Saturday, July 08, 2006
somehow i think i reli sux at coming up with a new title everytime i wanna post an entry cos i cant seem to think of anything nice... but seriously, i dun care...
i jus got home at 1230am... and it has definitely been a long time since i last went home so late... i noe that my parents are worried but somehow, i think that they are overprotective of miie... things seem to be so much more worse ever since my dad discharged from the hospital...
for the benefits of those who dunno anything abt my dad, i shall briefly tok abt it. my dad has kidney failure, he went for a transplant but it failed, stayed in the hospital for 2 mths plus den finally, he came out..
today we went to gan ma hse and i knew that i will be home late... it is jus the normal thing larrs... den dad keep calling miie on my hp non stop.. i knew he's gonna scold miie that's y i refused to pick up the call.. he den procceed to call gan ma who called miie as well.. at this point of time, i was FED-UP.
com'on larrs, its not that i dun understand my father's pain and etc but i reli think this is going a bit overboard. jus bcoz he is feeling unwell and he expect miie to spend most of my time with him? its lik.. 5 or 6 plus he will start calling miie on hp alr.. i think this is a bit too much.. as a teen, i love going out.. how can i be cooped up in a hse with an old and a sick?? i can understand wad my dad is going thru but shouldnt he spare a tot for miie as well? izzit that i hav to spend all 24 hrs with him everyday and sacrifice my own personal time? pls lorrs... this i cant do it. i reli beginning to hate this kind of life. my dad seem to wan to make him the centre of my life which i reli CANT DO IT.
i am so stressed from everything!!! school work, frenz, family and guys. i noe i can still handle it but i reli dun feel lik doing so. wad is the reason to why i should hold on??? i reli see no point... that is why these few days my mood is very very very unstable... i apologized to bel, karmen, jess, joy n yao yao n meiting and to all those who were worried for miie.. i noe u guys were worried when one of my mood swings came... i think i can onli ask u guys to bear with miie as i believed more of my mood swings will be on its way... pls do not stop miie from having the mood swings as i think they are reli IMPORTANT to miie cos i reli needed them at times to calm myself down... i need my mood swings... i reli do...
i jus got home at 1230am... and it has definitely been a long time since i last went home so late... i noe that my parents are worried but somehow, i think that they are overprotective of miie... things seem to be so much more worse ever since my dad discharged from the hospital...
for the benefits of those who dunno anything abt my dad, i shall briefly tok abt it. my dad has kidney failure, he went for a transplant but it failed, stayed in the hospital for 2 mths plus den finally, he came out..
today we went to gan ma hse and i knew that i will be home late... it is jus the normal thing larrs... den dad keep calling miie on my hp non stop.. i knew he's gonna scold miie that's y i refused to pick up the call.. he den procceed to call gan ma who called miie as well.. at this point of time, i was FED-UP.
com'on larrs, its not that i dun understand my father's pain and etc but i reli think this is going a bit overboard. jus bcoz he is feeling unwell and he expect miie to spend most of my time with him? its lik.. 5 or 6 plus he will start calling miie on hp alr.. i think this is a bit too much.. as a teen, i love going out.. how can i be cooped up in a hse with an old and a sick?? i can understand wad my dad is going thru but shouldnt he spare a tot for miie as well? izzit that i hav to spend all 24 hrs with him everyday and sacrifice my own personal time? pls lorrs... this i cant do it. i reli beginning to hate this kind of life. my dad seem to wan to make him the centre of my life which i reli CANT DO IT.
i am so stressed from everything!!! school work, frenz, family and guys. i noe i can still handle it but i reli dun feel lik doing so. wad is the reason to why i should hold on??? i reli see no point... that is why these few days my mood is very very very unstable... i apologized to bel, karmen, jess, joy n yao yao n meiting and to all those who were worried for miie.. i noe u guys were worried when one of my mood swings came... i think i can onli ask u guys to bear with miie as i believed more of my mood swings will be on its way... pls do not stop miie from having the mood swings as i think they are reli IMPORTANT to miie cos i reli needed them at times to calm myself down... i need my mood swings... i reli do...
what we could have been, 12:46 AM.
