W.A.H.A.A.H.A.A.A

Constant reminder to self.

2015-02-12T11:15:00.001+08:00

I love this quote so much that I have to have it at the top of my blog.

Also, it serves as a constant reminder to myself when I feel down, and to anyone else who needs the reassurance in life.

"Girls are like apples on trees. The best ones are at the top of the tree. The boys don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they just get the rotten ones from the ground which aren't that good, but easy. So the apples at the top think that something is wrong with them, when in reality, they are amazing. They just have to wait for the right boy to come along, the one who is brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree."

Someone please tell me that I'm one of the apples at the top of the tree.

at wordpress

2011-05-02T04:00:00.003+08:00

Have been changing my wordpress blog url for like forever and i just cant make up my mind with what to use!

But finally i've decided to use......... guess it if you can hahaa... (:

For people who truly care can always drop me a text/leave a msg in my chatbox (cos i do check still) and i'll PM you the new URL.

Loads of lovessssssss. =D

Bye blogger

2011-02-21T21:51:00.003+08:00

I am back to wordpress.

If you find me, you find me.
If you don't find me, you don't find me.

Just your luck.

And nope, don't bother asking.

For I won't breathe a word about it. (:

Gone

2011-01-06T18:35:00.001+08:00

Moved, again.

But don't bother asking me to where.

If you find me, you find me.

If not, too bad.

Will occasionally pop back to say hi only.

Bye.

1st day of 2011

2011-01-01T14:59:00.003+08:00

So drop those excuses, and stop blaming others.

It's not gonna work.

And oh, thanks for spoiling the first day of 2011 for me.

Hmmm

2010-12-29T16:46:00.003+08:00

What each kiss means:-

Kiss on the forehead: We're cute together.

Kiss on the cheek: We're friends.

Kiss on the hand: I adore you.

Kiss on the neck: I want you, now.

Kiss on the shoulder: You're perfect.

Kiss on the lips: I love you.

What each gesture means:-

Holding hands: We definitely like each other.

Holding you tight pressed against each other: I want you.

Looking into each other's eyes: I like you, for who you are.

Playing with hair: Let's fool around.

Arm around waist: I like you too much to let go.

Laughing while kissing: I'm completely comfortable with you.

Advice:-

If you were thinking of someone while reading this, you're definitely in love.

Hmmm. And nope, I'm not in love.

Today

2010-11-22T01:13:00.003+08:00

I just realised that I haven't been posting anything decent recently...
Not like as if anyone else still reads my blog.
Just thought that maybe sometimes,
I should update my blog about my life,
Like how I used to do it.

Life in MDC has been making me too busy for any proper post.

Anyways, I'm a happy girl today.
Damn tired and my legs are getting sour already as I typed this,
But I know I'm happy.

Because today, I went kite flying.
Headed down to Sengkang but only to find that it was flooded,
Which I totally had no idea how could it be...

But since while I was at home I've been hearing thunder rolling,
The rain probably drenched Sengkang area instead of Pasir Ris.
Was perfectly dry at my place though.

Wet muddy fields means that we were unable to fly the kites there,
So we headed to this park nearby but still,
Epic fail much.
HAHAAA!!

It was just simply too hilarious trying to get the kite up in the sky...
Plus, there was no wind at all!

So we decided to change to another location instead;
The ever popular kite flying hotspot - Marina Barrage.
There were hell loads of kites in the sky!
And it was beautiful!

I forgot what time we got there,
But it took us like super damn long to get the damn kite up in the sky.

Lousy skills + no luck + no advisor + no wind.
How to fly kite like that?! All these tiny tiny things, are actually kites.
This photo doesn't do any justice to all the colourful kites flying in the sky.

After like really hours of trying,
When the sun is setting already,
We finally got one of the kites up!!Many many tails is sooooo nice flying in the sky...

Ahdi was quite indignant about not getting his kite up in the sky...
And he was certainly quite insistence on doing it...

After much help,
His kite finally flew up!

Too bad the sky was already turning dark at that time,
So I was unable to snap the picture.
But still, it was a really cute kite!
It would definitely looked great in the sky,
If we caught had it up when the sun was still shining LOL.

Both the kites were black thus when night falls,
None of us could see the kites in the sky anymore!

It was just too dark!

After much delay and reluctance we finally took the kites down...
It was getting wayyyy too late already...

And the reels that we used seriously sucks big time!
It just screws up as and when it like man!

So at the end of the day we have........................2 poodles of mee siam for the boys to sort it out HAHAA!!!

It was certainly very tiring,
But at the same time it was damn fun also.

My only conclusion for the day is: I'm a happy girl. (:

I know I know I've said it already!!
I'm still a happy girl today! =P

Yada yada

2010-11-05T15:49:00.003+08:00

Yes yes yes.
It's always about me, always about me never about you.

I'm the one who is 心胸狭窄。
I'm the one who is self centered.
I'm the one who has no gratitude.
I'm the one who always chide you.
I'm the one who always upset you.
I'm the one who always fly aeroplane.
I'm the one who places myself before others.
I'm the one who doesn't share things with you.
I'm the one who always say hurtful things to you.
I'm the one who has got the busiest work schedule ever.
I'm the one who doesn't appreciate what others have done.
I'm the one who has have to have others to accommodate to me.
I'm the one who thinks that you should be responsible for everything.

I'm the one who is damn fucked up.

And you're the one who is always tolerant.
And you're the one who always do all the dirty shit.
And you're the one to take up all the responsibilities.
And you're the one who is the one who always sacrifices.

You're the one who's just oh-so-great.

All things shall be just about you you you.

And I don't see myself being very welcome anymore.
And so bye bye.

Boys

2010-10-18T13:41:00.002+08:00

What has she done, for you to hurt her like this?

What has she done, for you to use her like this?

If you thought this would the easy way out, you thought wrong.
If you thought this would be the best for all, you thought wrong.

Think again.

Whoever said that boys are easier to understand than girls ought to be shot.

Imma hate you

2010-10-04T15:58:00.003+08:00

Ohhh and so I see.

Now that all the dates and everything falls in place nicely,

I can't help it but to tell you I HATE YOU.

Fucking hate you for doing this to my loved one.

And nothing will stop this hatred for now.

No one, nobody can make this stop.

I curse you.

I read this....

2010-09-23T00:33:00.008+08:00

"Girls are like apples on trees. The best ones are at the top of the tree. The boys don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they just get the rotten ones from the ground which aren't that good, but easy. So the apples at the top think that something is wrong with them, when in reality, they are amazing. They just have to wait for the right boy to come along, the one who is brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree."

Someone please tell me that I'm one of the apples at the top of the tree.

You

2010-09-20T00:38:00.002+08:00

You are what that makes my heart whole again.

But sadly, I just can't find you.

我們當自強

2010-09-19T14:30:00.003+08:00

You know its for you, you know it.

拜託　眼淚又不是鑽石珍珠
一直在哭　難道你能一夜之間暴富
是誰　告訴你有王子這動物
還不如你　自己騎上白馬比較靠譜

失戀　失去所有美麗的錯誤
快開香檳　為你能夠死裡逃生慶祝
沒錯　他就是不合身的衣服
趕快脫掉　換身行頭再去愛裡跳舞

我知道一定有一點辛苦
但我們的心都要堅固
告別了錯的人不算輸
使我們更加靠近幸福

愛情捲起萬重浪　（越無情越有心越讓人全力以赴）
我們女孩當自強　（可以小鳥依人也能自我保護）
大不了受一點傷　（昨天的傷口會變成明天的禮物）
會讓我們更漂亮　（Top Girl 都要做自己的救世主）

（Top Girl都要做自己的救世主）

看吧　天還是會亮會帶日出
粉身碎骨　止痛之後就能脫胎換骨
浪費　時間飼養青蛙當寵物
省下力氣　足夠拯救全宇宙的動物

失戀　失去一個懦弱的叛徒
快放煙火　為下一次遇見英雄歡呼
沒錯　打開成箱更美的禮物
帶上微笑　從從容容再去愛裡跳舞

你知道一定有一點辛苦
但我們的心都很堅固
結束了錯的夢不算輸
使我們值得更加幸福

愛情捲起萬重浪　（越無情越有心越讓人全力以赴）
我們女孩當自強　（可以小鳥依人也能自我保護）
大不了受一點傷　（昨天的傷口會變成明天的禮物）
會讓我們更漂亮　（Top Girl 都要做自己的救世主）

誰怕愛情萬重浪　（越無情越有心越讓人義無反顧）
我們女孩當自強　（是最勇敢堅強也最溫柔賢淑）
不用誰施舍陽光　（好的壞的都是收獲不是包袱）
我們自己是太陽　（Top Girl 就要做自己的救世主）

T-O-P WANNA TOPGIRL?
EVERYBODY SAY
T-O-P WANNA TOPGIRL!

誰怕愛情萬重浪　（越無情越有心越讓人義無反顧）
我們女孩當自強　（是最勇敢堅強也最溫柔賢淑）
不用誰施舍陽光　（好的壞的都是收獲不是包袱）
我們自己是太陽　（Top Girl 就要做自己的救世主）

All we need is more time to be strong.
And you know we'll be, my loved one.

so pink

2010-09-16T15:29:00.002+08:00

I own a pink handphone.

I have a pink cover for my iphone.

I uses a pink mouse.

I own a pair of pink havaianas.

I have a pink harddisk.

I uses a pink wallet.

I own a pink Agnes B. lanyard.

I have pink earsticks in my earhole.

I uses a pink file for work.

I own a pink and brown crumpler bag.

I have pink earphones for my ipod.

I uses a pink pouch to safekeep my ipod.

I own a pink card reader.

I have a pink casing for my netbook.

This post is so random and I'm so pink.

你沒發現

2010-09-12T23:59:00.002+08:00

一年前的我是多麼的開心

一年後的我是多麼的努力

強迫自己別想你

強迫自己別哭泣

強迫自己忘了你

強迫到不知所措

霎那間的釋懷

一瞬間的懷念

刻意也好下意識也罷

一切只在意料之外

果然是海鳥和魚相愛

When I first know you, it wasn't meant to fall so hard.

Really, it wasn't.

Ouch

2010-09-12T00:36:00.003+08:00

How cold you can appear to be.
How ignorant you can appear to be.
How uncaring you can appear to be.
How nonchalant you can appear to be.

And that's how it hurts me.

Yea I know, I'm the one who is harping on and on.

孤獨

2010-09-07T13:43:00.002+08:00

回頭一望，

才發現。

原來，

我一直是自己一個人。

And i thought i promised myself to cry over you no more.

為何

2010-08-22T00:32:00.002+08:00

為何曾經緊緊相握的手，能說放就放？
為何曾經深深相愛的心，能說變就變？
為何曾經承諾過的誓言，能說忘就忘？
為何曾經擁有過的體溫，能說沒就沒？
為何曾經在我生命中的你，能說走就走？
為何現在的我，依然不能如同你一般瀟灑？

時間；我還需要更多時間。

請原諒我的自私我的無能我的執著。

Fuck you big time singtel.

2010-08-17T15:08:00.002+08:00

I am in a very bad mood now and not to mention overly exhausted.
So this is a venting blogpost.
I dont need anyone to lecture me on anything.
So get lost if you are not interested or gonna lecture me.

Here goes.

Hell yea i lost my phone again.
And this is the second time it's happening to me within like 2 months time.
Seriously, this year, is not a good year for me.

But in any case, it wasnt a good idea to terminate my line yet,
So i had to went down to replace my SIM card again.
And yupp I went down to the Tampines Mall outlet on Friday.
Got my SIM card and every and voila I left the place.

Everything should be good right?
But NO.

If only things were that simple, really, IF ONLY.

2 days later, (I know I damn lag but whatever)
I found out that I lost my freaking IC.
The last time it happened was when I was 15 and I got it back again.

I went through all the things in my mind and find out the possible places where I could have misplaced it.

***FLASHBACK***

I went to the Singtel shop, gave them my IC to verify my identity, the person told me to hold on and went in to get me my replacement SIM card. After she came out from the room she proceeded to ask me if I want to upgrade my line (when it wasnt even 21 months yet stupid her) and I ask her to check for me my eligibility. After all the talking I asked for the BlackBerry (Don't ask why is it BB) flexi plan brochure and she passed it to me together with my new SIM card.

***FLASHBACK FINISHED***

And that's how I lost my IC.

Thus on Sunday night,
I decided to give Singtel a call.
The person on duty said he checked and that my IC was at the shop.
He then told me that I can walk into the shop anytime and collect back my IC,
said that they would keep it there till I go get it.

But I'm a very busy and lazy person as usual, as always,
I told my parents to collect it for me instead.

And my parents called me yesterday saying that the staff in the shop claimed that there was no report of any lost ICs there.

LIKE SERIOUSLY FML BIG TIME.

I was forced to call the dreaded 1688 hotline again and this was what that totally pissed me off to the max that I fucking feel like stomping down to the headquarters office and tear down the building and pull the muthafucker out and whack the shit out of him.

*ON HOLD FOR LIKE 5-7 MINS*

Muthafucker: Hi this is blablabla *and all their stupid long introduction that nobody can understand* How can I help you?

Me: HI I lost my IC and I previously called the hotline to check if it was left behind at the singtel shop at tampines mall and the person said it was but when my parents went to collect it for me they claimed that it wasnt there so i need u to check for me is my IC left behind at the singtel shop.
(was trying to shorten the stupid long story but after that i realised that i probably didnt phrase my words correctly. My brain is like totally malfunctioning now.)

Muthafucker: Mam you should call the police and make a report. (FUCK YOU BIG TIME YOU ASSHOLE)

Me: No I'm very certain that I left it behind in the Singtel shop and previously when I called your officer told me that it was left behind there which is why I didnt make a police report. But when my parents went down to collect it they say its not there! I need you to check for me if my IC is left behind at the singtel shop at TAMPINES MALL!

Muthafucker: Ok can I put you on hold while I go check?

Me: Ok.

*10 seconds later*

THE MUTHAFUCKER KUP MY CALL.

FUCK YOU ASSHOLE FUCK YOU TO THE MAX.

YOU BETTER DONT LET ME FIND OUT WHO THE HELL YOU ARE.

And now they are saying that there's no reply from the counter so they cannot get back to me and is putting me on hold again and said they would call back after they receive a reply.

I AM GONNA CALL AND FUCK THE CUSTOMER CARE OFFICER UPSIDE DOWN IF THEY FUCKING DON'T GET BACK TO ME BY 1630.

FINAL WARNING AND I DO WHAT I SAY.

GO TO HELL YOU STUPID ASSHOLES.

Sometimes

2010-08-09T20:25:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, some things are not meant to say out.
Sometimes, the realization came too late.
Sometimes, the consoles are not appreciated.
Sometimes, nobody hears the cries in my heart.
Sometimes, problems are left unsolved despite having the solution.
Sometimes, don't act too smart for your own good.
Sometimes, a break is all that one need.

Sometimes, I try too hard.
Sometimes, I tend to feel a little bit tired.
Sometimes, I just can't be bothered anymore.
Sometimes, I think I'm better off alone.

Sometimes, just some time.

Impossible

2010-07-22T15:56:00.004+08:00

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did, I did
And you were strong and I was not
My illusion, my mistake
I was careless, I forgot
I did
And now when all is done
There is nothing to say
You have gone and so effortlessly
You have won
You can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof top
Write it on the sky love
All we had is gone now
Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

Falling out of love is hard
Falling for betrayal is worst
Broken trust and broken hearts
I know, I know
Thinking all you need is there
Building faith on love is worst
Empty promises will wear
I know (i know)
And know when all is gone
There is nothing to say
And if you're done with embarrassing me
On your own you can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof top
Write it on the sky love
All we had is gone now
Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

Ooh impossible (yeah yeah)

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof top
Write it on the sky love
All we had is gone now
Tell them I was happy (i was happy)
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did

30 days

2010-07-18T18:47:00.002+08:00

Saw these stuff on my friend and cousin's blog...
I believe it's not something new,
But it definitely sets me thinking.

The first one that caught my eye was this:

Day 01 – A picture of yourself
Day 02 – A picture of what you wore today
Day 03 – A picture of what you did today
Day 04 – A picture of where you went today
Day 05 – A picture of your morning
Day 06 – A picture that inspires you
Day 07 – A picture that makes you cry
Day 08 – A picture of yourself
Day 09 – A picture of what you had for lunch
Day 10 – A picture of what you like to do
Day 11 – A picture of your favorite drink
Day 12 – A picture of your favorite food
Day 13 – A picture of your friends
Day 14 – A picture of your favorite teacher(s)
Day 15 – A picture of yourself
Day 16 – A picture of your dream cell phone
Day 17 – A picture of your mp3 player
Day 18 – A picture of your room
Day 19 – A picture of your favorite musical instrument(s)
Day 20 – A picture of where you want to honeymoon
Day 21 – A picture that makes you think of your loved one
Day 22 – A picture of yourself
Day 23 – A picture that describes your life
Day 24 – A picture of what you did today
Day 25 – A picture that you edited
Day 26 – A picture that makes you angry
Day 27 – A picture of you more than 10 years ago
Day 28 – A picture of what you wore today
Day 29 – A picture of yourself
Day 30 – A picture of you and your best friend

Followed by 30 letters:

Day 1 — Your best friend
Day 2 — Your crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind; good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want to tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

The photo one is probably easier than the letter one lah!
I'm never much of a letter person...

I swear I'll start doing these one day when I'm free.
If I'm ever free.

And 2 sets 30 days?
That's a freaking 2 months HAHAA.

One day, I'll do it.

hi again

2010-06-19T13:14:00.003+08:00

I know i know!

I haven't been showing up here for the longest time ever...
And even if i did, its probably short and random and irrelevant posts.
HAHAA.

At least that is a sign that shows that I'm still alive and kicking.
Not dead yet, but probably am dying soon.

Yes life is busy, with work work work and work.
Work sucks life out of me.
And it has been a rollercoaster ride for me in this new project.

New roles, new expectations, new challenges.
Cant say that everything is going on well,
But its not exactly that bad either cos there are good moments too...

Had my 21st birthday celebration and you know what!

I TOTALLY FEEL LIKE KILLING MYSELF.
(*^&@#$!)(&)*%%!

I freaking accidentally deleted my 21st photos, when i haven even upload them yet lah!!
Blame on my stupidity man....
21 years old liao still liddat...
Ok fine not like growing a year older will make anyone smarter.

Just felt that the period before i turn 21 was a really bad period.
Everything at work wasnt going well for me,
I lost my phone,
My buffet for my party nearly screwed up blablabla.

But its all over now!
And all i wished for is for this show to wrap up fast.

I'm so tired of it already man.

And right now I suddenly have this thought in my mind...

Why am i even blogging?!
I think nobody even bothers to come here and read anymore man!

OK FINE BYE CIAO.

Back

2010-06-10T01:11:00.002+08:00

Hi everyone and I'm 21.

Things you can get me for my 21st.

2010-05-29T18:05:00.000+08:00

Post edited.

No more wishlist from now on.
I will be contented with whatever things you guys gave.

Because its from you,
its the thoughts that matter, and the presence.

(((((((((:

All I ever wanted....

2010-05-18T15:27:00.004+08:00

Tear up the photographs, but yesterday won't let go
Every day, every day, every minute
Here comes the emptiness, just can't leave lonely alone
Every day, every day, hey, hey

This second chancin's really getting me down
You give and takin' everything I dreamed about
It's time you let me know, let me know, just let go

All I ever wanted, all I ever wanted
Was a simple way to get over you
All I ever wanted, all I ever wanted
Was an in between to escape this desperate scene
Where every lie reveals the truth
Baby 'cause I all ever wanted, all I ever wanted was you

I'd rather walk alone, don't wanna chase you around
Every day, every day, every minute
I fall a thousand times for I let you drag me down
Every day, every day, hey, hey

Your new beginning was a perfect ending
But I keep feeling we've already been here before
It's time you let me know, let me know, just let go

All I ever wanted, all I ever wanted
Was a simple way to get over you
All I ever wanted, all I ever wanted
Was an in between to escape this desperate scene
Where every lie reveals the truth
Baby 'cause I all ever wanted, all I ever wanted was

Tell me with so many out there why I always turn to you?
Your goodbyes tear me down every time
And it's so easy to see that the blame is on me

All I ever wanted, all I ever wanted
Was a simple way to get over you
All I ever wanted, all I ever wanted
Was an in between to escape this desperate scene

All I ever wanted, all I ever wanted
Was a simple way to get over you
All I ever wanted, all I ever wanted
Was an in between to escape this desperate scene
Where every lie reveals the truth
Baby 'cause I all ever wanted, all I ever wanted was you

My exact sentiments now

2010-05-15T22:25:00.006+08:00

Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)
Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)

Yeah
I could use a dream or a genie or a wish
To go back to a place much simpler than this
Cause after all the partyin’ and smashin’ and crashin’
And all the glitz and the glam and the fashion
And all the pandemonium and all the madness
There comes a time where you fade to the blackness
And when you’re staring at that phone in your lap
And you hoping but them people never call you back
But that’s just how the story unfolds
You get another hand soon after you fold
And when your plans unravel
And they sayin’ what would you wish for
If you had one chance
So airplane airplane sorry I’m late
I’m on my way so don’t close that gate
If I don’t make that then I’ll switch my flight
And I’ll be right back at it by the end of the night

Somebody take me back to the days
Before this was a job, before I got paid
Before it ever mattered what I had in my bank
Yeah back when I was tryin’ to get a tip at subway
And back when I was rappin’ for the hell of it
But now a days we rappin’ to stay relevant
I’m guessin that if we can make some wishes outta airplanes
Then maybe yo maybe I’ll go back to the days
Before the politics that we call the rap game
And back when ain’t nobody listened to my mix tape
And back before I tried to cover up my slang
But this is for Decatur, what’s up Bobby Ray
So can I get a wish to end the politics
And get back to the music that started this shit
So here I stand and then again I say
I’m hopin’ we can make some wishes outta airplanes

So damn lost

2010-05-06T21:10:00.003+08:00

I wish I could get my ass down to work.
There are like so many things which I need to get it done.
But I just can't concentrate on my work.
)):

There are just simply too many things running through my mind,
As usual. What else is new man.
And my sleepiness just tops it up even better.

I stare at the rundowns and I just want to burn them.

How I wish I could remain as a PA.
Being AP is just too stressful,
And I was never one who could really handle stress.

I might have done a good job as PA,
But that doesn't mean that I can do the job of an AP.
Everything just happened too fast.

Climbed up too fast,
One day I'll be shot down equally fast as well.

And everyone would probably agrees that I'm just wasting my youth away.

Life like this sucks.
I wanna quit, I wanna leave.
But I feel indignant about leaving now.
I have yet to achieve anything,
I have yet to do my own show by myself.
But I wonder how much more nonsense can I take.

This is bullshit, this is crap.
This is probably be one of the worst memories I ever have in life.

3 months.
Let's get over and done with it.

My life in MediaCorpse Part 1.
10 May: Location Survey with the whole production team.
11 May: Imaging.
12 May: Location survey for my team.
13 May: Opening Ceremony + Imaging
14 May: First Day of filming.
15 May: Outdoor filming Day 2.
16 May: Outdoor filming Day 3.
17 May: Outdoor filming Day 4.

One of week of work.
Just great.
Somebody, just kill me.

wahhaakeeheewooo!

2010-04-29T23:57:00.001+08:00

Work is driving me bonkers.
Period.

And guess what?
I haven plan my birthday party.
Its exactly a month away.
Great.

My life sucks big time.

HAHA

2010-04-17T15:46:00.000+08:00

老娘很忙。

Bye.

FALALAA

2010-03-29T02:33:00.004+08:00

I probably should have been asleep by now,
Considering the fact that I might need to get to office tomorrow.

Yes, nobody in the office is slacking like I do.
3 weeks without any OB (Outdoor filming),
Guess I'm the only one who can achieve that.

But hey, ain't my fault that I'm not given any job.
So fellow colleagues should really stop putting the blame on me.
I didn't ask for it either.

But I'm back to going for OB again,
Not for my own show though.
Gotta bring some newcomers out for understudy and guide them along.

Don't like this kind of thing but it beats rotting at home.
And screwing up my body clock for the past 3 weeks ain't a smart move.
Now I've gotta try to fix it back to the working time....

Came back from a cousin's wedding just now and to be honest,
It wasn't enjoyable.

If it was, I wouldn't have been on facebook/twitter/ebuddy throughout the dinner.
Reason being: I think they weren't sincere enough to hold this dinner.

They already held the dinner last night,
for their friends and church buddies.
Nothing against it, friends are usually more high and fun,
Cos you'd probably spend more time with them than those relatives.

Know that newly weds are probably drained out from all the preparations and stuff,
But the least is to show more sincerity?
The dinner felt like as if it was being held for the sake of holding it.
Just like trying to have a 交代 like that.

Not appreciated.

But wells, some people are just like that I guess.

Ain't really in the mood for anything much,
No idea what exactly happen but yea.

Was pretty excited and hyped initially,
But my mood just dropped a mile all of a sudden...
Like how the world economy did after the Lehman Brothers Incident.

Perhaps I should just concentrate hard on what's coming up soon...
Girls Nite Out on wednesday!

It's going to be fun,
It's going to be great,
It's going to be bitchy,
It's going to be gossipy,
Cos it's going to be us girls only.

Wednesday please please please come quickly~~ ♥10 days yesterday.
20 days today.
I just need something to keep my mind off you.

bo liao-ing

2010-03-17T15:01:00.001+08:00

I think I have done this before like dunno how many years ago...
Not sure if the results is still the same,
I thought it's different.

And I tried searching for the blogpost...
But I can't find it...
Probably cos I've never ever done it or something...

Oh wells.....

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

拉鋸

2010-03-11T16:28:00.003+08:00

這並非一時的衝動。
過去的幾天裡，同樣的事一直在我腦海裡打轉。

有多久，沒有感受到這樣的執著了？
有多久，沒有感受到這樣的堅持了？
有多久，沒有感受到這樣的瀟灑了？

那一份已失去的瀟灑，再度回來的感覺實在太好。
即使如此，但我的腦仍然無法和我的心達到一個共識。

這樣的感覺很妙，有一把聲音不斷地慫恿我的腦。
但在這的同時，另一把聲音不斷地勒住我的心。

不曾想過我會這樣說，但我已厭倦了等待。
無限期的等待。

也許是因為等了太久了，這時選擇放棄，心裡會覺得可惜。
一萬個也許浮現，也呈現了一萬個希望，讓我不願意捨棄。

拉鋸。
我真的不知所措。
前景模糊不清
不過都沒關係
因為對方是你
所以才不介意

沒答案的等待
讓我一直徘徊
內心裡的無奈
逐漸成為傷害

時間越來越久
再也不想逗留
想把回憶都丟
卻又覺得荒謬

剪不斷理還亂
心裡只會愈煩
別說與你無關
唯你能個了斷

freakyyy

2010-03-09T10:24:00.001+08:00

Don't ever give up on love. It can happen to anyone

in almost any situation. You may have looked at

yourself as unlucky in love, but luck can change in a

split second. All that you have to do is keep believing

love is possible and it will find you.

-- Extract from Horoscope.com

Just when I woke up this morning,
I had a very strange feeling inside me.

For so many months in my life,
I have never felt this way before.

For a moment I thought this was it,
I'm about to get over everything.

But somehow I decided to check the horoscope for today,
In return, I was greeted with this.

Sometimes, things are just freaking accurate.
You just have to believe in them.

Ouch.
And now, what am I supposed to do?

Random again

2010-03-07T22:12:00.001+08:00

I don't dare to blog cos I think there's people stalking my blog.

HAHAAA.

Ok bye.
-run off-
(Actually I'm just lazy)

Show's wrapping up!

2010-02-27T18:53:00.004+08:00

Since hours ago, I've been trying to update my blog.
I was supposed to be at my aunt's house for the very last CNY celebration,
But am still feeling quite unwell.

Not sure whether is it due to the bus ride yesterday,
Which goes up and down a 6-storey carpark in circles.
The going up part was ok,
What kills me was the coming down.

No idea how did this happen cos usually,
I'm not a person who will get giddy spells from car/bus/boat/ship rides.
And yesterday's ride was bad enough to make me lose my appetite for dinner.
Today, I'm still suffering from giddy spells and headache.
Or maybe I read too much into that,
For all I know it could probably be the time of the month again.

And well had a 9 days off for CNY period....
Looks long enough but somehow I think I didn't really get much rest.
Was still running all around pretty much to get things done.

And the busiest day I had of all was last saturday...
Ran across the East side and attended 3 parties in total.
Or at least show face lah haa...

Felt really bad about going back to work...
I actually dreaded the idea of it...
Not a very good sign cos it may means my passion is fading off,
And I can't afford to let that happen to me right now.

I mean, come on!
It has only been a few months!
I need to go on longer than that...

I don't want to be like some irresponsible bitch who leaves her job in the middle of an ongoing production and what's worse is she didn't do her dutiful parts as how she promised and others have to clean up the shit that she left behind.

If you can't achieve what you promise,
Then please do not make the promise in the first place.

Or the very least you could do is to admit your mistake,
And not throw a sissy fit and goes into a rage scolding others for ranting on you.
When apparently, it's YOU who's in the wrong.

Mad as I may be,
I'm pretty glad that this person no longer exist in my life.
And we probably will never ever cross path again.
I wish we don't.
I know we won't.

From the 'graceful' departure of hers,
She's probably gonna have difficulties getting back into the industry again.
Not like she would want to anyway.

Took over part of the shit a few days I started work.
I guess I'm not seeing someone's name in the roller credits.
I don't think she deserve it either since she wasn't of much help anyway.

And now 2 PAs gotta support the whole show.
Things aren't that bad, cos we've got wonderful APs.

Heard that there were reports on this particular filming scene of ours.
Whenever Jeanette needs to step into the coffin,
It would start pouring, causing the team to be unable to finish up that day.

What nonsense people...
Those are just crap written by the newspapers.
It's all just a coincidence.

Everyone has their own stand to certain stuff,
but after being in MDC myself,
I realise many of the things written by the papers are nonsense.
(No offence Loy Hui. xD )

True enough, there may be some unspoken rules.
But most stuff that appear in the papers,
Has been magnified to like 917485134 times more than the truth.

But wells,
That's just a reporter's point of view.
Afterall, I was a reporter myself.

But anyway,
who cares about Jeannette being cursed or not?
We finished that scene that day anyway~
YEAAAA!
What that was reported that caused the curse...Now you see it's still bright and sunny!!!

After a tiring day out in the ulu ulu woods,
The rest of the day seem to be better when we headed to a restaurant.

Da-paoed our lunch which apparently seem to be a mistake of the day,
cos we've got loads of good food waiting for us!!!We should have just ate there man!!
Every single dish that was serve was absolutely delicious to the max!

But the location is a little inaccessible though...
If I have to the chance (and money),
I'll definitely go back there to eat again!
Everyone pinching the food when we were done with the scene...The cameraman who gian-ed the food the most.

When got people NG/take some time to prepare before shooting,
He'll say: Ready anot? The food cold liao leii.

And everyone just burst out laughing.

After a few days I did the first kind of a scene ever!!!
Jumping off a building!!

But mine was a rather simple one cos all we did was see the person jump,
And den there's the body on the floor.
No complicating ones like seeing the process of dropping,
Which would require the usage of wires.

Kinda sad that I didn't managed to go and help out and witness the complicated jump off building scene at other rounds.
See!
Simple as that!

Unfortunately we scared some residents downstairs,
Who popped his/her head out and see a man attempting to jump off.

Now I'm looking forward to next tuesday,
Even though it will be a very taxing day for me,
But that day would also means the wrap up for this show!!

Have been working long enough on it,
It is time to wrap it up and start on a new one!
My short attention span won't be able to keep still in the show for any longer.

So I guess I'm not suitable for taking up productions like 《想握你的手》,
Whose filming has been going on for the past year,
And is probably gonna go on for the next 3 months or so.

I hope this show will be good,
And I know it will be good.
Good enough at least.

And now, I need to sleep real badly.
Headache's killing me.

chances

2010-02-07T14:57:00.003+08:00

Many many years ago,
While I was still in Secondary School,
Someone once told me this.
Ok lah, that someone is Baofa.

And up till today I still remember this very clearly.

"Give others a chance, and give yourself a chance."

Over the years,
I've not been able to do that myself.
I know its not easy,
But now I know how unfair and selfish it feels like.

All I need now is a chance.
Would you give me the chance?

As promised

2010-02-06T15:35:00.010+08:00

Yes it's finally my off day!
Has been rushing up and down for work,
But I guess that's just life before CNY.

We're planning to clear up most of the stuff before CNY,
So that after CNY,
Things can be more relax.

I'll just have to survive through these few days,
Everything will be better after that.

My round is supposedly to stop work from 9 Feb to 20 Feb,
And I seriously wish and pray that they don't call me.
I want to enjoy 11 days of off days pleaseeeeee!

And even before I end production for my first show,
I've already receive news on my second show.
Looks like I won't be given much time to rest.
But it's good also lah, at least there's things to occupy me with.

Photos photos!!!
And presenting to everyone the first photo of this entry is....
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Wahahahaaaaa!

No we're not filming any loansharks chasing for debts scenes...
We were filming a wedding scene,
So we have a real edible roasted pig from 933!
(Not the radio station Y.E.S. 93.3 arh)

And from the picture above,
The head is apparently chopped down.
That could only mean.......We're chopping the rest of the roasted pig to eat it.
=X

I got a much cuter photo in fact,
But I don't think its appropriate to post up here.
But take a look for yourself and see who's chopping up the pig.
=P

And this roasted pig is sooooo freaking oily,
That it made me lost appetite for dinner.
And I didn't eat a lot or what loh...

The end result?
A damn hungry Shuang Ying at work towards the end of the night. Help green tea do advertisment.
I didn't even notice the angle of the green tea...
Was just focusing on the cute teddy bears...

The very next night after filming the wedding scene,
We continued filming the wedding scenes.
This time, with live chickens.
And the chickens are supposed to be running around crazily.

You can totally imagine how crazy the whole production team went.I know I know, the chickens looks fake.
But it's real one ok!
Quite chio one hoh my chickens...Tying fish line on the chicken's leg,
Cos we didn't buy the chickens,
It was borrowed from a temple.

And to prevent the chickens from running away,
We have to tie invisible fish lines on their leg.
We're equally afraid to hurt the chickens as well,
So we tape the feet before tying the fish line.

In this case there would be a layer of protection,
and no animals would be harm! ^___^

My show's coming to an end very very very soon...
And i'm already done filming with...............Zhen Huan!Jesseca!

Somehow I cant wait to start on new show...
This show has been filming for too long,
it's taking its toil on me already.

Need something new and exciting already!
But I really love this show many many.
And my team also. (:

Attended Dorothy's 21st last saturday,
And many many catch up!
=DMy babes in lower secondary...Secondary two classmates gather together!The birthday and me!

Walked home alone that night,
And I seriously swear,
I'm never ever gonna walk home again for a period of time.

Cos you never know who's stalking you.
=X

And Sunday is the day that Sotong goes to Switzerland.She so busy sia...
Bounce here bounce there bounce everywhere...
No time for us at all...

AND DONT BOTHER TO INTRO ME TO HER FRIENDS SOMEMORE!

So disappointing.And she is very reluctant to wear the shirts we gave her.
Nice loh she.
Disappointing again.Tskkk disappointing.

And since Sotong is such a disappointment,
I shall find a new BFF.

And here's my new BFF!! =D
*inside joke*

Went shopping the next day with my parents and all I can say is I'm a very filial daughter because I paid for their CNY stuff and now I hardly got my stuff and I'm already half broke. T___T

Ok and then it's back to work again until today.
And it's gonna be back to work again tomorrow.

PAs have no life.
It's all work and work and work.
How about APs?
Don't even think about having a life.

Ok that's all for now goodbye everyone.

Anyway, saw this quote on Facebook and I really like it alot.

"Just because she comes off strong doesn't mean she

didn't fall asleep crying. Even though she acts like

nothing is wrong, maybe she's just really good at

lying."

Perhaps, just perhaps,
That's exactly how I'm like?

quick update

2010-02-01T12:16:00.002+08:00

Was on off for the past 3 days...
And today marks the 4th day of my consecutive off day!

Supposedly to be on off as well for tomorrow,
But sadly I've gotta go help other rounds.
)):
And it's going to be a damn early morning tomorrow loh...
Sian sia...

A rather well-spent 4 off days,
Which is why I don't have the time to update my blog.

I promise to do a proper on my next off day.
Or maybe the next next off day.

Gotta go for now!!!

你害怕的是什麼你想要的是什麼
站在你背後我連呼吸都痛

Boring update

2010-01-20T22:54:00.000+08:00

Tired tired tired....
Haven been updating cos I'm too tired...
Not to mention lazy as well...

Besides, I got nothing about my life to update...
Its basically all about work...

I just feel that my work is more fun than normal office jobs,
even though its much more taxing as well.
No fixed time, no fixed hours, no fixed off days.
But still, i rather do this anytime than asking me sit in the office.

And sometimes the during filming,
jokes of all kinds happen.

Guess it what that makes work fun,
despite all the sucky shit that you will kena.

as usual, some pictures of work.
yes sorry but i'm a boring person.

I'm just updating for the sake of keeping my blog alive.Tskk tskk...
So vulgar...yes, the guy on the bike,
is Mr oh-so-scary Steven Lim who-used-to-strip-to-get-on-TV.
Cant forget the time he terrorized sarah at orchard,
and now, he's scaring everyone in the show.
sneak peek at our studio (:
Papa tay being the lightman while work...
He's trying hard to be more than an actor...Cos he tried out as a soundman next!!
Look how delightful my soundman (the uncle standing next to him) is...All the feet looks the (about the) same...
But still, take a guess at which is my feet, Papa Tay's feet, My cameraman assistant (CA) feet and my soundman's feet.And here's my pinky director while we filmed under the hot sun yesterday.
It just look so funny.

Satisfied my dao huay craving tonight with Sarah, Ade and Kiwi.
But the dao huay tonight not very nice...
Standard drop quite a bit, so sad... )):
Hope to go back soon and eat the nicer one...

And so qiao we actually met liting and gordon while we waited at city hall for kiwi to walk over from JB...
He took like forever to reach the MRT station from Suntec...

Am very tired, I dunno why.
I just wish I could be braver and face up to myself,
even though i know i'm the one who's refusing to put it down.
Probably its what that is still driving me around.
I hope you'll say its me that you're talking about, but I'm scared to hear from you that it's actually not me.
Such dilemma,
makes me feel equally lost as well.

Sleep, might just make things better.
Good night.

high class day at work

2010-01-06T17:45:00.004+08:00

have been working very very hard for the past few days...
even after sleeping for like 11 or 12 hours,
i'm still feeling utterly drained out.

yes am still loving my job,
but let's face it lah.
work is work afterall...
and final conclusion is: Work sucks.
it always does.

anyway did 2 days of studio filming,
and it was madness.

there were sooooo many scenes to do and we had to finish it off within two days.
we did manage to finished them,
but it totally drained me out.

studio filming is not any easier than OB.
so what if i start work in the afternoon?
i end late and i come back feeling even more tired than OB!

went for a day of OB yesterday
(Yes after two hectic days of studio filming)
and i finally got my well-deserved day off.
but guess what?
i've got 2 days of studio filming coming up again.
-groan-

yesterday was very high class filming day.
first stop we headed to Cartier at Ion Orchard.

the high class aura is overwhelming loh.the crew, director and jesseca admiring the *BLING BLING* diamond in the shop.

overheard the person in charge saying that the classic ring is about 1k or so.
but if u want to take the classic one with diamonds,
its gonna cost at least 4k.
-faint-

the ring that we used in our show?
it costs 6k i think.

for a moment i half wanted to ask the person in charge:
"So, did anyone made payment in full cash amount before?"

Of course it was just a naive thinking of mine...
i didn't ask lah duhh!

and in the evening we headed to this place to do filming.and the place got lift.
yes i know.
everywhere also got lift.

but how many of you have seen...................lifts INSIDE a house?!?!!!

i'm not referring to HDB flats duhh~
i'm talking about landed properties & private estates...
and there is a freaking lift inside a house!!!

ultimate coolness to see something like this for yourself man.and the house is just awesomely huge.

it is definitely the biggest house i've ever set foot into in my whole life!
maybe i should just try to find some rich man's son around MediaCorp...
all those people living there is 'woooooo' rich dao~

and yea,
this humongous house is located somewhere along MediaCorp that few roads.
and ohh~
it is definitely NOT the biggest house there...crew in awe of the huge place as well....

am trying to blog as frequent as i can,
when i got the time and all...
not like as if i'm very free or what,
cos right now i gotta get my ass back to work.

yes, i bring my work stuff home.
cos its a bo bian thing.
i'm working much more than what my pay is worth.
(That's what i think lah)

Ok bye people.

PS: Fellow colleague at Wardrobe said i'm looking bad ever since i start work.
Am i really looking that bad now? )):

I get physically tired easily cos mentally and emotionally, I'm equally drained out.

2010

2010-01-02T19:31:00.003+08:00

And wow my wish actually came true LOL.
I managed to get my hands on S90, even before the New Year!

Haven't really explore the cam yet,
But I guess I'll be using 'Auto' Mode most of the time during work.
Who the hell has time to meddle with Manual Mode when I'm busying filming?!

Am getting my ass back to work tomorrow,
And it definitely feels great after slacking for 6 days.
I need to work so as to diet. =X
I probably eat too much while slacking my days away...

This is probably the bestest photo I've produced from my S90
Such vivid colours, so pretty!
I will make sure I train my photography skills...
So that I can take more pictures which turn out like this...
(:

There are so many things that I wanna do/learn,
on top of that I've still gotta work.
I really need to manage my time well man.

2nd day of 2010,
I just gotta keep myself in a happier mood throughout the next 363 days.

PS: It's exactly 5 months to my 21st. ((((((:

One day I'll wake up and it won't hurt anymore.
I'm wishing for the arrival of this day.

Last blog post of 2009

2009-12-31T18:03:00.003+08:00

And this year we met up again,
for our annual year-end dinner at Long Beach.

We didn't do that last year,
and as we meet this year,
we've got a new menu!
HAAA.

To be honest,
I love this year's menu lots.
Especially the fish OMG HAHAAA.

And the waitress actually served us two portions of the fish!!
-contented look-

anyway, got some 'new' relatives who joined us for dinner this year.
my oh-so-cute-yet-naughty nieces.
soooooooo adorable.

let the pictures show you man. =Dnaughty little acacia.
and ohh...
she's called huiwen too!!!

Hi little VEN! =Xso innocent looking!
but yet she steals peanuts from your plate when you're not looking...
HAHAAA.love the above two pictures many many. <3and here's my another niece,
we call her Tingting.
(Frankly speaking, I forgot her name. So well, since everyone calls her Tingting, I shall call her Tingting too! ^_^ )my dear cousins.

and can you believe it!
they were the ones who suggested going to toilet and camwhore!
HAHAAAA.

camwhoring runs in the blood in our family man...i soooooooooo like this picture man. xD and my cousin said: Wahhh so long never take group photos already sia... xD

actually am in a rush to go off,
and the purpose of this blog entry is to have a last entry for 2009.

and of course,
the most important thing yet.... Happy Birthday Daddy!
((:

PS: I don't have two daddy(s) ok!
The one on the right is my uncle, who shares the same birthday as my dad!

Not again

2009-12-30T02:35:00.004+08:00

And so she told me;

"I don't want to go home so early, cos I don't want

to stay home and let my mind run wild."

Oh how true can that be.

Off days spent at home are just making my imagination run wild again.
And bringing back those memories to me again.

I thought its time and I had got over it,
Just taking a little more time to resume back to my old life.
Guess I was wrong, as usual.

This little more time is taking way too long,
Yet i have no idea what I can do to shorten this time.

This time round,
Nothing else can help.

I'm shunning myself away and shutting up my doors,
Because I'm too afraid of history repeating itself again and again.

Now, not even work can save me from it.

2009 has been far from good for me,
Please, may 2010 be a better year.
The year I turn 21,
Please don't disappoint me.

Broken up, torn apart.

2009-12-28T17:24:00.010+08:00

“當時，我很傷心。記得有個長輩跟我說，時間會治療我內

心的傷痛。到了今天，我可以證明這句話是騙人的。當我們

再度想起失去的親人時，心裡還是會痛的，不過，同時也會

覺得很溫暖。因為，你曾經和他有過美好的記憶，而這些回

憶將會永遠留在你心中。”

---葉家俊
《紅白喜事》

面對著愛情，何嘗不是如此呢？

Christmas day

2009-12-25T23:36:00.001+08:00

and it was a very emo christmas night.

dunno wad exactly happened,
a few of us met up last night for some zi char dinner,
just because sarah wants to eat crabs before she extract her wisdom tooth.

so we had a very fulfilling dinner,
relatively cheap for 6 people.

but i guess we were all so hungry that all we care was to eat,
who cares about photos man lol.

and it was also the best time ever to eat seafood cos..................
adeline was not in town.
MUAHAHAAAAA~
=X

we didnt really plan our christmas eve night,
so after dinner we were basically roaming around pasir ris like wandering spirit.

walked here and there went to mx house and after that we finally decided to hit the beach.

not a good time, spot or whatever.
in our clique, beach = emo.
and yea it was a damn emo night.

i'm not blaming you darling,
i was pretty emo myself.
so dun say you suck ok,
cos everyone was emo last night.

i screamed (very softly) and ran through the park for a short distance,
just because i was feeling random.

and i pestered the rest to buy sparklers like little kid,
but we didnt play with it in the end.

after that i got them to go 7-11 to get my ice cream,
cos i had this sudden craving for magnum ice cream.

and finally we ended up at kiwi house, yet again.

overslept a little bit today,
got to work like damn late,
but realised wardrobe wasnt open,
and many things cock up.

because i didnt do my homework properly.
and now as i type away here,
its like as if i got no work tml but no.
its a freaking long day tml man.

but am kinda happy that everyone appreciates the chocolates i gave,
though i find it kinda cheapo.

ok some random pictures from work.
helllloooooo mx here's your favourite!!! xDsuper candid hahahaaa...and *blush* LOL.
as compared to him, we PAs are too young.
so we call him Papa. =Done day during filming when i was bored
(mind you it was a very long shoot, even my director got bored)
i started folding straw star with the only 2 straws that i have.

ehhhh please my star looks much nicer now can! =X

this is a darn random post.
i'm just updating for the sake of updating.
so bye everyone.and happy birthday my dear cousin!! (:
and oh oh oh!
Papa helped me buy this cam at a very much lower price than the retail one...
cant wait to get my hands on it...

i finally bought this after consideration!
it better be good man!
i want to get this cam fast fast fast!!! ((:

ok bye everyone.

Merry Christmas

2009-12-24T14:04:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas everyone!

I'm working on Christmas Day!
Lalalaaaa~

eye candy(s) loves

2009-12-17T23:08:00.002+08:00

I really have nothing to update about my mudane life.
cos basically all i do everyday is work work work.

and today's probably the first time i got so upset over work.
i felt so guilty that i nearly cried in wardrobe.
but wells, i held it back, laugh things off,
pretending to be fine just like how i always do.

its over and the day ended well also.
guess i just have to try harder next time.

perhaps because i was doing OB till 11 plus last night,
and today i had to reach office at 7am again.
quite tiring i must say, but bo bian leii.
perhaps that's why i was a little bit dazed out at times.

and this whole week i'm handling very heavy scenes,
so kinda stressed out and stuff.
arrrggggghhhhh!!!!!!!

just let this week past by quickly man,
i dun care if i'm working on christmas or not,
i just want to end this week now!!!!!!!!

oh btw,
OB means doing outdoor filming.
dun ask my why izzit called OB cos i dunno.
i've tried asking around but apparently nobody knows either.

the only thing that's constantly perking me up is my eye candy(s).

Eye Candy No. 1 is helping me buy a new camera!
((((((((((((((((((((:
and i hope he can get me lotsa lotsa discount!!! =D

and Eye Candy No.2 sent me home last night WAHAHAA!!!
i was only joking actually,
but he actually did offer to wait and send me home!!!
soooooo nice of him,
not like a certain someone's eye candy. =P

Having eye candy(s) everywhere really helps make work better man!
at least there is something to look forward to everytime i work.

and i'm having 2 overnight OB for the rest of this week.
oh gosh.
what can i say?

My eye candy(s) will motivate me.
I believe. xD

傷

2009-12-14T22:51:00.002+08:00

人潮擁擠的星期天，為拍戲，出海去了。

因為要工作，所以心情不能受到波動。
因為要工作，所以謹慎不能鬆懈下來。
因為要工作，所以控制自己不能想你。

但當我有休息的片刻時，望著大海，心裡的情緒仍然不能平復。凡走過，必留下痕跡，不是嗎？藍天碧海，多麼寧靜。
我的心中，卻此起彼覆。

這次的我，真的心灰意冷了。
傷透了。

雖然如此，我依然無法放下。
要努力的地方，還多著呢。當飛機越過傷心換日線天空只留下寂寞無聲的盤旋
時間它能不能倒退一點停格在你晴天的笑臉

a post that doesnt make sense.

2009-12-12T20:54:00.003+08:00

some things in this world, are not meant to be.
that's why they are called accidents.

But sometimes, it has nothing to do with the incident.
it's probably the user problem.
and i guess i was just being too silly.

time after time,
lesson after lesson,
accident after accident,
i never learn.

sometimes i amazed people,
and i amazed myself too.
with all the ridiculous things that i have in mind.

Who is the real Shuangying?
Who has seen the real Shuangying?
Not even Shuangying herself.

this is a nonsensical post.
a post that doesnt make sense at all.
sorry to let u people feel disturb.

sidetrack abit,
i'm totally loving my job.
wonder why some people dont.

at least up till now i still do.
love it alot alot.
many many.

and eye candy(s) motivate me at work.

敷衍塞责

2009-12-10T21:44:00.005+08:00

望遠鏡看不見你
你的心飛去哪里
無聲飛行享受黑夜的靜謐

別說對不起
別讓我傷了心才說不是故意
我卻無法怪你

別說對不起
別讓我的愛情變成廉價物品
我卻只能愛你

閉上眼睛卻看見你
想你的好代替無力
我相信你卻開始不信任自己

別說對不起
別讓我灰了心才說不是故意
我卻無法怪你

別說對不起
別讓我的愛情變得小心翼翼
我卻只能愛你

用行動來證明你的決心
不要說說而已我想要的不只是sorry 啊...

無聲飛行享受黑夜的靜謐
別說對不起
別讓我傷了心才說不是故意
我卻無法怪你

別說對不起
別讓我的愛情變成廉價物品
我卻只能愛你

work has been great, really.
though first day didnt went that well,
but am floating on air now cos my eye candy sayang-ed me today!!
am soooooo loving this job and this particular show now. ((:

something random.

him: is my phone with you?
me: yah.
him: can you give it to me?
me: can i say no?
him: *reverse psychology* can~ if you wan den u keep loh... yah loh... can... you keep loh...
me: *take out handphone*
him: why you dowan keep?
me: i dun dare.
him: *give the 'you-naughty-arh' face and point finger at my nose.*

=D

busy as i am,
i tend to get a little emotional when i have free time.

it's just so me,
always doing things like this,
being silly and all.

but well,
maybe i just got to try harder.

我試著恨你，卻想起你的笑容。

Take me away

2009-12-07T21:27:00.001+08:00

Take me away, a secret place.
A sweet escape, take me away.
Take me away, to better days.
Take me away, a hiding place.

stand chart marathon 2009

2009-12-06T21:41:00.009+08:00

am very very very very tired and drained out right now...
but perhaps cos of the little nap just now,
resulting in me unable to sleep now...

it has been a very long day for me yesterday...

i slept at 5am the night before,
and i woke up at 12pm yesterday.

somehow i just couldnt make myself go back to sleep after i woke up,
perhaps cos am afraid of sleeping in till too late...
had something very important to do...

go my aunt house for dinner!!!

it has been months since i last met my relatives,
so this time round bo bian, die die also have to go and show face...

had dinner, sat around, chit chat, gossip, watch tv and fool around.
stayed there till around 10.30 or so and i left.
cousins are my best playmates since young,
how can i not love them? ((:

am always looking forward to meeting them,
and hope that i can make it for the next gathering.
working hours and schedule has been so unfixed that i cant seem to plan anything ahead of time.

anyway headed down to plaza sing/cathay to meet PSP for a movie.
caught couples retreat! (And seriously, sometimes i hate that place so much)
damn funny lah the show... (That whole area reminds of you, and i hate it)
but some scenes are pretty disturbing to me...
but these parts are also some people's favourite part...

and there was this damn old pickup line which made my hair stand!
perhaps it's damn old that's why its damn funny!!!

rushed down to padang immediately after the movie...
was running late for Standard Chartered Singapore Marathon 2009!!!

though doing volunteering for SCSM has always been very tiring,
somehow it always seem to be very enjoyable.
which is why year after year i insisted on making PSP join in HAHAAA.
perhaps its the company who do things together matters.

first year, i was allocated to the drinks station.
last year, i was assigned to the baggage area.
this year, i'm being placed at start point!!!

something that i think was a great eye opener,
cos i've nvr seen the flag off of a marathon before.
something else which i really wanna try after this,
would be the finishing point LOL.

at first i thought it would be pretty boring to be at the start point,
but manager and asst manager are two very very nice ladies...
so things were a breeze for us...

i didnt really do much things,
cos yusof did most of the running of errands...
i even had time to nap a while lah!
this is the slackest year of SCSM i've ever been to man LOL.
the horn for the flag off!
its freaking loud lahhh!!!

and guess what was the best part of the day?

the flag off for the kids dash!
OMGGG the kids are damn cute can!

there were different age groups available,
and the ones aged 9-6 are damn disobedient.

there was the yellow chains and Standard Chartered banner,
and the kids were lining up behind it.

and when the yellow chains were released,
they all CHIONGED forward.
so we stopped them and pushed them back to the starting point using the banner,
and we were supposed to drop the banner,
sound the air horn and den they start running.

ended up the moment we dropped the banner,
they all rushed forward!

so i stop the kids on my right side telling them not to move,
the kids on my left play cheat and moved a few steps forward.
i turned around and tell them not to move,
and the right side kids move even more forward than the left side one.
so i turn back to the right side again,
and yah, the left side kids moved even moreee forward.

just when i was abt to give up,
the air horn sounded off and the kids dashed off,
leaving me standing in the middle of a sea of children.
-_______________-

i finally made my way out of the children sea,
causing a couple of them to knock onto me.
and den when i saw the sea has died off,
i walked back to the other side of the road and
"WHAM!"
a kid ran right into me.

i feel so apologetic for knocking them,
but den they are so disobedient leii!
enthusiastic lah i know...

and of course the cutest lot of all was the 3 years old and below ones!!!these are the 5-3 years old group if i'm not wrong...
cant remember exactly the categories...the world of little toddlers.
uber cuteness to the max man!!!parents with the kids...

i was soooo busy staring at the cuties that i didnt snap much pictures...
and when the parents told the kids to follow us do the chicken dance,
it was soooooooo funny!

one can really gain satisfaction from teaching kids things like this. (:

ended our duties soon and headed back to look for the gang.
waited quite a while before we all could leave together.

signed and received my reimbursement,
and somehow there was human error with faris's registration.

waited for him for quite some time,
but we camwhored and fool around to self entertain.photos mostly up on facebook,
my favourite twos are up here though. (:stylo mylo sehhh.
caught sight of a man wearing pink slippers and find it so wrong lol.

i know i shouldnt laugh at people but its just so wrong...
so funny can!Throughout my poly years, I've always loved PSP.
even till i graduate, i still love meeting up with PSP people.
And as the bonding among members grow,
outings gets more and more fun.

i was the one who pestered jimmy to take part in this year SCSM,
but am very happy that he still asked me to go tgt with them.
and even though i'm the oldest there,
and i'm the only graduate there,
(which means i shouldnt even appear as participant for their events)
am still very happy to have get along with the new members.
(:

i will and shall continue loving PSP.

its okay, i'm okay, 我不用你陪。

i know i'm selfish

2009-12-04T19:58:00.003+08:00

寂寞時你像個貝殼閉上眼你倔強地摀住雙耳
背對背地坐著我們用沉默在拉扯看誰的淚先輸掉拔河

愛我時你不夠嚴格總忘了能夠牽手多麼難得
我不怕生命有挫折不怕回憶會有皺摺唯有你說要放棄我不願附和

你心裡有多少忐忑交給我去用力抱著
雙手還有熱或許能喚起你的不捨有一天我們傷的心會癒合

心裡的忐忑抱著慢慢就會好的
感動都有了還有什麼不認可不准我們把愛給走成了坎坷

多少戀人不費唇舌在一起卻說服彼此不適合
我懂得生命有沼澤懂得愛會失去光澤只是在你懷裡是快樂的抉擇

你心裡有多少忐忑交給我去用力抱著
雙手還有熱或許能喚起你的不捨有一天我們傷的心會癒合

心裡的忐忑時間跟我說會好的
決心放好了這一次非你不可若這不是愛那有過的是什麼

Forgive me for my selfishness.

I know you guys are concerned about me.
But this time, I hope you can leave me alone.

I just want to be alone on my own,
I just want to settle things myself.

I'm not telling anyone anything, so quit asking.

沒重心

2009-12-02T21:40:00.003+08:00

假裝堅強，是為了不讓別人看見自己的脆弱。
假裝勇敢，是為了不讓別人為自己擔心。

踏入戲劇部，自己天天彷彿也在演戲。
逞強久了，無法顯露自我的一面。

沒有人會接受一個懦弱的我。
沒有人會了解一個脆弱的我。

真正活在我心中的雙穎，又有誰認識？

是你，決定我的傷心。

folding stars

2009-11-30T23:01:00.002+08:00

a very random day today.

was supposed to wake up early and go bai bai with my parents,
but i slept at 4am again last night.
thus resulting in the inability to wake up early hahaaa...

has been sleeping at 4am ever since the days i've not been working...
not something very good,
so i better make sure i can wake up on time tml.
gotta sleep early tonight man.

slept half the day awake,
den woke up and get ready went to temple.
YAHH I PAN-DANG i pray for my new show can?

cos my new show got funerals & dead bodies and suicides etc...
so yahh loh i go pray for my own safety first LOL.

had dinner with parents (ehh i treat ok)
den i head down to tiong bahru.

met that person who's growing more and more horizontally everyday.
and i went there to accomplish a mission!

tada!i had to learn how to fold this!

and yes, all for the sake of my new show again LOL.

see shuangying is a very good girl ok...
i'm a hardworking person at work...
i find ways to learn things that i might need to use for work...
-beam proudly-

and sad to say the above one is not i fold one....
this one den is i fold one!!

honestly now i look at it i dun think it looks that bad loh...
afterall its my first attempt leii!
or perhaps its because of the camera angle...
but that would means i'm a good cameraman MUAHAHAAA~ =X
comparison of the two stars, as request by the fat one.

yah lah yah lahh his is nicer lah,
but there's a fact which everyone should know!

this nicer star was his 2nd attempt loh!this phail/cui/CMI star is his first attempt!
its even worse than mine ok~everyone love my new spects i know i know thank you thank you!i think its better for u to have stars as ur eyes...
nicer leii...

and after all these star folding there was this very confusing donut buying thingy that happened between me and kiwi.

in any case basically i couldnt get his donuts at tiong bahru plaza so i went down to raffles city to check it instead but it was closed as well.

which just simply means i travel here and there and didnt get anything in the end.
AND IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH ME VISITNG POPULAR OK LOUSY KIWI.

blog updated, its bedtime now.
good night everyone.

SITEX

2009-11-29T23:20:00.003+08:00

haven been working ever since friday and i'm not working again tml!
hahaa...
so its an ultra long weekend for me...

good also, can rest a bit more first before i start working on the new show...
i have all reasons in the world to believe that i wun have much free time after i start filming.

went to catch ninja assassin late last night,
and it was a ok only movie.
could guess what was going to happen next.

and today decided to head down to SITEX and have a look.
didnt really wanna go initially, (cos the last one reminds me of you)
but somehow still went down in the end.

guess its pretty typical of me to not miss out on any IT Show,
even though i got nothing to buy.

we had such a tough time deciding between Lenovo or Asus laptops,
and we cant make up our mind between seagate and fujitsu HDDs.
this is what you get when you put 2 girls together,
comparing prices is what we always do.
oh, not to forget we got a guy who's damn 婆婆妈妈.
he compare prices even much more than us girls do.

ended up adeline bought her 10.2" Lenovo laptop for her mum, a 320GB fujitsu HDD for herself, and kiwi bought the same HDD as well as a wall charger for his not-yet-arrived iPod touch.

but anyway hate the crowd (as usual) and we left after a few hours.

decided to head down to airport to eat popeyes again HAHAHA...while waiting for the darn train which took damn long....

finished a super sumptuous meal of Popeyes...
and popeyes is soooooooo much more better than KFC ok!
but i totally hate it when the workers at popeyes dun understand that i wan the non spicy chicken...
they are forever giving me the spicy ones.

and today sucks cos airport outlet run out of all side dishes except for fries and mash potato.

i pestered them to walk around airport to look for the legendary christmas tree that ming fong says can open and close one...

managed to find it at T3 and it wasnt a christmas tree at all loh.it is called the BIG musical ball.

find it kinda retarded lah to be honest.
it looks simply like this.when it closes it looks just like a big ball and when it opens there are just many small balls inside it. it doesnt look as nice as how mingfong describe it as.being super tourisy (pronounced as tour-ri-see) again.camwhore runs in my blood loh.it took us quite a while to realise the giant ball releases small balls and sweets for kids to grab.llook at the crowd loh...
dun understand wad's so fun about it...
but well, kids. and the giant ball closes.

guess we were kinda lucky to witness the opening of the big musical ball,
cos it opens every half an hour only.
at least we didnt had to wait for it...the one who confessed and the one who came out of the closet.stupid ade closes her eyes....a very blur photo but i dun care...
i think i'm losing my camwhore skills already...
too long nvr camwhore liao lol....

another off day tml and i shall put it to good use.
there are so many things i need to do and settle,
be it personal or for work.

and i need to learn how to manage my own finances man...
haa... cannot go back to being the poor broke girl again...

ending this post with something random.xD

《当我们同在一起》
Debuts tomorrow night, 9PM, only on channel 8.

support local drama ok people! =P

workaholic.

2009-11-28T03:12:00.006+08:00

i'm a workaholic,
and i've admitted that a long time ago.

and it has been damn long since i last spend quality time with my friends.
frankly speaking, i miss those crazy ridiculously fun days i had.

and nope, i'm not complaining about work.
not yet i supposed. =P
how to complain when i get to ogle at cute mediacorp guys everyday?
=D

it has been a very slack and free week for me,
thus took out the time to meet ming fong and gang today.

initial plans was to:-
Meet at 2PM at Suntec City to go Carrefour.
Buy all the necessary things.
Head down to Marina Barrage for picnic.
(Despite the fact that we porbably dunno how to get there)

But wells...
I've been real deprived of sleep recently,
i was awake at 10 even though i slept at 4 plus,
felt that i didnt get enough sleep so i forced myself back to bed again.
xD

slept all the way till...... yupp.
2PM lols.

Took my time to wash up and etc,
thought everyone was present but was told that lih yee was MIA.

so dun care,
head down to Suntec to meet the rest first den decide what to do.

wanted to go sing k at teo heng,
but was fully booked.
den wanted to go sing k at cash studio at bedok,
but kinda like expensive liddat.
den went over to NTUC,
so bought lots of junk and decided to head to airport to picnic.
but i forgot what-was-the-reason and we ended up at East Coast instead.
HAHAHAAAA.

junk for breakfast and lunch and dinner and supper.
we just sat around and talk cock and camwhored (upon my request of course).

pictures up in facebook,
not gonna post much up here.
this woman like kid liddat...
insist on taking photo with christmas tree.

and oh,
guess what was the main reason that we wanted to head down to airport?

see a christmas tree that can open and close or something liddat.the four of us warming up for our continuous camwhore shots,
without lih yee who decided to pangseh us.

anyway, lih yee contacted us eventually.
said she felt asleep while waiting for laundry.
=.=

she wanted to come along,
but somehow last min got friend birthday to attend.
and she even cheated us to buy her a Tao Kae Noi.

but end up she still decided to pangseh us.
bleahhh.yes i need to put on spects in order to see more clearly.
i've been so pa jiao i guess.spectacled family.niceeeeee rainbow we caught amidst of all our travelling.

ohhhh did i mention that i went to buy this new wallet?
it cost me a freaking 99 bucks...
but i totally adore and love it!

but its 99 bucks you know, so i dun dare let my mama know.
so shhhhh! dun tell anyone ok!
esp my mama!

and as much as i wanted to meet up with my friends,
i'm feeling pretty lazy too.

i've been so busy that i hardly have time for myself.
all i wanna do is to laze around the house and waste the day away.
it is a blessing to be able to do that ok.

Confession.
Know why i'm such a workaholic?

cos i've been trying to numb myself with work,
but its not working.

each time i get some free time,
i think of you.
each time i past by certain places,
i think of you.

there's just too much memories of me and you together,
which is taking its toil on me.

i have to admit,
i just cant let go of it yet.

痛呀

2009-11-27T03:30:00.000+08:00

我就快要死了.

誰拉住我, 誰救救我, 我從高空, 狠狠地墜落.

emo again

2009-11-11T00:31:00.004+08:00

not exactly in the best state of mind recently...
and no, it has nothing to do with work.

work has been great, really.
and i'm kinda taken by surprise that i'm starting on a new show next month.

many people has been asking me about the new show thingy,
shall do a short explanation here.

basically it has only been a week since i last started work...
and right till now i'm still consider as an understudy.
i've been to 《想握你的手》 and 《当我们同在一起》 productions,
but no my name wun be appearing cos i'm UNDERSTUDY.

anyway received a call,
and was told that i'll be starting on a new show next month.
not sure if i'm allowed to reveal anything yet,
so shall keep mum about it first.
(:

and the weird thing is out of the 4 new Production Assistants for my batch,
apparently i'm the only one who kena new show.
hope the other 3 can get new shows asap too! (:

and yah,
i'm very confused now and feel super lost.
i have no idea where i'm heading to,
and what step should i take next.

work has been the only thing to keep my mind of this issue.
the past few days these issues have been haunting me like mad.
somehow i guess i only blame myself (as usual).

bad habit of mine.
everytime something happens,
i blame myself for it.
but other than myself, who else can i blame?
anything that happen is really my fault, right?

haiz.
i need time to sort my thoughts out,
though its been long enough.

nothing seem to change,
but everything felt so different now.

guidance please.

oh btw, i can never forget the look you had on your face.
i'm not sure should i be smug over that or not.

Torture all over again

2009-11-08T19:53:00.004+08:00

Kelly Clarkson - Behind These Hazel Eyes (Official Music Video) - The best video clips are here

Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

anyway working has been fine/great for me...
depending on which time of the day...

its actually quite tiring but wells...
i guess at the very least it would be something that i would like.

but sometimes i just feel that there are so many rules and restrictions to follow...
and guess that's pretty tiring too...
):

but eye candies are loves! <3
they are what that motivate me at work HAHAAA!

randomness HAHAA

2009-10-27T00:15:00.003+08:00

met up with jinli today for a simple yet sumptuous dinner!!
and after dinner we went walk walk around Esplanade there,
wanted to sit and chill by the river for a while.

and den suddenly jinli stop to look at the posters and this particular one caught my eye.
ohhhh yes.
are you thinking what i'm thinking?
if you are thinking what i'm thinking den u are right!!!

it should be kinda obvious by the event name already, isn't it?

and presenting to everyone..................................................Mr Patrick Cheng!!!

awww....
so young and handsome isnt he?
he must have broke millions of young girls' hearts back then...
*coughhestilldonowcough*

Come on fellow CHS-ers!!
support your own lecturer!!

Concert will be held on 1st Nov (aka this coming sunday)
tickets are sold for 30 dollars and 45 dollars!!
bring your ah ma and ah gong along too cos senior citizen got discount!
20 dollars only leii!

for more information please visit the following website: Esplanade Theatre On the Bay Singapore

recent updates

2009-10-24T02:30:00.011+08:00

Other than emoing pretty much recently,
I've also been very the busy one ok!

Some brief (but long) updates.

And so, after my last entry,the next 'event' listed in my planner was.........

The grand-est thing and craziest thing that the LPS clique has ever done in their wholeeeee life!

The shaving of Mr Oyster!! xD

I thought i probably should do this while Oyster's being confined in Tekong for 2 freaking weeks.
So that he cant kill me immediately. =P

It all began as a joke,
When we claimed that we're experts at cutting other people's hair,
And of course anyone in the right mind would have rejected that idea.
Mr Oyster was no exception okay.

But one day Mr Oyster MSN-ed me,
Saying he's been thinking about it and have really thought it through.

He's decided that since he's gonna shave his head sooner or later den might as well let us cut for him provided that Liting darling is there to do the damage control.

OMFG that was like the shock of the century man!! xD
And the whole LPS (girls only actually) were jumping around gleefully!

And so the day finally came.

Introducing......Mr Oyster before cutting hair!

We came to the decision that since mx's mum is a POR-fessional hairdresser,
We shall not take the risk and we'll hold this prestige event at her house.
Mx's mum will be around to supervise us of course.

When 'the moment' really came,
Nobody dare to take the first step siaaa!!

And i'm not being called Da jie for no reason one you know....
They all pushed me into the 火坑 first.
=.=

And guess wad kind of scissors they gave me?
Those trim and thin your hair that kind.
BLEAHHH. so not fun.

So i didnt managed to cut much...
And i decided to pass the scissors on to the next person.
And this person, is the most evil of us all.
There she loh!
Sarah ong mei shan aka sotong aka.... etc etc.
Ur nickname's too long.

To know your close-to-being-complete-but-it-cant-be-complete-cos-your-nickname-list-keeps-growing-non-stop-at-a-super-amazing-rate nickname list,
Please refer back to Nigel's birthday entry dated 30th april.

The moment she stepped into the house she's been eyeing Mr Oyster's fringe.And the scissors goes 'snap snap snap'!
Nigel cut a strrrrraight line across Oyster's forehead.

Look what Oyster has become to! )):
Look so tooot loh HAHAHAHAAAA. =XAnd so its not very advisable for us to continue playing,
Liting shall take over and do the damage control.

But we were taking such loooooooooooong time to shave his hair,
Mx's mum who was sitting at the side all along,

Finally stood up and took over everything.

*applaude wildly*

One final look at Oyster with his (damaged) hair before he turns.....Bald.

And thanks to mx's mum who saves the day!

And Oyster's hair. =P

We then headed to had Sakae Teppanyaki as his farewell dinner and boy i ate freaking lots so i was super full.

The next day i went back to old workplace to collect my pay.

Lao niang quit man i tell you! -roar-

After that went walking around town a little.

On 20th of Oct i met Oyster and Kiwi again,

This time i accompany them shop ok!

I did not buy a single thing that day ok!
Partially cos i was broke already i guess HAHAAA. =X

Now i finally know how freaking near is Sunshine Plaza to Dao Huay place,

Ok lahh i know i noooob.

)):

Went to buy tequila for the drinking session held at Kiwi house that night!

I shall not go into too much details cos Kiwi will prolly kill me for blogging out all the stupid things he has done when he was drunk.

People who were present for the night: Me, kiwi, oyster, mx and chalky.

People who KO-ed in chronological order: Oyster, Chalky, Mx, Me & Kiwi.

Total amount of alcohol i took that night: 1 Vodka Mango mixer, 1 Vodka Peach mixer, 2 Baileys, 7 Tequila shots.

DAMN SHIOK MAN.

lol.

The next day i finally met up with my OVB slaves...

And omg i'm so sorry i actually forgot that it was our (ex)editor's birthday!!!

Nonetheless,

We had a good time catching up with one another.

Listening to Porridge talk has always been as amazing as ever.

And accidents always happen to Moo cos her sandals broke halfway!
HAHAAA!

She had to drag her feet and spoilt sandals home,

Cos no shops were open for her to buy new shoes.

On the 22nd i was pestered by adeline and kiwi to eat dinner.

Though super lazy,
But i still got out in the end.

Bo bian, who ask me to be such a nice person. =P

It was den when i realised Kiwi was actually drunk on the drinking night,

Cos he totally had no recollection of ANY of the stories i said.

Oh wells.

Somebody's gonna get it reaaaaaaal bad.

Somebody.

I'm not saying who.

But you know him verrrrrrrry well.

Somebody.

And today was Mr Oyster's enlistment date and he's still stuck in Tekong for the coming 2 weeks (WAHAHAAA)

Sent him off at a freaking 745am...

Ok i think i was late i probably reached around 8am or so.

Had subway breakfast and i went back home to sleep till like close to 4pm.

Woke up, took my time slowly prepare,

and head down to Katong to meet Mr Ong and get 'My Sister's Keeper' the book for dearest chu.

Cos Mr Ong has been given the prestige and honour of loads of (shit)work to do,

So he not free and since i very free i have to go down instead.

*hintyouknowwhattodoarhmronghint*

head down to DTE for hot choc with nigel and ade,

den i walked home by myself again, for the 2nd night consecutively.

Damn nice to walk at night. (:

And i'm gonna start work in like 8 days at MDC.

Looking forward yet am feeling quite scared about it.

I hope i wun screw things up.

If only i'm a real millionaire den i dun need to work liao.

=X

PS: Did i mention that Kiwi broke a plate after cooking seaweed chicken?
Ohh now i did. =X
And yah, he broke the plate on the night he was drunk. =P
-runs away-

shuangying sucks

2009-10-16T03:20:00.002+08:00

so many problems happened,
within such a short period of time.

everything is giving me a bloody headache,
crying only increases the pain.

i'm a sucker at handling my own life.

to hell with it.

wad can i do?

2009-10-12T22:48:00.002+08:00

I really dowan this to happen.

Please, tell me,
is there anything i can do to salvage the situation?

This pain is unbearable.

its all in the mind

2009-10-11T02:40:00.001+08:00

i should have known.
such days aint gonna last.
such days probably shouldnt have lasted.

why am i so stupid to always do those 'i should have known' stuff.
i never ever learn from any of my lessons.
and i dun think i ever will.

goodbye world.

我到底...怎麼了?

2009-10-06T20:36:00.003+08:00

心裡很不踏實, 很不安.

同樣的問題反覆思考著,
不但沒有答案,
疑慮愈來越多.

我尋找的安全感, 跑哪兒去了?

muddled head

2009-10-05T15:55:00.004+08:00

sarah,
i put the blame on you.
though we have been meeting very very very little recently,
sarah syndrome does not stop.

i've been so muddled recently!!!
arrggghhh!!!!

first incident happened on saturday, when i dragged myself out of bed to meet ade and liting to go to gordon's camp to FETCH the master out.
=.=

tired as i always have been,
i on the bathroom heater and start taking the clothes i wanted to wear.
there was this biggggg stack of clothes in the living room,
just folded nicely and i was too lazy to keep it the night before.

i search through the whole stack once,
but i couldnt find the shirt that i'm looking for.
den i proceed to my room and search thru my closet and hangers.

i still cant find that darn shirt that i wanted.

i repeated the whole process again and i STILL cant find that darn shirt.

being as princessy as usual as well,
i woke my dad up (cos he fold the clothes for me one =P )
and my mum also came out from the kitchen searching for the missing shirt.

my dad insisted that the shirt must be washing,
but my mum and i knew that shirt has been washed a long time ago.
and i had not touched it since then.

my dad went to my room to search and my mum searched through the big stack of clothes in the living room again.
and me?
sat in front of my mum, pouting.

my mama scolded me say must be wake up so early in the morning never open my eyes and see clearly but apparently she also loh cos she cant find the shirt either.

den i sat and think and think and think and suddenly! *light bulb*
i found the shirt!!! ^^

reason being: i took that shirt as an extra tee to PSP camp, ended up i didnt take it out from the bag.

how smart of me that was.

and today....
woooo! wonderful.

i went to work happily only to find that i had breathing difficulties.

so as usual,
i searched for my asthma medication and after i took a puff,
something felt wrong.

the puff was very light and empty,
and no medicine came out from it.

den i realised i took the old, used and empty one out instead.
almost panicked my life out and quickly summon my boss down to take over while i go home and get the right puff.

got home and i couldnt find the right one either and arrggghhhh!
i jitao give up.
(i was already feeling much better when i got home)

den my dad came home (cos i called and told him abt it)
and we started searching for it again.

i started telling my dad wad happened at the shop when i need the puff,
at the same time took out the medicine from my bag,
den miraculously, my dad took out another same puff from the other side of my bag.
=.=

i brought both old one and new one to work and i tot i only had the old one and i didnt search my bag again and thus i left work and headed home.

wahhhh laoooo ehh damn shit man i'm so blurrrr.

what's wrong with me mannnn~

what's wrong with me

2009-10-04T02:48:00.002+08:00

i really have no idea what the hell is going on.

i'm supposedly leading a very nice and happy and blissful life.
i have my friends, i have my family.
i have gotten my 'desired' job and will start work soon.
i have been having some wonderful times,
but i just feel super lethargic.

i cant seem to get enough rest everyday,
and i totally dread going to work.

i so feel like quitting already,
but never ever got the courage to bring up this topic.

i guess i really hate working there.
i've been giving everyone so much problems there,
i'm more like a hindrance to them rather than helping out.

everytime i change shift or close the shop,
i can never ever get the accounts right.
its a damn sucky feeling, esp when my maths sucks.

i think the problem lies in me cos apparently no one else is having the same problem as me.

and i'm really really really very happy that i got into mdc.
its something which i want to try, something new.

but i know how things work in this line.

once i start work,
i'm gonna be so busy that i wun have any time for anyone.
i know i will be stuck in such a dilemma trying to make a decision,
trying to do some good time management.

considering how i know myself,
i'm soooo gonna turn into a workaholic.
i will work and work and slog myself out,
without giving myself any breather at all.

oh man,
shuang ying is such a sucky person man.

and i've been feeling so empty and insecure cos of all the nonsense i repeatedly tell myself almost everyday.

i dunno if i did the right thing,
i dunno if i made the right choice.
i dunno if this is real or not,
i dunno if i should continue being like this.

things that used to feel so right,
doesnt feel the same anymore.

i'm afraid to commit the same mistake i've made over and over again.

perhaps being single is the best thing ever.

yes man!

2009-10-01T00:47:00.000+08:00

Lao niang is going to work at MediaCorp,
starting from 2nd November 2009.

What else can i say?

YESSSSSSS MANNNNN!!!!!!
=D

gosh

2009-09-26T17:46:00.001+08:00

quotation from miss loy huiyuan:

心情很吉普赛.

aww crap.
-roll eyes-

hello earth

2009-09-25T17:30:00.002+08:00

Miss Neo has not disappeared from the surface of Earth yet.
uh-uh. NO WAY. Not this soon anyway.

heard some people *ahem* keep complaining,
say very long nvr see me etc etc.
ok, i think only loy hui is complaining yea... LOL.
but oieeeee~ u saw me on wed liao so dun complain muahahaaaa!!!
=X

brought the OVB juniors for 2 soda green events on wednesday,
and i realise.... i dun miss those days at all.
HAHAHAAAA.

maybe all the perks were good,
but afterall, it is still considered as working.
so...... not really that enjoyable when one is working.
cos well known fact is: work sucks.

other than that,
i've been occupying myself with working part time, going out etc.
and i'm totally broke like shit already but birthdays are all coming back again.
sibei the sian.

for one,
we celebrated ade's birthday twice with her,
one on last sunday and one on tuesday,
which was her actual day.

thank god to hari raya that's why the chao recruits can be released,
and wooohoooo! nice botak heads! xD
very good to touch muahahaaa~

had dinner at ramen ten at far east and woah,
everyone should order food the 'chu style'.
she basically went: *points to the menu* give me three of everything except for this one thank you.

it shocked the waitress and each and everyone of us as well LOL.
but its damn cool to order food liddat lah hahahaaa!

no picture cos its polaroid and all are with ade.
and my final conclusion is: never ask a passerby to help u take polaroid.
sad to say, they have no idea what is called 'framing'.

i shall learn my lessons after 9182603754 times trying to get a passerby to take a polaroid for me. -pout-

tues went for k at teo heng after work cos the birthday girl says so.
sing sang sung and headed to downtown east mac for dinner/supper.

sarah is such an entertainer with her 大舌头 and woooo!
how much i just love to irritate her with that.... =P
-starts singing 大舌头 by 吴克群-

sent them home (wonder why i do it cos we're all girls)
and the best thing is...

when i wanted to catch the very last bus from sarah house's bus stop, i went aboard just to realise my ez link card no money. =.=

i seriously hate the new ez link card cos i cannot have negative value in the card and i thus i decided to walk home from sarah house instead.

it was a very cooling night,
and an extremely long walk either.
my walking distances seem to be getting further and further each time.

maybe one day i shall just walk from pasir ris to tuas.
damn cooool lah.

and as usual,
i love all my walk alone sessions.
it gives me sufficient time to think through about the things happening in my life,
and what's the next step i should take etc.

and OMG WTF i crushed a snail on my way home!!!
))):

i didnt mean to kill you mr snail!
it was all an accident...
the sky was dark and you're just tooooo puny!
i hope u rest in peace.

though i'm very very very the busy,
but i'm also much more happier than i was previously.
not sure how long will this happiness last,
but my life has definitely turn over for the better. (:
thank YOU so much. ((:

as the days goes by,
i hope things can be more smooth.
omg i got a job interview coming up on monday!
hope i can get it!

confused mind

2009-09-15T17:30:00.005+08:00

這應該是所謂的 “自作自受”，對吧？

我老是讓自己陷入這樣的窘境，
到底什麼時候才能清醒？

haishhh.

i wished that everything was just a beautiful dream.
but still, thank you for the wonderful weekend.

More updates

2009-09-12T00:27:00.005+08:00

Ahuh as many can see i've removed the previous post...
HAA.
cos the other blog is no longer in existence yea...
find it too troublesome liao...

anyway today blogger is being very nice to me!
so i shall blog while it remains nice! =D
but apparently as i blogged, MSN is being mean to me.
It keeps shutting me down for no reason.
=.=

anyway let's see....
-flips through planner-

after last update,
the week fast forward to friday!
where i met bel, jess and yao at the same old place for yong tau foo!
YUMMY!

and i was late for 1.5 hours!
reason being: i didnt know we werent gonna stay over!
HAAA.
so i thought we could have to whole night gossiping...
=X

oh wells,
but it was enough gossiping for the night already lah huh... LOL.

the next day which was saturday,
i went back to the same place i did the week before,
to sing k!
wooooo!

though far but cheap!
K with mingfong they all is forever so hilarious...

and the next day which was a sunday was a farewell for LPS army boys!

went to timbre and ate!
roasted duck pizza is damn damn niceeeee!

after that we walked over to clarke quay...
went to Coffee Club at Cannery there,
and fooled around the whole night.

after that it was impromptu stayover at chu's house...
had a couple of drinks there and played munchkin again!
HAAA.

we finally like went back to our old normal speed,
prolly cos we had someone new with us.

and we never knew chu could be such a good thief.
=X

photos arent with me so i cant post them up!
a few activities ones are already on facebook!

the next week wednesday i went clubbing with PSP peeps.

the group of us chilled at hooters first,
den after that bid jiande goodbye cos he wore slippers.

the remaining of us went over to Zouk and Phuture.
Went to look for ruiting at Zouk, headed up to Phuture and we saw kian min.

it was damn damn damn crowded at Phuture lahh zzz...
and i met stella there too! HAAA.

didnt stayed long at Phuture,
headed back to Zouk very soon and we spent the rest of the night mambo-ing there.

Photos!!!
stupid jiahao die die wan to squeeze into the photo when i wanted to take photo with carmen...*muacks*two pandas...
left one very nice right one not nice...

anyway the panda on the right has enlisted!
HAAAA.weijie and me...
the youngest guy there...
HAAA.

he just reached 18 only 3 months ago...carmen and me!i swear i did not finish that jug by myself.
uh-uh, no way.

just look at the number of straws!the one and only group photo of the night!

left Zouk at 230am and i reached home only at 3am.
WAHH cabfare is sibei the chor.
LOL.

anyway didnt sleep,
did some stuff and..... i showered at 6.

prepared to go and send the army guys off.
first up was jiawei who's enlisting at 8am.
ended up i reached pasir ris interchange earlier than me.

he says his reporting time was 745-800.
and he reach some time around 830 liddat.
win liao lohh.

after that met yong xian at 930,
said hi and bye and he was gone.

den it was kelvin and aisheng's turn.
kelvin was damn excited that he reached super early.
we called and called aisheng but he never picked up!
scare the hell outta us man...
thought he overslept or something...
hahaaaa.

and so,goodbye boys!
we cant wait to see your botak head! xD

after sending them home,
went to have subway.

yes, adeline had her subway lunch after like 2.5 hours she had her BK breakfast.
=.=
this woman is crazy.
and no i didnt eat any lunch.
all i had was a cookie.

after all the lunching i didn't went home to sleep at all.
headed down to marina to meet sok.

lunched at thai express and NO i didnt eat lunch.
all i had was two prawn toasts!

went to peninsula plaza for her to pick out tourist stuff to bring over to Hawaii,
as gifts for her colleagues there.

waited for her super retarded boyfriend to appear.
walked around, chilled, fooled around.camwhoring in the toilet, as usual.

took a couple of polaroids for the girl to keep with her...her retarded boyfriend and her.
i hope the picture is not clear enough. =Xpretty girls with pretty background.cannot show face of boyfriend,
later he tio charge. (though it already appear on the polaroid)
=Xsignature pose!anyway girl,
you're flying to Hawaii next week for your stupid attachment.

I know everything's gonna be ok for you,
like it has always been throughout the years,
but still do take care of yourself alright.
(:

please bring back some souvenirs for me and i shall see you after your return!

after i met sok,
met with mr ong to go IT show,
despite the fact that i didnt sleep at all the night before.

but well fortunately for me,
coffee works on me.
so the coffee i had at 9am in the morning last till like 5 plus in the afternoon.
after that got another starbucks latte and believe it or not!
it lasted till like 1 plus last night.
which was the time i got home HAA.

eccentric mr ong keep asking if i'm ok anot when i'm PERFECTLY FINEEEE.
and he confuses me and the promoter with all the networking and wiring stuff in his 4 storey house.
i swear we walk through the damn IT show for like 390124856 times lah!
zzzz....

i only managed to get to sleep at like 2am after being awake for 32 hours.
damn niceeeee.

basic updates i guess...

not sure when's the next time i'm gonna blog again,
it all depends on mr blogger.
thanks for being so nice today mr blogger.
please continue to be so nice.

happy 20th little boy!

2009-09-01T00:50:00.002+08:00

army girl has got an off day too!
HAAA.

even though today is a weekday, i still headed out to tampines mall...
met up with kaishi and gang to celebrate a little boy's birthday...

the last time i saw them was probably on my birthday...
and its only 2 months but they say i slim down again...
-.-

which i seriously dun think is true loh...
i'm just good at hiding hahaaa!!!
anyway, happy 20th birthday to you little boy!!

you've joined in the 'Too Old' club as well le wahahaaa!
the next one shall be kaishi!!! ((:enjoy your trip to KL + Genting tomorrow!
dun shop too much though... =P

sidetrack a bit,
i am damn pissed and unhappy.
if all of u this date cannot that date cannot den whatever.
do as u all deem fit.

looooong update

2009-08-30T01:47:00.007+08:00

yes i can finally blogged man!!

for the past few days i've tried so hard to blog,
but darn blogger just give the the stupid basic layout...
which means i can't change my font colour nor upload pictures...

so i decided to leave till one day blogger decides to be good...
in fact, i half wanted to switch the wordpress...

dunno why but decided not to in the end.
probably because of laziness... (as usual)

some updates ever since the last date i blogged.

as mentioned in the previous entry,
yes i'm screwed.

i guess many of you didnt really know what was going on...
i went to apply for a job position at Ocean Butterflies...

there was first the sending of the resume,
den the people sent me an Q&A email,
i passed the Q&A i guess cos i went for the face to face interview...

where it marks my downfall.

i was really really disappointed (not to forget depressed as well) at first,
like seriously who wouldn't?
but i guess i'm pretty much through with this issue now.

after that i actually went for another interview at ven's company...
which somehow i dunno how i failed again.
zzz.

yah lah yah lah...
something must be very wrong with me...
i need to figure out asap or else i'm gonna be jobless for life.

and so as the week goes by,
i rot at home every weekday and only goes out on weekend.

reason being: my bank account has hits its lowest rate ever.
so bo bian, must stay home more often to save money...
i'm like a home army-girl who books out on weekends. =X

and since i'm being coped up at home,
i just spammed another 4 job resumes within the last three days and all i can do now is hope that any one of them will call me soon.

ok and so,
despite all these downfalls,
i've been to the singapore flyer like finally.

night view was great,
though i thought it look almost exactly like what i saw the other day when we ventured to marina barrage in the middle of the night.

and i hope one day i get the chance to see the day view.
the flyer's objective is to commemorate yuanjian's 20th birthday.
=X

photos up on facebook, and i believe everyone saw the photos already.anyway still, i hope you enjoyed the day...
(PS: we went on the 15th Aug not 12 Aug)
happy birthday to you my didi. (:

and the next weekend i met my polymates for lee kow fong's farewell...
he's heading to england for further studies (TSKK!)
on a super duper very auspicious date: 11 Sept. (TSKK TSKK!)

kow fong's one of the best lecturers we ever had,
so no matter what,
i hope everything will go smoothly for him...
all the best old lee.
and please arh, don't be like how you use to treat us,
everything also 随便啦随便啦~
HAA. ok i know you won't.

sorry to 4r3 people cos i couldnt meet up with them...
it clashes on the same day as the farewell dinner.
and i really missed everyone loads.

dearest charlie senior flew off to china already...
i know she's safe and sound in shanghai now...
hope everything's ok for her. ((:do take care of yourself charlie...
you're greatly missed.

before i continue ranting about my this boring yet exciting and somewhat fun week...
let me redeem myself for a lie. =Xi posted this picture in my facebook,
and its currently my proflie pic.

but dear friends,
do not be mistaken.

i did not chop off my hair.
my hair is still as long as ever.

i was really contemplating if i should chop my hair,
and i wondered how i would looked like with short hair,
thus i stuff the rest of my hair behind and took this photo.

my long hair is still attached to my dearest head.
=X

sorry to fool you people.
i'm just such a great actress. =X

anyway, i still love the picture.
loads. (:

my weekend bookout kicks off on friday this week!
where i met ruobing for lunch...
its been 4 freaking years since we last saw each other!!!

i guess we were so busy chit chatting that i forgot to take photo.
)):

but no worries,
i believe we will meet more and more often in the future!!

after that i went to ion orchard with kiwi and kel and adeline.
kiwi's stuck in army for too long,
so we had to bring the sua gu him for a walk in the town.

we arrived at orchard and he asked where were we heading to...
so we told him ION...
and kiwi replied: isn't ION in BUGIS?
o.O

well, that's definitely the 2nd sarah in the making.

kiwi brought me so much laughter that night that.....
for once, i think he's of higher entertainment value than sarah.
=X

but dun worry sarah, i still love you.
i won't take back what i say.
you are the best entertainment anyone can get still, i still can't live without you.
((((((((((((((:

and so kiwi decided to drop the idea of getting the super gay and flowery long wallet and decided to buy another wallet which costs 136 bucks and it still looks equally gay.

ok maybe not that gay but still,
quite gay.

as long the dear lard likes it,
den.... anything loh.takopachi sampan...
there are 10 balls and we finally know that kiwi actually loves BALLS.
(:three greedy pigs fighting for kiwi's favourite balls...

and oh!!!
anyway, i know this is darn random but i bought a polaroid online!

or technically speaking,
ade bought it online.

it's supposed to be a joint investment,
cos lao niang is broke right now...
so ade paid for it first (even though i'm supposed to pay her like half)
and we are such good friends that we know what's in each other's mind.

she offered to pay for it cos she knows i want it real badly...
and she knows she wun use it for long...
so basically she's waiting for me to get a job,
pay her the full amount and den the polaroid will be mine.
TOTALLY MINE.

anyway its damn fun lah though its a damn simple thing to use.new polaroid and the first picture which came out of it!
ok we made a fool outta ourselves and i'm not gonna elaborate.
it shall be a secret among the four of us. =Xthe three Bs of mine... (order from RIGHT to LEFT)
my brother, my bitch and my........ Braun buffel gay. =X

went to chomp chomp for a super sumptuous dinner...
we even mms sarah the photo of our food while she has jap lessons.
such nice friends we are. ^.^

and today, i went to sing K with PSP people!!!
supposed to meet for lunch but yah lah i cannot wake up.
whatever man.... LOL. people who are present excluding me, weiqian and maureen and jiahao.
and this other pair of junior couple.the uncle boss who got depressed and emo-ed when they refused to let him sing his R-rated songs.uncle boss is planning some thing evil and is roping the next uncle boss gonnabe in to assist him.PSP is not only capable of doing all the sound system setup etc ok!
we can setup, we can sing, and we're training to DANCE.uh-uh.
uncles boss no happy already. )):our very own PSP five hundred!!!he dances and he sings...
multi-talented ok!Juniors!!
sheeeeeeesh i'm old. >.<our dinner was at this hawker centre...
there are great hokkien prawn mee there...
i love it. (:

more pictures on facebook apparently lol.

took a super long bus ride home after that...
it took me 2 hours i think...
-shrug-

yes i've been pretty emotional these few days,
cos i kept thinking about something.

first i thought i managed to clear my thoughts already,
but somehow today i got quite confused again.

perhaps the problem lies in me,
i'm the one who taking things too hard.
but its hard for me to take things in stride.

don't ask anything, i won't reveal a single word.

this whole issue is just going around in circles,
and i'm very upset with myself.
not to mention a bit disappointed with you.

this sounds stupid but its a fact.
you're the only one who can stop everything.
i dowan to be a fool anymore.

i just need to hear it from you.
one word.
just one word will do.

screwed up!

2009-08-14T03:10:00.002+08:00

OMGGGG.

i'm so screwed.
like totally.
))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))):

maybe i should just kiss it goodbye.
))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))):

the verdict is said to be out later today!
i dun think i can take it...
-faint-

i am back!

2009-08-12T00:40:00.002+08:00

Hello earthlings!

sorry for the disappointment but nope!
Shuang Ying has not rotted yet!
Perhaps half rotten but definitely not totally gone yet...

know its been quite some time since my last update,
cos my life's too boring.
and i got no pictures, so i dun like to update.

Some little details to be updated though...

firstly, i finally met up with some of my old friends.
all these are people whom i have not seen for at least a year and a half.

for example, liping and gang are people whom i have not met probably for the past three years or so.

i've not seen angie darling ever since last year chinese new year, which took place at the start of the year.

its been soooooo bloody long...
am happy to meet and to see everyone is still doing great. (:

and a stupid thing happen.

Miss Neo here kena self quarantined at home cos i was down with fever after i returned from a stayover at kelvin's house.

yahh, and i got sore throat, cough, flu etc.
all the symptoms of H1N1.

so the doctor scared loh and ask me to stay home and not go out.
It was a freaking 7 days ok mind you.
life is damn boring to not be able go anywhere!!
though i save quite a bit but den the cost of the medication i took total up to 144 bucks.
*cough*

oh wells, what to do.
like what those uncles and aunties like to say lah,
can die cannot fall sick arh!

but i couldnt tahan quarantined till saturday,
and since doctor say if i'm ok by thurs means i'm ok,
i went out for random dao huay session + midnight marina barrage on friday night!

WEEEEEEEE!

and sarah, i still dunno where is singtel at...
=X

and last week,
i finally realise the fragility of life.

it was one of the greatest shock we received this year,
and we pray for all the best.

life gotta go on, so stay strong.

anyway, adeline and i did something stupid today.

SOMEONE managed to get me to work at this place doing some promotion.
i knew it had something to do with sales,
but i didnt know that it would be THAT bad.

and the best part is,
i psycho-ed adeline to go with me as well!

ended up we worked for like 5.5 hours and we both decided to quit,
leaving that poor someone to work on his own.
=X

i'm so sorry man oyster.
=/

guess i really hated doing sales alot,
though i was already getting the hang of things before my decision to leave,
but i still decided not to continue.

oh wells.

and now all i can do is to hope and pray.
the phone call will come.
*claps both hands together*

remincising about the past.

2009-07-14T05:25:00.007+08:00

its been so long since i last blogged...

and i wanted to blog pretty badly.

but whenever i opened blogger,

my mind jus goes blank and there isnt anything much i can blog about.

yah i know its another weird blogging timing,

but its not that i'm not sleeping!

its because i've jus woke up from a deep slumber couple of hours ago.

anyway, i randomly logged into friendster a few nights ago.

ever since i had facebook, i've nvr set foot into friendster again.

i believe that applies for almost everyone out there.

went to flip through my old photos and testimonials,

which wasnt alot to start off with anyway.

well what can i say?

there was a whole lots of memories.

sometimes when we meet new friends,

we just simply forget our old friends.

not contacting for a period of time will drift close friends apart,

and memories just fade away like that.

and these memories were usually great and wonderful times in our lives.

My dearest 4r3...

its been ages since we last had a proper class gathering.

ever since our graduation from NAS 4 years ago.

there are still a couple of cliques having their own meetups and stuff,

but not as a whole big class.

the last time i saw most of 4r3 people was probably teachers' day 2 years ago.

and we never managed to have our own post O Levels BBQ celebration, did we?

and to think most of us has already graduated from Poly/JC.

with the poly guys entering/entered NS,

and the JC guys are gonna ORD soon.
this was the representative for our class,

we were basically know as the class who painted spongebob.

LOL.

though it was pretty tiring that we had to return to school almost everyday during the hols,

but it was such fun doing all the painting.

we did came up with a theme,

but ended up we added in so much more stuff that we no longer have a theme.

aftter that we were just known as the spongebob class.

who in the world would combined underwater creatures with beach and spongebob and patrick also the simpsons staring at UFOs trying to capture cows?

4r3 is that special, that unique, that fun, that nice.

nvr can i forget how jingkai always asked for grades moderation aft our prelims.

nvr can i forget how the boys wrapped melanie up with the plastic cover we had.

nvr can i forget how we did the torturous National day dance together.

nvr can i forget how we slogged for fIEsta and worked together as a united class.

nvr can i forget how weiwen challenged tasha to the "1 VS Idiot" theory.

and dear ruobing, i misses you so much.

it has been 4 years since i last met you.

if it wasnt for you i wouldnt have pulled through my sec 4 life.

i guess i must really find time to meet you soon.

and i miss putting on my uniform.

My dearest dizi-mates...

i'm pretty glad that we're still meeting up rather constantly,

cos as far as i can see we're like the most bonded ensemble in CO.

but there are quite a few which we have been missing for quite some time,

and of course the old old old old old seniors who have not been coming,

hope that the year end chalet (if there's any) would be a great success.

i hope more people can turn up.

lastly, i hope that the juniors can keep joining in.

or else it will always be these few of us gathering ourselves.

Dearest LPS lovelies...

we have all changed so much over the years.

and yes, there are always those few sticking around with me,

constantly going out every week.

you guys have been like the best clique i ever had,

and i really depend alot on you people.

if it wasnt for you people i guess my poly life would have been hell.

our meetup gets more and more often,

yet every outing is always so fun and entertaining.

it is totally amazing how we manage to bond after we graduated from secondary schools,

and up till now, the bond is still going strong.

6.3 only has these few people,

lots which are missing and prolly wun like joining us.

the above two photos are taken like 6 or 7 years back...

prolly when we were in sec 3.

it was the most number of people i've ever seen going back to LPS.

but since years ago, we've stopped this tradition.

Dearest Angie...

i miss you hell loads.

i have not seen you for at least a year and half.

the last time i met u was probably before i set off to china.

or even way before that.

it was my bad to have missed that chance to meet you,

and i'm afraid that you're too busy to meet up with me.

a meet up is a must.

and it must happen soon.

i remembered how i always skipped sch in poly and head down to TP to find you.

i remembered how i always waited for you to end work at downtown east.

i remembered how i walked with you to pasir ris interchange after your work.

i remembered how i would listen quietly to your singing as we walked.

i remembered how i would share problems with you at the mac at whitesands.

i miss you so much sweets.

My dearest ultra-random-dunno-how-we-came-together clique...

i can only say so much has happened to us.

we've been through so much stuff together.

studies, relationships, friendships etc.

i guess we should all find more time to meet,

and more activities to do as well.

afterall, our get-together is a really amazing and nobody knows how we can clique.

but well, we just did, and it was a great thing.

though some has not been meeting often,

i still miss you.

afterall, you were my best friend and you still are my friend.

Hello NAPS kiddos!

all of you are in primary 6 this year and will be taking your PSLE real soon.

i bet most of you have already forgotten me, but i wun forget you.

the 5 day camp was a big test to most of you, as well as us.

cant forget how we managed to bond during the last few days of the camp,

and damn it, i actually cried when i returned you kids to your parents.

it was really fun, and pleasant memory in my poly life.

you are all so adorable and lovely,

and i miss you all.

how i wish you kids will still remember me.

Dearest cousins...

words are needless here.

we're all blood related and i love you all too much.

what we need is more outings together,

that's like a damn cool thing.

Dear Genting....

HAA!

i really miss this place man.

the cool weather is the best thing about it.

been going there ever since i was 1 or 2 years old,

and that place holds so many memories.

i've been there with my parents,

i've been there with my cousins.

i've been there with NASCO people,

i've been there with LPS Lovelies.

at a different point in time,

i've been to the same place over and over again,

with different people.

there are always many wonderful memories about that place,

regardless of who i have been there with.

and looking at the darn weather in singapore now just makes me miss that place even more.

how i wish to get back there right now.

AND hellloooooo hangzhou!

i really missed the times there.

it is really the best time i ever had during my 3 years of tertiary education.

when i headed there i cried like mad,

cos i hated that place.

all i did almost everyday was to wish and wish i can get my ass back to singapore as soon as possible.

i didnt cried when i left,

but i felt the emotions filling me in.

after all, it was the place where i spent 4 months in.

i had feelings for that place, even though i hated the irresponsible "teacher" who is supposedly to take care of us.

i think we did a better job keeping a lookout for one another ourselves.

anyway, upon my return,

i finally found out what made seniors missed that place so much.

cos now, i'm like them too.

believe it or not,

i miss studying.

i really do.

the days where we spent sleepless nights together at different people's houses just to make sure we finish our assignment on time.

stressful yet fun.

shuangying has been really unproductive for the past few months.

she has not been putting in any effort to do anything.

she's a total failure cos after so many months, she has yet to find a job.

and she has totally wrecked her own future plans.

but yet she is not starting on making new plans for herself.

she has failed to see that if this goes on, the one suffering will be her.

starting from today,

i shall starting looking everywhere for a possible job opportunity.

continue waiting does not brings my chances of getting a job any higher.

i shall start making proper plans for my future,

schools wun come to me if i just rot at home everyday.

i need more determination and motivation.

i need to lead a more fulfilling life.

and i aim to get my driving license,

and a DLSR camera,

by the time i reach 21.

i hate life without a proper camera to use.

雙穎, 你要振作你要加油.

some updates about my mudane life

2009-07-03T04:10:00.004+08:00

i'm back here after a few weeks!

looks like i still cant kick my bad habit...

been sleeping early for the past few days,

all it takes it to not sleep for one night and i'm KO-ed at 10pm the very next day.

continued to (try to) sleep early,

due to all the early wake ups i have.

but apparently there's no need for me to wake up that early tml,

thus explaining the time that i'm blogging at.
LOL.

anyway, i've been appearing as a busy girl,

going out having fun being a full-time slacker,

do everything except for looking for a job.

rather sick of searching online for jobs.

i know i'm darn picky about working,

and looking at the situation now i probably should get a job to let money roll in,

however, i still choose to rot at home,

rather than to settle for any job out there with no satisfaction gained.

weird mindset of mine i know.

but i couldnt care less.

nothing much going on around,

some of the stuff that are worth mentioning is prolly my cousins' outing on 23rd June.

and i'm loving it.

cousins gatherings has always been fun,

and this time a whole group of us (girls) decided to hit K-box.

and i was pretty amused when we were asked to show our student passes.

there was:-

1 university ez-link card.

1 poly ez-link card.

1 ITE ez link-card.

3 secondary school ez-link cards.

AND....

1 primary school ez-link card.

LOL.

and dun belittle the power of 7 girls.

we finished 7 side dishes within the timespan of 2 songs.

and upon knowing that ling-jie's nuts are refillable,

daryl tan couldnt control her hunger and demanded for the constant refill after every 3 mins or so.

the man eventually gave up and didnt give us our last bowl of nuts.

and oh, the scenario of the dances continues to make me smile to myself.

no picture, cos daryl tan never upload/send me.

jasleen's belated 21st was celebrated on 27th june.

love the dinner, gossips and molesting.
LOL.

i bought a tiramisu cake and stupid me forgot that it needs to refigerate,

thus when we open up the cake box hours later,

we saw a melted cake.

it melted my heart instantly too.

ended up at xin wang cafe,

bought her a peanut toast as replacement for the cake.

and then the molesting starts.

i'm like totally innocent!

all i did was sit in front of her and snap paparazzi shots non-stop.

as much as i enjoyed the gossiping,

the aftermath is definitely something not anyone will like.

even though i contributed to the gossiping too,

i'm feeling rather guilty about it as well.

but wells, what's done cant be undone.

all i can do now is hope that retribution doesnt gets back at me.

but den again, which human on earth does not gossip?

you tell me lah~

headed back to NP for Z Chen's campus concert today.

was really shocked to see full house attendance,

but also, i felt happy for the juniors.

afterall we all know how hard is it to organise a campus concert,

all the pre-planning, the on-scene action and post clearances.

every single event that PSP has done always brings back wonderful memories.

there were minor hiccups here and there,

but they are still new cant blame them,

and i believe they will all learn from their mistakes.

great job done juniors!

for it is a fact that it's the first full house after 4 freaking years!

PSP is the <3.

and i think i have not seen the LPS people for the longest time ever.

hope that there will be a movie date tomorrow night.

and oh,

dearest CHS juniors are returning from China!

on this coming saturday at 850pm or so i think...

after 4 torturous months there,

they are finally back home!

will definitely brave through H1N1 and bring myself to airport and fetch all of you!

dun worry,

returning home = u still need to do attachment = more gruelling hell is waiting for you.

WAHAHAHAAAAAAAAA~