things happen...
and i am very emotionally unstable...
i'll go day by day...
22nd dec:
went over to my auntie house at night...
the kids started to play with my hp camera...
cherise n daryl were the first to take actions...
i think it was cherise who start to zi lian first...
they attempt to take photo by themselves...
den yi xian...
that cutie darling...
saw his sis n cuzzie zi lian-ing...
he wanted to do the same too...
so i took this photo of him...
see!
so cute hoh!
den that darling wanted to learn photos taking skills...
he literally SNATCH my phone from miie...
to take pictures...
look at his first attempt...
well....
at least its still clear lah...
jus that the model (miie) wasnt exactly in the pic...
after several attempts...
he got miie into the pic...
see!
he did had miie in the pic...
jus that this time round the photo wasnt clear...
-.-
but cant blame him lah...
he's only THREE years old.
den my sweetie decided to get emo with tigger...
hey...
admit it...
he's still cute even when he emo...
had fun and champagne at my aunt house...
lol...
daddy didnt wanna let miie drink at first...
said i wasnt 18 yet...
(though i reli wasnt)
but i insisted that i'm already 18...
and even went to the extent of crapping...
i told my dad...
"the law only state 18 yrs and below cannot drink...
they never say ish english age or chinese age...
my chinese age alr 18 le wad!!!!"
stoopid excuse right??
but dad still let miie drink...
=P
23rd dec:
went to sch for PSP workshop...
had fun with sabrina n yonglin...
cos i was suaning them non stop...
lol!
after that rushed home den went to meet yuanjian n ming fong...
cos gonna have steamboat at marina bay...
vic was supposed to come along...
but he had fever in the end so nvr come...
they were rather intimate on the train lah...
den a gal keep staring at them...
lol...
after that met si shan n her leslie at marina bay there...
went to eat zhen fa huo hai xian...
LOL!
the steamboat we had plus bbq...
that was before we start...
and i was lao da that day...
didnt cook much but ate a lot...
LOL!
the wonderful tasting food...
black pepper chicken...
and bacon oso...
yuMMy~ 
see!
these food look so nice right??
unfortunately the taste sux...
its one of the worst things i ever ate...
bleah!
terrible taste...
=X
but yuanjian forced himself to finish everything...
poor thing...
we didnt forced him...
he forced himself...
the GIGANTIC LIVE crabby they gave us...
and u were supposed to kill it urself...
-.-
like WTH??
put 5 kids n a GIANT crabby together = chaos.
nobody wanted to kill it lah...
cos we all dunno how...
but ming fong n yuan jian killed it in the end...
with the help from some auntie i think...
oh...
btw...
something terrible happen to miie...
the hot oil splat INTO my eye...
mind u...
it didnt splat ON the eyelid...
it splat INTO the eye...
it was damn freaking pain can...
after that the oil splat onto my eyelid again...
it's not my cooking day...
so i jus sat and ate...
yuan jian was my cook for the day...
and ming fong n si shan were my prawn peelers...
LOL!
took photo of this interesting half bbq prawn...
its cook on one side and raw on the other...
jus found this interesting...
ate for like four hours i think...
after that ming fong left with yuanjian ard 10pm...
den miie, shan n leslie went to orchard...
walked from orchard to dohby ghaut...
went to find lih yee...
took lots of photos but they are all in shan's phone...
many interesting things along orchard road...
jus a bit lazy to say...
oh...
i saw a fella who look like JJ!!!!
the JJ in the first album...
OMG~
shocked miie LOH!
but too bad...
he not as cute and shuai as my JJ...
or else he wun be selling xmas stuff on the street..
=p
went over to lih yee's workplace and she sent us home in a cab...
cos it was ard 12 plus...
no train no bus...
besides, she can claim cab fare...
so y not??
=D
den she sent leslie home first... (pasir ris)
den she sent si shan home... (tampines)
den she sent miie home... (bedok)
finally she went home... (eunos)
the cab fare was EX ok...
but luckily she still can claim...
=p
24th dec:
last min we decided to have a mini countdown party at my house...
so shan n i meet to buy vodka...
opps.
den went to clean up my house...
leslie came after we cleaned up...
was supposed to go down to orchard to meet him...
but cos too many things to do...
and by the time i finish alr too late liao...
and he was supposed to join us for the countdown...
but end up he nvr came cos he working nxt day...
morning shift...
gotta wake up at 4am...
den ming fong n yuan jian n lih yee all pangseh also...
made miie very mad...
dowan to say liao...
but den i think i gotta apologize to angie...
cos i pangseh her...
=X
didnt reli do it on purpose...
was too into my JJ liao...
25th dec:
officially christmas le...
call vic and sorta countdown together thru the phone...
lol...
played daidee throughout the night...
loser had to eat the tidbits we bought...
at least that was wad loser had to do...
until i brought the vodka out...
this time round loser had to drink...
i was the ULTIMATE LOSER.
i glup down EIGHT or NINE cups of vodka mixed with F&N...
or ice lemon tea...
i was reli SEH loh...
and my face wasnt red at all...
think my body is reli unhealthy...
look!!
the total amt of vodka 3 person drink...
with miie consuming the most...
our drinks for the night...
the F&N was damn gasey...
wad made miie reli uncomfortable was F&N...
not vodka...
wanted to vomit but nothing could come out...
felt better soon and went to sleep...
slept till 3pm...
but it wasnt a good sleep...
kept waking up after a couple of hours...
cleaned up and dad n mum came to fetch miie home...
cos i was lazy...
i was reli tired that night...
slept for like 12 hours...
26th dec:
woke up after 12 hours of sleep at 3pm...
=X
showered and went to meet him to buy prezzie...
cos gonna meet liping n gang the nxt day...
walked ard t mall and found nothing we like...
but he bought something in the end...
the zipit pencil case...
u noe...
zip zip zip to form a pencil case...
gonna get the pouch for myself i think...
i didnt get anything though even after walking thru century sq...
saw ms tiong n some other nas teachers...
wished them merry christmas and we left for pasir ris...
he accompanied miie go find yongsheng...
to get lappie adaptor...
cos mine was spoil...
but returning it to him tml...
though i hadnt done much work...
after that we went to downtown east...
he went back to his old shop...
stayed there for quite some time...
had cold KFC for dinner...
den waited for andy to end work and we went home...
27th dec:
finally!
i got to meet up with li ping and gang lah!
went to marine parade de kbox...
got to realise that its the ONLY kbox left in the east...
like wad the hell can...
so lousy...
hope they can re-built the one in tampines...
the staff at kbox marine parade was reli rude...
didnt reli wanna be nice to them either...
the staff at paradiz centre is better...
of the times we sang...
he had been singing for 3/4 of the times...
-.-
but i gotta say...
his voice is nice one...
nth much happen at kbox...
jus sang and sang and sang...
den we exchange prezzies...
we had to draw names 3 times...
in order not to draw our own names...
in the end i got his prezzie...
the zip zip zip pencil case...
li ping got my prezzie...
one free movie tix...
yup...
its the one that i won at zhong qiu wan hui...
=X
not i cheapo or wad...
ish cos i cant anything nice...
i wanted to get a pencil case but...
gave that idea to him liao...
so i bo bian...
besides, i still have 6 movie tix left...
giving one away still left miie with 5...
come to think of it...
the 5 movie tix that i used up right...
only got 2 is i used it to watch movie...
one i treated wei siong...
one i sold to sijin...
=X
and the last one i gave to li ping...
lol...
den means i only watched 2 movies with my tix...
met wan yee too...
she gave miie prezzie oso...
yeah~
went to walked ard in parkway parade after dinner...
had dinner with wan yee, weiyun, li ting and him...
had my fav oreo ice blended too...
hehe...
went to the arcade...
saw something new...
a roller coaster stimulator...
if u guys ever get there, trust miie...
dun waste 3 bucks on that stoopid ride...
it wasnt exciting, it wasnt scary, it wasnt fun.
it was ITCHY.
cos they keep shaking lah...
den make your whole body very itchy...
took bus to bedok...
den took bus with liting and wanyee...
i reached my stop already...
but i decided to take till tampines...
den from tampines i took long journey bus home...
took 28...
reached home quite late i think...
but i dun mind...
to be honest...
it was a fun day...
but i was having a hard time...
maybe i was the one giving myself a hard time...
i kinda didnt wanna stick to him...
stick with liting n wanyee instead...
let him n the "scandal gf" spent more time together...
(wanna noe who?? refer to above.. see i had dinner with who)
didnt noe why i did that...
guess i am used to that...
i owaes do that in the past...
so i do that now...
if u are ever reading this...
i jus wanna say i was reli having a hard time....
though i kinda push u n her together...
i felt real bad inside...
and after hearing liting say u two very compatible,
i jus felt even more worse.
i tried my very best to hide it...
but i guess i wasnt a good actress....
i wanted to accompany u jus now...
when u wanted to get some thing to eat..
but when i knew she going to mrt station there...
i said goodbye instead..
i didnt say all these to let u have some actions...
jus wanna let u noe how i felt exactly...
keep everything inside miie these few days is reli bothering miie...
i get troubled over things like that everyday...
so troubled that i couldnt even concentrate on my sch work...
no matter wad, pls dun avoid miie...
it will hurt miie deeper...
jus be yourself okies...
be like the past...
things will be better for us both this way.
reli.
it will.
jus be as normal kkz??
i miss ur singing...
the holidays are making miie feel even worse than normal sch days....
its like...
there is no holidays at all.
many pple are rushing thru their stoopid assignments...
and projects...
so am i.
but i have reached the stage where i dowan to do anything abt it.
reli.
i'm starting to slack down a lot.
i can stare at my lappie for hours and not do anything.
i jus dun have the heart to do my work.
and things are rather tightly packed.
haiz...
finally i went out with my fwens after cooping in the house for so long.
ever since last friday till yesterday.
i cant believe that i can actually stay at home for so many days.
except monday.
went to sing kbox yesterday with fong, vic n yuanjian.
was quite mad actually.
but after some thought i felt that i got no reason to be mad.
but still, i was indeed very mad.
we were supposed to meet at eunos mrt station...
as usual, i was late lah.
so, in order to save time...
i sms vic to board the train immediately when i reach eunos.
jus as i knew that SMS would be slow, i call him.
he say : OK.
when the train door closes, vic call miie again and say:
MING FONG DUN DARE TO GO IN.
-.-
i was fuming mad by then already.
like WTF?
like as if that stoopid idiotic computer-controlled train will bite her butt liddat.
even if it does it oso will open up LAH!
den vic say he had already walked into the train...
jus bcos of that woman he had to step out.
hellooo!
if victor has the time to step in and step out of the train before the door closes,
den why izzit that u cant step in??
and that woman...
she oso scared that the mrt station gate...
the one where u tap ur ez link card...
will close on u...
adn bite ur damn BUTT when u walk thru it.
everytime i take train with her...
u see her tap her ez link card...
and she RUN.
-.-
anyway...
i was so pek chek loh!!!
i went down straight to city hall by myself and waited there instead.
den we went to kbox paradiz centre.
its some distance away from the mrt station...
u gotta walk.
that woman who is wearing slippers...
slippers that felt extremely comfortable...
slippers that would not hurt your feet...
was complaining that her feet pain.
whereas I, wearing the pair of stoopid new shoes...
this asshole shoes...
the shoes that cause each of my feet to have 3 blisters...
was hurting my leg like HELL.
and yet i walked without complain.
sometimes i wonder can she dun be such a whiner anot...
jus whine to ur yuan jian lah...
dun whine to us can...
grrrr....
but everthing else was fine in kbox.
well.
i felt fine though i know she doesnt.
somehow at times she very emo...
but as usual...
she was fine the moment her darling monster yuan jian came...
bleah!
after kbox we jus went home lah...
that was basically my day yesterday....
i dunno ad is wrong with miie recently lah...
i only noe i very emo....
all my serious moodswings are coming back...
and i've been like...
bu shuang-ing pple for days...
even small matter can jus pissed miie off...
or rather should i say...
these few days i very bu shuang with pple ard miie...
in fact...
everyone that i interact with makes miie bu shuang.
and i mean EVERYONE.
reli is EVERYONE.
i think the problem lies in miie lah...
but i dunno wad is the root of the problem...
jus hope that i can stop bu shuang-ing pple soon...
but was disconnected...
so here goes...
SUN:
i wasted my whole day away doing nothing...
and i hate it...
only woke up at about 3pm....
cos i was on the phone with him first den i called si han...
lol...
that fella...
wad an entertainer...
of course he talked abt all those da dao li oso lah...
which i had heard so much and its all the same to miie loh...
den i did nothing ever since i woke up...
zzz...
played mario forever and dad caught miie in action...
in the end dad wanted to play him...
-.-
and he reli DID!!!
dun believe???
see for yourself!!!
see!!!
i wasnt lying!!!
my daddy with my lappie playing mario...
mummy sat beside him enjoying....
she was enjoying herself by telling daddy how to move...
-.-
and of course, she enjoy seeing daddy game over...
-.-
mario forever...
dad is a real lousy player...
see how many lifes he got left and u noe...
=X
and he reli addicted to it okies...
he played for hours NON-STOP loh...
zzzz....
there goes my lappie...
sobsss....
MON:
slept late last nite...
cos daddy used my lappie the whole EVENING and NIGHT...
den i can only used during MIDNIGHT....
so cham loh...
i only woke up when dad comes home from outside like ard 11am...
the first thing he said when he stepped into the house was:
"on laptop let miie play"
-.-
OMG~!!!!!!!!!
i've created a MARIO-ADDICT FREAK!!!!!
he played MARIO (again) while i got ready...
den we went to YUM CHA...
MUAHAHA~
*saliva drools as thinking of MANGO PRAWN*
den after that mummy say go four horse road (si ma lu)...
u noe u noe...
the bugis de OG and guan yin miao...
went to pray first den go OG...
den somehow, mummy became unhappy...
den she quarrel with daddy...
=(
my parents hardly quarrel...
and its a bit serious this time...
i dun even dare to say anything...
den we came home and mummy have been sleeping till now...
and she is still sleeping....
=(
she didnt cook dinner or wad so ever...
doesnt matter to miie lah...
jus that i wonder wad did my granny eat for dinner sia...
i dunno cos i was asleep at that time too...
and daddy was playing MARIO ever since we got home like ard 6pm...
he played till...
9pm??
forgot liao...
think mummy venting it out by sleeping...
den daddy vent his anger by playing mario...
heard lots of noise when i sleep(when dad play mario)...
i think the spacebar on my laptop has suffered a lot today...
=X
now everyone in this house has fallen asleep...
except for miie...
and i'm hungry...
shall go and dig and see got wad i can eat de...
i hope my parents will stop cold war-ing soon...
=(
i need a job desperately.
cos....
i've run out of money.
=x
seriously man...
i dowan to get money from my parents...
cos they got enuf troubles liao...
so i need to get a job and provide my own income...
jia lat man...
the job i wan muz have flexible timing...
cos i wanna work on weekdays after school as well...
the pay cannot be too lousy lah...
at least 5 bucks per hour....
the environment muz be good...
i dowan to work in a place filled with backstabbers...
that was why i left commoditee in the first place...
dowan to go back to the same situation...
anyone got any good lobang can intro to miie ma??
i reli desperate to get a job...
anyone who got any lobang pls leave a tag on my tagboard...
and pls tell miie how can i contact u lah...
=X
i need a job~~~
i don't know what is it that i want.
i keep saying i want to give up.
i've tried giving up on him.
really, i've tried.
but there are just some things that i can't let go.
maybe i've not tried hard enough.
your attitude towards me makes me ponder.
do you, or do you not know that i like you??
i'm really tired to lead a life like this.
yes, i'm a fool.
a big fool.
the biggest fool anyone will find on earth.
and i brought all these upon myself.
it's all my fault.
my fault.
and i have not started anything.
=X
jia lat.
i am such a slacker now.
and holidays started officially yesterday.
and i have a novel, a playscript, a report and two projects
to be completed within the two weeks hols.
definition of "holidays" from www.dictionary.com (go check it out if u dun believe miie)
-a time or period of exemption from any requirement, duty, assessment, etc
hmmm...
interesting....
wad kind of HOLIDAYS is this man?!?!?!?!?!
a holiday that work us to death??
hmm....
so hateful...
singapore education system...
haiz...
while dealing with this pile of shit here...
i shall enjoy myself...
muahaha...
suddenly feel like getting into the christmas spirit...
shall ask mingfong they all whether they wanna go to orchard tml...
the purpose??
to CAMWHORE of course!!!
lol...
i've already get myself a date (or rather dates) on christmas eve...
woohoo!!!
cant wait man...
muz get prezzies de wor...
*hint hint*
santa claus is coming to town~~~
=p
i am amazed.
i actually made it back home AWAKE.
LOL.
reli very tired now.
cos ytd nite ton at bedok de mac.
with him.
lih yee supposed to come but in the end she sleep like pig.
=X
he studied his F&B i did my cultural history.
saw wad he supposed to study.
so funny sia.
they got things like definition of australia beef and USA beef.
dunno wad muz have 0-8 teeth.
more than 70kg.
can be either castrated or not.
doesnt matter izzit male or female.
LOL!
i can only thank god i never take that course.
LOL!
but he was very restless...
keep saying haven 3am yet...
by 4 plus we both seh liao...
den he ask miie to sleep so that he can use my lappie...
and i did...
slept all the way till 7 plus....
felt so bad....
cos he was very tired too...
den he never sleep at all...
haiz...
after i go sch he go home...
luckily he today no school can go home and rest...
tml got paper...
hope he can finish studying tonight...
den tml is my turn to chiong the play review.
bleah.
i dunno how am i gonna crap up 2000 words with a play like little shops of horror.
not that its that bad or wad lah....
but i find the play quite meaningless loh...
nvm...
i'll get thru it...
jia you jia you jia you!!!!
gambate!!!!
but den i felt bad deep inside...
i started the day by meeting a cockroach in the bathroom while showering.
G-R-E-A-T.
it jus reminds miie how terrified of cockroaches i am.
after that rush for the train and i got a seat at city hall.
how nice.
(:
its not often u get a seat before u reach tanjong pagar.
and as usual, i slept on the train.
wad nice deep sleep i was in.
(:
when i woke up, the train i was in jus left clementi.
W-O-N-D-E-R-F-U-L.
i had to take a train back from jurong east and cab down to school from there.
and that stoopid taxi driver is jus simply so rude.
i dowan to tok about that lousy uncle.
bleah.
den got translation test.
dunno wad to say about it.
dun say better.
den went down to the thian hock keng (tian fu gong).
it was there where my dear U.R.S sandals died on miie.
M-A-R-V-E-L-L-O-U-S.
had to go and buy another pair.
i was pissed off can.
i was in desperate needs to get a NEW pair of shoes.
den that yu fung (dunno he insenstive or wad)
keep insisting to go to BUGIS first (from CHINATOWN) den i go buy my shoes.
like WTF can?!?!?!?!?!?!
he expect someone who's dragging her feet
to travel all the way from CHINATOWN to BUGIS izzit?!?!?!!??!?!?!!?
i was so frustrated that i kick off my shoes and walked barefooted.
from thian hock keng to chinatown mrt station.
my black feet are enuf proof that i DID walked BAREFOOTED.
EWWW!!!!
den i went to buy my shoes.
FINALLY.
den we eat and after that they go home i go TP.
yes, again.
den i met zi yun lah.
so happy to see her.
think got abt a yr nvr see her le ba.
ever since i stop working at commoditee.
den i went to TP.
to meet angie n him.
that was when my feet starts to hurt.
went to their computer lab.
after that den go to the library.
they got test so they studied while i surf net.
somehow they both were extremely distracted by my lappie.
angie got settled down though.
but he couldnt sit still and keep wanting to see this see that.
den i start to get bored and played with my shoes...
my newly bought shoes...
plus angie n his slippers...
and angie n i went mad...
doing all kinds of stupid things....
for example, we were trying to take photo of ourselves from the reflection on the wall...
and we say all kinds of stoopid stuff VERY VERY softly...
so that he could not hear wad we say...
LOL...
stayed till TP library close and i went home...
very tired...
PS: stoopid blogger wun let miie post my pics...
bleah...
lousy....
be more harsh to yourself...
dun give urself any chance to slack...
u muz stay harsh...
only like this den can u get things done...
concentrate okies....
dun get distracted...
get harsh...
be harsh...
stay harsh....
stop thinking of him for a moment...
stop thinking about how can u make ur hair look better....
stop thinking about how can u earn money...
stop thinking about the sudden outbreak of pimples...
and stop BLOGGING!!!
=X
opps...
get harsh, be harsh and stay harsh to yourself...
remember...
get harsh, be harsh, stay harsh....
get harsh, be harsh, stay harsh....
get harsh, be harsh, stay harsh....
GET HARSH! BE HARSH! STAY HARSH!!
YES!!!
U CAN DO IT!!!
JIA YOU~~
(:
i've slept more than enough everyday...
but my body jus cant seem to get enuf rest...
jus very tired...
really cant wait for the last week of school to get over...
den i can reli sleep and try to make my body feel better...
but ming fong they all wanna go and enjoy...
i wanna go as well...
but den i no money...
=(
i muz hurry up find work....
go work den got money liao...
zzz...
so sian now...
think i better go do my work first....
bleah.....
RANDOMNESS: i miss him a lot...
reli very sian...
other than sian i dunno wad else can i say...
i have yet to complete the way overdue assignment...
i hope to finish it tonight...
i will...
quite a boring day actually...
cos sch starts at only 3pm...
and i was late...
-.-
den lee tong king gave back our papers...
got a B for my translation test...
i think its quite ok lah....
after that miie, bel n mei ting did something extremely embarassing...
cannot say out yet...
cos its for soc psy...
dun reli wan many pple to noe abt it...
but its fun lah....
bel was even addicted to it...
LOL...
den i sit bus all the way from clementi to downtown east...
butt pain sia...
transfer 2 buses...
went to find angie...
waited for her to end work den go home together...
at first wanna go eat supper but end up didnt...
had a great talk with her...
and ming fong too...
talk till my hp no batt...
oh...
i cut my hair today...
made it thinner...
going out in a moment's time...
to meet han yang...
gotta talk to someone before i explode...
den tml going out again...
to check out bel's digi cam pouch...
so sad that we lost it...
so we are gonna get her a new replacement...
since she bought it from A n BC...
and ye siew is working there...
i shall get ye siew to buy it for miie...
cos she got staff price...
muahaha...
i sound like i so tan xiao pian yi liddat...
lol...
typical singaporean style lah...
lol...
think i stop here first...
will not say too much...
hees....
oh...
jus to say:THANKS SABRINA!!!! i will cheer up one...
reli thanks a lot for ur concern...
thank you thank you...
muacks!
YOU ARE TERRIBLE.
YOU ARE A LOSER.
PLEASE WAKE UP CAN?!?!?!?!
STOP DREAMING!!!!!!!!
ARRGGHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LOSER SHUANG YING.
LOSER.
GUESS I'LL BE THE NEXT TO QUIT SCHOOL AFTER WANG YU.
=X
PLEASE WAKE UP AND STOP DREAMING!!!!
NEO SHUANG YING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
its nobody's fault...
i'm jus sick and tired of the way things are...
assignments, school and even friends.
YES.
FRIENDS.
some friends.
NOW.
reli very sick and tired of it already.
i need a change.
i need to break free.
honestly man, i am soo soo soo SICK AND TIRED.
real sick.
i dunno wad is there that i can do to change it.
i reli need to go for counselling session.
my mind is in a mess now.
totally SCREWED up.
SCREWED.
S-C-R-E-W-E-D.
made it in time to watch superstar...
lesson for school today only lasted an hour...
haiz...
a bit sian lah...
cos spent 1 and a half hour travelling there...
i cab down somemore...
and something funny happen...
the moment i reached the bus stop, i saw an empty cab waiting for miie...
as i walked towards the cab, i saw a gal hail THAT cab...
i was like : KAO!!! snatch my cab!!
but there were more cabs waiting so i let it go...
jus den, i realise that gal look familiar...
upon closer look, i realise it was YU CHIH!!!!
OMG~~
when i wanted to shout "YU...",
she open the cab door and the cab jus took off IMMEDIATELY!!!
wah lao eh...
if i were a bit faster den i would have be able to share cab with her...
and both of us can save a bit of money oso...
but its ok...
cos we both reached school at abt the same time...
after one hr of lesson i went off with miao n pris to do work...
supposed to be a discussion...
but it lasted less than 10 mins...
LOL...
sang a lot with them and crap a lot as well...
did all sort of stoopid things....
i guess the pple at atrium were cursing us...
hoping that we would leave soon...
and we reli did...
lol...
i planned to go home but while on the way i decided to stay out...
guess where did i went instead..
the answer: TEMASEK POLY!!!
tada~
lol...
met ming fong n si shan there...
ming fong booked the study room for miie...
so touched....
but the room is freaking small can!!!
see fer yerself!!!
a long table and 2 chairs and that's it.
ignore the crazy woman aka ng si shan in the photo...
can see at the side : STUDY ROOM: 04-02
the room is jus so freaking B-I-G.
=x
as compared to NP lah.
den i accompany auntie angie to eat...
cos she never eat anything for the whole day...
and she is already freaking SKINNY.
muz make her eat more and make her fatter....
muaahahaha~~~
=X
auntie angie broght miie to this cafe...
the atmosphere there is rather nice lah...
i like it...
the food they served seem quite nice too...
after watching angie eat i went back to the room and crap with shan n fong...
it a nice chat...
honestly i dun mind going back there again loh...
the library is not as bad as it seems lah...
stayed there for quite long actually...
met lots of pple...
studied with angie...
and waited for him to end class...
he came early though...
supposed to be 7pm but he called miie at around 540...
jus felt that things are a bit wrong now lah...
and i dunno how to set them back into the proper path...
zzzz........
guess i'm only trying to confuse myself...
i go watch superstar liaos...
suuppeeerrrsttaaarrrr~~~~
i've jus got home like 20 mins ago...
when i had alr reached my house downstairs at ard 1015...
=x
didnt went to school this morning...
cos i overslept...
and dad scolded miie bcos of that...
plus lots of other stuff...
but somehow,
i reli couldnt give it a DAMN.
poof.
like as if i care.
but i still went to school in the end...
cos of PSP...
xu huan liang coming so i had to go...
he my idol ok...
so die die muz go...
and he was reli great...
very humorous...
also we learnt a lot abt singing and music industry and stuff...
he was reli great...
wonderful...
there were oso performances by Music Forest students...
they include ISHI from SOUL of SUPERBAND...
and ZHENG KE WEI who quitted the SUPERSTAR competition...
she is reli very pretty...
and her singing is FABULOUS...
no wonder she is the he yin tian shi for my JJ...
not to forget david tao and lee hom...
its reli such a pity that she quitted the competition....
bleah...
lastly...
here's the pic of my idol SHUI SHANG PIAO!!!!
HE IS WONDERFUL.
(:
he doesnt even mind laughing at his own self u noe...
cos jus now when he left, he nearly trip over the step...
den i jus shout out : "lao shi xiao xin!!!"
guess wad his reply was...
he said: "dun worry... wo shi shui shang piao!!!"
like WAH LAO!!!!
damn hilarious lah!!!!
had a reli great time today at PSP...
peiwen n i are totally MAD.
we keep singing non stop...
we even say we wanna go join music forest when we have the money...
dun laugh hoh...
i've been thinking abt joining music forest the moment i ended O lvls...
a bit long liddat...
but all bcos no money lah...
or else i would have joined...
after PSP i headed home...
when i was abt to reach home han yang (my senior) smsed miie...
(FYI: i did like HY before... so... =p)
ask miie to meet him...
and i did...
talked quite a fair bit...
and den his gf called him lah...
i dun think i should reveal too much...
jus that there are problems between them...
and i jus felt bad for han yang lah...
but afterall i'm only a passer-by so i figured i shouldnt say too much...
jus hope that things will turn out fine...
yawn...
i so tired now...
think will go take a short break ba...
bhuai for now...
):
shuang ying is a bad daughter.
):
shuang ying is a bad gurl.
):
jus leave shuang ying to die.
):
trying very hard to do my chen ying assignment...
yea yea...
i noe i supposed to have completed it...
but its reli tough...
i reli got lots of difficulties with doing it...
i am totally lost...
i dunno how to get started with things...
i dunno wad izzit that chen ying wants...
i jus feel like breaking down...
if i cant finish it tonight i think i have to pon school again tml...
which i reli dowan...
i didnt pay 1000 plus de sch fees to pon sch...
besides, if i pon tml i will miss soc psy lesson...
i cant afford to let that happen...
i dowan to...
but i am reli stressed out...
dun think chen ying will give anymore allowances...
i reli wonder wad am i doing in this course sia...
maybe i chose the wrong subject to study...
i owaes tot chinese was my best...
and i've owaes done well in chinese...
but ever since i'm in this course i felt that my past thinkings were wrong...
there are definitely pple who are better than miie...
and i knew that...
but i didnt noe i would do so badly for a subject that i tot i was good at...
i didnt expect chinese to give miie so much problems...
i'm reli disappointed in myself....
felt as though i'm letting my parents down...
i've went thru so much...
they've went thru so much...
but yet i...
i dowan this to happen...
i reli dowan....
i jus cant seem to bring myself together...
the more i try the worst i felt...
i dun the feeling of being forced...
but yet i'm forcing myself...
i never thought that i would be so xin ku...
never...
reli felt like giving up...
but yet i noe i cant let my parents down...
wad the hell can i do now...
wad can i do....
maybe i will be better off if i'm not in this course...
finally got my lappie reformated...
so happy...
and i got to thank kelvin for helping miie...
spent most of the day at his house...
jus to reformat my lappie...
and i watch 3 movies today...
little man, scary movie 4 and john tucker muz die...
cos that kelvin downloaded them...
so i watch the movie while waited for him to reformat my lappie...
laughed like mad liddat...
scary movie 4 is REALLY DUMB...
got home at a pretty late time...
kelvin gf-gonna-be came...
had lots of fun talking to her too...
seeing how kelvin was with her reminds miie of myself...
i figured that he's kinda in between now...
like miie...
jus that he is in a situation so much more better than miie...
was thinking a lot on the way home...
reli didnt noe wad i wan...
guess i stressing myself out with things that are not important...
i should reli concentrate more on my work now shouldnt i??
but i jus cant get down to work...
i keep thinking abt him...
i keep thinking abt wad sihan told miie as well...
cant get those stuff outta my mind...
i'm reli suffocating...
i dowan to be lead a life like this...
its reli terrible...
i feel bad...
i cant help it but think i should jus let my hopes die down...
i owaes have these thoughts...
but somehow everytime i wanna let go of him...
i jus cant in the end....
i cant bring myself to let him go...
or rather should i say...
i dun bear to let him go...
i reli put too much attention on him...
practically everything i see or hear or experience will lead miie into thinking of him...
my obsession is getting a bit serious...
way to serious i think...
i guess i can only let nature takes its course....
this kind of life is killing miie.
