to meet jinli at 1230pm...
but i came early at 1130 instead...
cos i haven finish my part for translation...
did most of it on the bus...
but still fell asleep in the end...
cos eyes too tired...
struggle with translation the whole afternoon...
and managed to finish the important parts...
gotta complete the rest soon...
after which i left for tampines mall...
to meet my 'mama' wan yee...
was supposed to meet at 7pm...
but i left NP only at 530pm...
on top of that the traffic was S-L-O-W...
den only managed to reach at 730pm...
had dinner...
den went to buy movie tix...
for ONE LAST DANCE.
heard loads of comments abt that movie...
but will move on to that later...
while queueing for the tix...
i saw the superstar blogger angie...
OHMYGOD...
she is damn skinny can...
like as if i blow hard enuf den she will fly away liddat...
got an even bigger surprise when i got to the counter...
the person who served miie was my pri sch fren...
amalina...
she is still as sweet as ever...
but i wasnt reli very close to her so...
ah well...
nvm...
anyways...
back to the movie...
the story was indeed complicated...
but i think its jus bcos of the way they film it...
they didnt exactly film it in the normal timeline way...
so yea...
will confuse pple easily...
and i tot that i understand the movie...
until wan yee like explain to miie her interpretation...
den i realise i didnt reli get it...
but wan yee had to watch it the 2nd time to understand it...
and i realise...
i actually DID understand like half of it...
so i am smart afterall...
=P
didnt catch the part abt killing the faggots who rape ah mae...
(if u guys noe wad i mean)
its kinda hard to explain lah if u dunno wad's going on...
but yea...
i think i understand the movie now...
oh...
suddenly realise i took lotsa bus trips today...
a total of abt 8 trips...
LOL!
journey of the day:
took bus 69 to TP in the morning.
den took bus 69 back to my hse here.
den change to bus 28 to get to eunos.
from there i took bus 154 to get to NP.
when leaving i took bus 154 again back to eunos.
den i took bus 21 back to tampines.
when finally returning home i took bus 28.
but halfway i decided to changee to bus 17 to get home.
well...
that's abt it lah...
and the tot of going to do more projects tml jus makes miie SIAN.
like there is only projects for miie to do liddat...
damn it....
cant wait for 8th feb...
when my holidays will start OFFICIALLY.
so sad to those who still gotta study for exams...
awww.....
=P
from then on, i will pia with my work....
earn more money...
earn lotsa lotsa money...
whee~
money money MONEY~!!!!
oh...
suddenly felt so blessed...
to have frenz like kai yeong and guo wei...
and yuan jian and ming fong and si shan and lih yee...
u guys should noe wad i mean...
*wink*
-u know u know u know...-
and i feel that my pri school frenz all love miie loads...
=D
i know all my frenz love miie loads....
muahaha~
its like OMG lah!!!
u know wad's going on loh!!!
and i know that u know!!!
so please dun act like as if u dunno anything liddat can??
u know i know that u know liao lah...
but anyways...
jus be normal...
that's the way i wan things to be...
=)
what we could have been, 12:29 AM.
Monday, January 22, 2007
finally the fever's gone...
but that doesnt mean i am better alr...
cos in fact...
i've been coughing like nobody's business...
cough and cough non stop....
for hours i cough non stop....
and nothing stops it...
not even hot water...
not even strepsils....
not even my MEDICINE.
i've been coughing like there is no day and night...
jus keep on coughing and coughing and coughing...
and my damn throat jus keeps on itching....
darn it.
i shall cough my way to school everyday...
cough my way to do my projects....
cough my way to interview the nurse tml...
cough my way to do my soc psy assessed tutorial 2...
cough my way to do my drama open script....
cough my way to cult hist final assignment...
cough my way everywhere i go...
i shall jus keep on coughing....
coughing coughing coughing~
woohoo ~
how nice...
but i am determined to cough this darn cough away....
didnt went to school today....
cos i need a day to finish my uncompleted work...
thanks to the fever last week...
went to tampines polyclinic to see doc...
the intention was to see doc for the darn cough i have...
but... ah well... doesnt reli matter anyway....
=X
oh man...
tampines polyclinic was FAST man!!!
i can take like 2 hours to get one MC at pasir ris polyclinic...
the same thing can be done at tampines clinic for like half less the time...
or even faster...
next time, wan buy MC, go tampines...
its faster...
but dun all go at the same time...
it'll turn slow by den....
=X
after that i had lunch and went off to TP...
all by myself this time...
and i was worried that i might get caught for trespassing library...
i was worried wad happen i forgot and step on the grass??
opps... =X
den they will catch miie and realise i not TP student and they will....
NEH!
i think too much liao...
but anyways...
i did manage to trespass TP successfully...
it wasnt my first time doing that anyway...
=X
was all alone in the library...
till like 415??
den ming fong and shan came...
with isabel and a guy who i dunno his name...
but ah well... doesnt matter anyway... =X
den like 5 plus yuanjian came for his beloved mingfong...
who unfortunately, got her new sandals spoiled.
wahahaha~
i'm evil.
=X
but somehow i dunno how that mingfong fixed her broken sandal with
A RUBBERBAND.
-.-
god knows how she does that...
den they all left.
leave miie all alone down there in a school that i dun belong to.
=X
but ah well... doesnt matter anyway...
den i jus did some work while waited for him to come...
he was watching movie...
not for fun, cos he got a movie review to do...
he came and... nothing happen.
i did my work while he read a book...
like he so free liddat...
wad the hell...
i didnt even talk to him loh...
but ah well... doesnt matter anyway...=X
i slog slog slog slog slog (but didnt reli do much anyway)....
and tada~
its like 830pm even before i knew it...
(i reli knew it though...)
better go home liao...
he, as usual, being hungry
(other than being hungry he can only be sleepy),
wanna get something to eat...
we den walked to opp TP where he get his pancake...
u know u know....
those very yummy type where they got 'jia liao' one...
got ham, hotdog, cheese and blabla~....
u know u know...
den he go buy drink and we went back to the bus stop...
was talking all the way...
its been a long time since i last talk to him...
its even longer time since i last seen him...
was on the bus when i....
er...
nvm...
it doesnt matter anyway... =(
but somehow, the feeling to give up was very strong...
yuanjian is trying to get miie to give up...
and i think shan would be glad if i reli give up...
everytime i try to not think of you,
i would think of even more rubbish...
it aint helping much seriously...
made miie felt even more worse in fact...
reli wanna give up but felt so wrong...
but i think everything was wrong in the first place...
totally wrong...
i brought myself into it...
so i guess i have to bear with it...
till i reli get over it....
and i'm gonna continue with my uncompleted work...
i hate to miss open house btw...
the feeling sucks...
it seriously sucks...
what we could have been, 11:40 PM.
Thursday, January 18, 2007
i am still not feeling well lah!
like wad the hell...
alot of days liao leii...
ever since sunday i alr got sore throat...
den tues start to have fever liao...
i still thought can recover within these few days...
but...
haiz...
my body a bit sot liao i think...
the moment i eat medicine den i feel ok...
after a few hours the fever come back again...
keep on liddat loh...
damn shit...
i even had to miss open house bcos of the fever...
kao...
had to ask yao to replace miie...
grrr....
thanks a lot anyway yao...
and my head is still spinning around...
VERY VERY VERY giddy...
dunno how am i gonna do my work liddat...
i think its affecting my eyesight too...
a lot of things i see liao blur blur...
scarli i kena short-sightedness...
KAO!
i den dowan...
feel so sleepy liao...
thanks to the damn medicine...
haiz...
tml have to hand in soc psy journal and i have yet to start...
i dun even know whether i can go to school tml anot...
scarli wake up got fever again...
sian diao...
think i better to do my journal...
in case i have to go to school tml...
BLEAH!
like wad the hell...
alot of days liao leii...
ever since sunday i alr got sore throat...
den tues start to have fever liao...
i still thought can recover within these few days...
but...
haiz...
my body a bit sot liao i think...
the moment i eat medicine den i feel ok...
after a few hours the fever come back again...
keep on liddat loh...
damn shit...
i even had to miss open house bcos of the fever...
kao...
had to ask yao to replace miie...
grrr....
thanks a lot anyway yao...
and my head is still spinning around...
VERY VERY VERY giddy...
dunno how am i gonna do my work liddat...
i think its affecting my eyesight too...
a lot of things i see liao blur blur...
scarli i kena short-sightedness...
KAO!
i den dowan...
feel so sleepy liao...
thanks to the damn medicine...
haiz...
tml have to hand in soc psy journal and i have yet to start...
i dun even know whether i can go to school tml anot...
scarli wake up got fever again...
sian diao...
think i better to do my journal...
in case i have to go to school tml...
BLEAH!
what we could have been, 8:43 PM.
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
grrr...
feeling so terrible now...
head so giddy...
sian diao...
never go to school today...
cos sick liao...
felt very bad...
cos i was supposed to rehearse for our drama presentation...
cos it has already been pushed back a week...
but den i reli couldnt go to school...
haiz...
i apologize to zhai zi, karmen, wang yu and yu fung...
didnt reli wan this to happen...
i had fever, sore throat, cough, flu, headache and giddiness...
my fever went up to 38.9.
sian diao...
den eat med liao very sleepy...
whole day only eat and sleep...
so waste time...
and i haven finish my social psychlogy journal 2...
lucky doctor give miie MC till 18th...
den danny boey say i have to hand in journal on the 19...
tml die die also muz finish my journal...
only scared i dunno how to do...
den tml still got open house den i am the course counsellor somemore...
had to trouble mingxiu to find a replacement for miie...
felt so bad...
but i think i really need that day to finish my work...
or else i very jia lat...
den friday still got PSP duty for open house...
hope by friday i can feel better ba...
sat still have to hand in drama script...
den still gonna watch one last dance with wan yee...
dunno i will have the time anot...
den sunday is cuzzie's wedding...
haiz....
think this is the wrong time to fell sick...
felt that i become a lot weaker now...
last time can a year never go see doc...
no matter how sick oso nvr kena fever...
but now...
haiz...
jus year 1 alone i already had fever twice...
had to use the asthma inhaler so many times...
haiz...
my head seem to be spinning as i type this...
so giddy...
zzzz....
think i stop here...
cos i reli too tired...
too sleepy...
zzzzzzz.....
feeling so terrible now...
head so giddy...
sian diao...
never go to school today...
cos sick liao...
felt very bad...
cos i was supposed to rehearse for our drama presentation...
cos it has already been pushed back a week...
but den i reli couldnt go to school...
haiz...
i apologize to zhai zi, karmen, wang yu and yu fung...
didnt reli wan this to happen...
i had fever, sore throat, cough, flu, headache and giddiness...
my fever went up to 38.9.
sian diao...
den eat med liao very sleepy...
whole day only eat and sleep...
so waste time...
and i haven finish my social psychlogy journal 2...
lucky doctor give miie MC till 18th...
den danny boey say i have to hand in journal on the 19...
tml die die also muz finish my journal...
only scared i dunno how to do...
den tml still got open house den i am the course counsellor somemore...
had to trouble mingxiu to find a replacement for miie...
felt so bad...
but i think i really need that day to finish my work...
or else i very jia lat...
den friday still got PSP duty for open house...
hope by friday i can feel better ba...
sat still have to hand in drama script...
den still gonna watch one last dance with wan yee...
dunno i will have the time anot...
den sunday is cuzzie's wedding...
haiz....
think this is the wrong time to fell sick...
felt that i become a lot weaker now...
last time can a year never go see doc...
no matter how sick oso nvr kena fever...
but now...
haiz...
jus year 1 alone i already had fever twice...
had to use the asthma inhaler so many times...
haiz...
my head seem to be spinning as i type this...
so giddy...
zzzz....
think i stop here...
cos i reli too tired...
too sleepy...
zzzzzzz.....
what we could have been, 11:24 PM.
Sunday, January 14, 2007
i guess you're right...
i dun understand u...
not at all...
i dunno wad the hell u are thinking...
i dunno wad the hell u wan...
i dunno anything at all...
its all a wishful thinking of my part...
its all an assumption i made by myself...
its all my fault...
i dunno wad am i holding on for...
though i clearly know that nothing's gonna happen...
i dunno wad's holding miie back....
though i reli feel like giving up...
i reli wanna give up...
giving up on u would make us feel better....
wait...
i forgot i dun understand u at all....
so i cant make any assumptions...
so giving up would at least make miie feel better.
i'm sure it would.
you know, i reli wanna give up.
but i cant and i dunno wad's the reason.
i reli do.
i dun understand u...
not at all...
i dunno wad the hell u are thinking...
i dunno wad the hell u wan...
i dunno anything at all...
its all a wishful thinking of my part...
its all an assumption i made by myself...
its all my fault...
i dunno wad am i holding on for...
though i clearly know that nothing's gonna happen...
i dunno wad's holding miie back....
though i reli feel like giving up...
i reli wanna give up...
giving up on u would make us feel better....
wait...
i forgot i dun understand u at all....
so i cant make any assumptions...
so giving up would at least make miie feel better.
i'm sure it would.
you know, i reli wanna give up.
but i cant and i dunno wad's the reason.
i reli do.
what we could have been, 1:19 AM.
Thursday, January 04, 2007
today was the first day of sch...
doesnt mean much to miie...
cos i am continuing from last sem...
den finally got a new lappie adaptor...
so can go online finally...
not to mention to do my work as well...
but den somehow i am not happy.
i am rather disappointed.
in myself.
i feel reli terrible.
there are lots of assignments i have yet to hand in...
thanks to the spoiled adaptor.
den yufung and jinli said smth today that made miie feel real bad.
they say its unfair for them...
unfair that when i hand in my assignments late,
and the lecturers dun deduct my marks.
ok.
i can understand their thinking...
i can only say...
i'm at fault lah.
if i were in their shoes i wouldnt be happy either wad.
i noe i am at fault.
i noe i am slacking down this sem.
i hope i can work harder this sem...
reli...
i dowan to get a low GPA again like last sem...
but i think i have not been working hard enuf and its too late.
i am disappointed with soc psy...
i cant seem to get it...
nothing abt soc psy i understand.
and to think last sem other pple keep saying this module easy score one.
i PUI.
i dunno how is drama going to be like...
but i not having high hopes for it either.
cult hist.
dun need to say.
sure die one...
esp when chen ying like dislike miie so much.
can forget abt it liao.
writcom in chi.
i'm turning hopeless cos the lecturer is hopeless.
and i feel rather gulity...
that i have not been updating my livejournal often enuf.
trans.
aha.
that is a module i tot i can at least score a B for it.
appears to miie that i am wrong.
cos i jus check the NPmail.
and i got warning letter for trans.
said my attendance not enuf.
haiz...
i thinking i skip too many lessons alr...
and i have yet to pay my sch fees.
i dowan to bother my parents abt sch fees.
so i tot of seeking help from student centre.
which i have yet to make a trip there.
hopefully i can force myself to go there tml.
currently, i jus hope that i can attend lessons more regularly.
and i hope that i can complete all my assignments on time.
and i hope i can earn enuf money.
its gonna be hard balancing sch, work n private time...
i have never been good at time planning.
hope i can learn my lesson this time round.
i'm hurt.
very hurt.
u sms miie late in the night at 3am last nite.
not that i mind or wad cos i couldnt get to sleep either.
but why, why izzit that u will only sms miie when u need to tok to someone??
if not i have to take the initiative to sms u...
not only to u, but to other frenz as well...
i am usually there when anyone need to tok to someone.
no matter how late the night is i will still try my best to tok to u pple.
lih yee called miie at 4am last time when she broke up with her boyfriend.
i had to listen to her cry over the phone,
and try my best to comfort her.
shan owaes call miie when she has troubles,
regardless of relationship or family problems.
ming fong consult in miie when she's feeling troubled.
u.
u sms miie.
at 3am.
to tell miie abt that someone.
its forever the same someone.
why izzit that...
when ever i receive ur msg,
u gave miie the feeling that u need to tok to someone badly?
not that i dun understand u.
i understand u well enuf.
too well in fact i think.
but i dowan be the replacement for wadeva that is missing in ur life.
look guys...
its not that i am unhappy u guys consult in miie or wadeva.
jus that,
i've been there for lots of pple when they needed someone.
but wad about miie?
who can i turn to when i am feeling troubled?
telling the same person abt ur problems all the times only irritate that person off.
i dowan to be a drag to anyone.
i think abt ur smses last nite.
can i say that u are dropping miie hints??
hinting that its time to stop all these??
i hope it can stop.
reli .
stop soon.
before i get too disappointed in u.
before i get too disappointed in myself.
wait.
i am already disappointed in myself.
totally disappointed.
doesnt mean much to miie...
cos i am continuing from last sem...
den finally got a new lappie adaptor...
so can go online finally...
not to mention to do my work as well...
but den somehow i am not happy.
i am rather disappointed.
in myself.
i feel reli terrible.
there are lots of assignments i have yet to hand in...
thanks to the spoiled adaptor.
den yufung and jinli said smth today that made miie feel real bad.
they say its unfair for them...
unfair that when i hand in my assignments late,
and the lecturers dun deduct my marks.
ok.
i can understand their thinking...
i can only say...
i'm at fault lah.
if i were in their shoes i wouldnt be happy either wad.
i noe i am at fault.
i noe i am slacking down this sem.
i hope i can work harder this sem...
reli...
i dowan to get a low GPA again like last sem...
but i think i have not been working hard enuf and its too late.
i am disappointed with soc psy...
i cant seem to get it...
nothing abt soc psy i understand.
and to think last sem other pple keep saying this module easy score one.
i PUI.
i dunno how is drama going to be like...
but i not having high hopes for it either.
cult hist.
dun need to say.
sure die one...
esp when chen ying like dislike miie so much.
can forget abt it liao.
writcom in chi.
i'm turning hopeless cos the lecturer is hopeless.
and i feel rather gulity...
that i have not been updating my livejournal often enuf.
trans.
aha.
that is a module i tot i can at least score a B for it.
appears to miie that i am wrong.
cos i jus check the NPmail.
and i got warning letter for trans.
said my attendance not enuf.
haiz...
i thinking i skip too many lessons alr...
and i have yet to pay my sch fees.
i dowan to bother my parents abt sch fees.
so i tot of seeking help from student centre.
which i have yet to make a trip there.
hopefully i can force myself to go there tml.
currently, i jus hope that i can attend lessons more regularly.
and i hope that i can complete all my assignments on time.
and i hope i can earn enuf money.
its gonna be hard balancing sch, work n private time...
i have never been good at time planning.
hope i can learn my lesson this time round.
i'm hurt.
very hurt.
u sms miie late in the night at 3am last nite.
not that i mind or wad cos i couldnt get to sleep either.
but why, why izzit that u will only sms miie when u need to tok to someone??
if not i have to take the initiative to sms u...
not only to u, but to other frenz as well...
i am usually there when anyone need to tok to someone.
no matter how late the night is i will still try my best to tok to u pple.
lih yee called miie at 4am last time when she broke up with her boyfriend.
i had to listen to her cry over the phone,
and try my best to comfort her.
shan owaes call miie when she has troubles,
regardless of relationship or family problems.
ming fong consult in miie when she's feeling troubled.
u.
u sms miie.
at 3am.
to tell miie abt that someone.
its forever the same someone.
why izzit that...
when ever i receive ur msg,
u gave miie the feeling that u need to tok to someone badly?
not that i dun understand u.
i understand u well enuf.
too well in fact i think.
but i dowan be the replacement for wadeva that is missing in ur life.
look guys...
its not that i am unhappy u guys consult in miie or wadeva.
jus that,
i've been there for lots of pple when they needed someone.
but wad about miie?
who can i turn to when i am feeling troubled?
telling the same person abt ur problems all the times only irritate that person off.
i dowan to be a drag to anyone.
i think abt ur smses last nite.
can i say that u are dropping miie hints??
hinting that its time to stop all these??
i hope it can stop.
reli .
stop soon.
before i get too disappointed in u.
before i get too disappointed in myself.
wait.
i am already disappointed in myself.
totally disappointed.
what we could have been, 12:36 AM.
Monday, January 01, 2007
forgot to mention something jus now...
i am going back to commoditee to work.
starting from 9th jan i think.
reason: i dun have money.
i need to get a job...
but somehow i hardly find any job that i wan...
den my cuzzie in law ask miie ytd...
ask miie whether i still wanna work anot...
so i jus say yes loh.
and conclusion: i am gonna work with a bunch of backstabbers again.
i am going back to commoditee to work.
starting from 9th jan i think.
reason: i dun have money.
i need to get a job...
but somehow i hardly find any job that i wan...
den my cuzzie in law ask miie ytd...
ask miie whether i still wanna work anot...
so i jus say yes loh.
and conclusion: i am gonna work with a bunch of backstabbers again.
what we could have been, 4:25 PM.
happy new year everyone!!!
this is my 80th post and first post in 2007!!!
lol...
i noe i a bit slow in blogging lah...
cos i lazy ma...
wun update everyday...
besides, i dun get to use my laptop nowadays..
well...
another daily update??
lol...
think i will jus say abt ytd ba...
ytd was dad's birthday...
as usual...
went to long beach and eat dinner again...
a sinful meal...
make miie feel so fat after eating...
and had mango ice cream cake...
i ate 2 pieces somemore...
=X
zui guo zui guo...
den after that went to pasir ris park...
for kaishi their bbq...
i only ate stingray...
cos i arrived there with a full tummy...
celebrated melanie bdae in advance....
tricked her with the candles that never goes out...
we did the same trick on yong xian and kaishi...
but none were as successful as melanie's...
cos we were at the beach and the wind was STRONG...
it jus help us in tricking melanie....
*shrugs*
was quite boring there...
talked a lot...
den we countdown and continue talking...
den talk talk talk den pple run off to the playground...
den jus follow..
den pack up and go home at ard 2am??
ming fong n yuan jian came over to my hse...
the pasir ris one...
but ming fong wasnt used to sleeping on others' bed...
so she left for home at 6am plus today...
den i go to sleep lah.
den forced myself up jus now to watch my JJ...
=D
hees....
was out last nite so didnt catch JJ on countdown 2007...
no matter wad i oso muz watch...
so forced myself up...
HEES.
my JJ....
sho nice....
haiz..
i abit sian now...
so stop blogging liao...
mind's in a mess...
this is my 80th post and first post in 2007!!!
lol...
i noe i a bit slow in blogging lah...
cos i lazy ma...
wun update everyday...
besides, i dun get to use my laptop nowadays..
well...
another daily update??
lol...
think i will jus say abt ytd ba...
ytd was dad's birthday...
as usual...
went to long beach and eat dinner again...
a sinful meal...
make miie feel so fat after eating...
and had mango ice cream cake...
i ate 2 pieces somemore...
=X
zui guo zui guo...
den after that went to pasir ris park...
for kaishi their bbq...
i only ate stingray...
cos i arrived there with a full tummy...
celebrated melanie bdae in advance....
tricked her with the candles that never goes out...
we did the same trick on yong xian and kaishi...
but none were as successful as melanie's...
cos we were at the beach and the wind was STRONG...
it jus help us in tricking melanie....
*shrugs*
was quite boring there...
talked a lot...
den we countdown and continue talking...
den talk talk talk den pple run off to the playground...
den jus follow..
den pack up and go home at ard 2am??
ming fong n yuan jian came over to my hse...
the pasir ris one...
but ming fong wasnt used to sleeping on others' bed...
so she left for home at 6am plus today...
den i go to sleep lah.
den forced myself up jus now to watch my JJ...
=D
hees....
was out last nite so didnt catch JJ on countdown 2007...
no matter wad i oso muz watch...
so forced myself up...
HEES.
my JJ....
sho nice....
haiz..
i abit sian now...
so stop blogging liao...
mind's in a mess...
what we could have been, 3:19 PM.
